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Being bi, I find both equally attractive.

A couple of heartache songs and favorites, featuring Patti LaBelle–and I can’t believe they were released over 30 and 40 years ago! (Wow…I am old!)…

“On My Own” with Michael McDonald (1986)

“On my own…

This wasn't how it was supposed to be…”

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“Isn’t It a Shame” with Labelle (1976)

“How is it that two people who laughed together and loved together sometimes end up far apart…?

Isn't it a shame, you have to laugh before you cry?”

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Provided it was uploaded within the last 5 days, you should be able to do so on the Edit screen for your torrent. There, at the bottom of the screen is the option to do so (as shown in image). You just need to provide your reason for wanting to delete it.

Good luck!

“I Can’t Make You Love Me” Bonnie Raitt (1991)

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Although the song doesn’t actually make me cry, it does move me–such a sad situation to be in.

Happy and comfortable being a bi-guy, I am most definitely equally attracted to females. >:D

I’ve got a few images of some that appeal to me incorporated into a slideshow with images of another beauty…

My baby! :cheers:

Here's over half a century's worth of me…

and mine…https://forum.gaytorrent.ru/index.php?topic=46195.0

As far as I can remember, it’s always been and continues to be a fun until I’m done feeling and reaction that comes on immediately after any orgasm. Whether by masturbating alone or while having partnered sex, after I cum all interest in anything sexual is totally gone.

Looking back, I can vividly recall being 18 and a senior in high school–Sunday afternoons, mom and sister out, and me and my “high school sweetheart” having sex in my bedroom. It was always a case of once I was through, all I thought about was getting back to the living room to watch football.

These days, and in spite of currently being in a couple of committed relationships of over 34 and 20 years, of the countless loads I routinely deliver, very few are sucked out or fucked out, being stroked out instead.

That being said, for me, masturbating is like waking up or coming to from a state where the “little head” was in complete control of things. Once satisfied, control is given back to the “big head”--to clean up all the mess.  ???

As far as doing anything to prevent that "post-jack attack" from happening–I never thought about it. The first thing that immediately comes to mind after doing the do, and that brief disgust-thing has passed…

shower or no shower?

@rezurrected:

SF Forty Niners

Good for you.

Keep the faith.

@69ner:

Raider Nation!

GO  CHIEFS! :cheers:

First noting the exception of my two significant others of over 34 and 20 years–both of whom I could never say enough about as far as being best friends.

My dear friend of over 34 years, he’s not quite a year older than I am, straight–and as Bobby would say--“A big burly devil.”

Easily fitting the “bear” description--a teddy bear–a real sweetheart and truly very special in my very small circle of very close friends.

A couple of tracks from the 1986 Wham! album “Music from the Edge of Heaven”–and my top favorites by George Michael–“…in peace.”

A Different Corner…

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Blue (Live in China)

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I always thought they were pretty heavy songs. Naturally, listening to them now has me sighing a lot more than usual.

Rachel…Jennifer Aniston

My live and die guy–the one I live for, and the one I’d die for.

My partner since 1982, Bobby “CrusaderRab” has been here for me as my main significant other, since we began this thing–surprisingly and unbelievably now about to enter its 35th year!

Surprising in that looking at when we first got together thirty-something years ago—twice my age, 22 and 44, each in a “committed” relationship; and to be honest, I don’t think either one of us was really looking at anything past that afternoon. Going from that, to a bi-monthly thing, to this–yes, it is rather surprising!

Unbelievable in that he’s put up with me and hasn’t fired me in all this time. Even with all my baggage, and circumstances pertaining to me over these many years, he’s kept me; and I’m sure there aren’t many others who would…maybe excepting my other significant other, of over twenty years! (But that’s another story.)

Anyway, I always tell Bobby he’s the only man in the world with two assholes–me, and the one he was born with.

The problem with great relationships lasting a lifetime is that they only last a lifetime. With the end of a “lifetime,” comes the end of that relationship. More and more these days, aside from his doing so, I’m reminded about the closer approaching time when things won’t be as they have been.

For so long now, it’s been Bobby fulfilling all of my needs, and practically all of my wants–assuming all the responsibilities of affording me this lifestyle--the only effort on my part has been to ask.

