Posts made by yababylol

@lizejing1994 You've probably already aware of this, but just to make sure (you never know) -- have you looked at how much data you've downloaded to compare it to your upload total manually? The ratio is a true ratio, so it's determined mainly by dividing your uploaded amount by your downloaded amount

For example, say you've downloaded EXACTLY 300 GB worth of non-freeleech torrents already before uploading the 300 GB. That would get you at a 1:1 ratio and pretty much in neutral (but good standing) zone in terms of ratio. However, if you've downloaded significantly more than 300 GB (this is cumulatively, across the history of your account), it would require more than 300 GB to rebalance things again. It's possible to dig yourself into some pretty big holes if you binge on downloads too quickly.

I apologize again if you didn't need to read all of that and it's old news to you! I just like to never make assumptions, and that really would be the very first place to check. There's no shame in finding yourself in one of these holes, as long as you're willing to dig yourself out by trying to stick to FREELEECH and leaving your torrent client open as much as you can to build it back up. I'm in a similar situation myself, but recovery is slow ... not absent.

Out of curiosity, what is your download vs. upload all time total? You can see that on your personal stats page by clicking your user name in the upper right on the main gaytor.rent website, and then going to "Detaills" and Stats"

I'll just end by throwing in a third apology if it turns out none of this information was needed, and you were already aware to check for all of that. If you are sure that your download all-time total is now at least equal to or higher than your all-time upload total, I have no clue what it could be. It has always seemed accurate to me me when I've done the math myself.

What other options are there?

Grindr, Growlr, Scruff, etc … it's all on the apps now. Public cruising spots are becoming a thing of the past faster and faster, as far as I've heard.

Do you have a smartphone or tablet?

The shame feelings are about cultural programming, trust me. I don't know what your upbringing was like, but even a casual connection to Western culture tends to bring with it deeply ingrained Old Testatment hangups about your own sexuality.

Even an atheist who pragmatically knows in his head there's no logical reason to keep feeling those old fears and shameful feelings can't escape an entire childhood, adolescence, early adulthood, etc … however long it took you to mature enough to understand there's nothing wrong with you venting off perfectly natural horny steam, as an adult man, has little to do with it. If you're religious, it's the screaming of the preacher and your parents that have those subconscious reactions programmed into you.

If not, it's at least the jeering and jokes from your peers while you were going through school and growing up (I still remember the day I could finally get all of my male friends to admit to me that they jerked off, at 18. We