Living the life of a kid, I’m ill-prepared for those times ahead, leading up to the time when I’ll be the only one responsible for myself. I hate thinking about it, and doing so saddens me more each time. Of course this sadness has no bearing on the “whats” of my life–what to expect, what needs to be done, etc.,--just on the “who”--who will be missing from my life.

I’m actually clueless about so much and have no grasp of the reality of what lies in store. With only a couple of real close friends, and a small social circle, the forum is where I’ll be seeking advice and answers to so many questions.

From so many posts I’ve read, the forum will also prove to be a source of solace, comfort, support, inspiration, hope, and all of those other nouns and adjectives associated with a sympathy card.

In closing–with a heavy sigh and breath shuddering–and now all of a sudden, the eyes are welling-up (which seems to be happening more often these days when I think about this stuff-- this male mid-life hormonal change thing, or whatever it is, it’s really doing a number on me!)…

At 56, I’ve been lucky in not having to compose many sympathy cards, fortunate to have experienced only a few such losses. The closest was the passing of a dear uncle, and sad as I was, I couldn’t even begin to imagine what my aunt or cousins were feeling!

I know time will be changing all of that “good fortune.”  Losses are going to come more often, and they’re going to hurt a whole lot more.

Now–with this _man_opause thing–and cryin’ like a girl just over the thought of it, I don’t know what I’ll be like, or what I’m going to do when the thought no longer is just a thought.

So, it’s been a day since I entered that last paragraph, and that crying jag has passed. In looking over what I’ve written, it is rather vague in terms of what I’m expecting or looking for with respect to replies. However, if you’ve read this far, the post has served its intended purpose and that was just to share some stuff about me, and of course about my better-half–and now, it also allows me to express my deepest appreciation to everybody--staff and members alike, because in reality, without you, I wouldn’t be here! :clap2:

Aside from the intended purpose of this post, the bonus without a doubt is in the replies to it, and what comes with them–who you meet, and what you learn.

So feel free to post a reply--whether it’s something about you or yours, or maybe some advice or thought on what to do or expect down the road, or anything you feel is noteworthy.

Remember…The keyboard is mightier than the pen and the sword!

@mufum69:

I can't say I was never close to my dad. Seems like I was on my own path and for some reason we never saw each other.
Not that he didn't try but I was way too rebellious to let that happen.
I eventually became closer to my mother.
But when my mother got sick with cancer I had to go spend some time with my dad (a few months) before she passed away.
We had a lot of time to spend and we got to know each other. I realise I never really knew him.
The reason we butt heads was because we were both a lot alike.
It's been about 2 1/2 years since my mother has passed and we talk on the phone every day.
We've become super close and for an old guy he's a great guy.
I love my dad  :love:

@brianboru72:

Thank you for the early greeting!  :hug2: Congratulations on reaching 2 years here, here's to another year! I hope I last as long.

Happy Holidays to you and your loved ones as well. May you find something hot and horny under your tree!  ;D

:hug:

@69ner:

Raider Nation!

We're back…and on top!

GO  CHIEFS! :cheers:

@bostonpolar:

I was very close to my father.  We had similar interests and shared them.  Once he knew I was gay, it took him a while to accept it, but both he and my mother did.  I loved him very much.

He died without any warning on Christmas Eve 2001.  I had spoken to him the day before on the phone of what my mom and he were going to be doing; they were to have travelled after the holiday.  Things in my life started to go very bad for me after his death – and I have only just started to recover this year.

I no longer can enjoy Christmas and I have come to loath the time between the USA Thanksgiving and New Year's Eve.  I do my best to avoid anything related to these holidays, but since they saturate American culture it is extremely difficult to do.

I developed chronic depression and panic disorders several years before my Dad died, so the entire month of December is basically a misery to me.

. . .

Very moving…I'm sorry to know how this time of year affects you, but still wish you the best in getting through it.

Take care.

@cannonmc:

Thank you 

You're very welcome cannonmc…

Have a great one!

Happy Holidays!

The 2016 holiday family video, sending some cheer from Bobby ‘CrusaderRab’ and me, to you and yours!

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A few days ago, on the verge of reaching the two-year mark of my being a member, I honestly didn’t think I’d still be here ???…

https://forum.gaytorrent.ru/index.php?topic=45475.msg240481#msg240481

Well, earlier today I did reach that two-year mark and I’m very happy to say that I am still here!

Wishing you all the best for a fantastic holiday season and terrific New Year! :hug:

Oops…my bad.

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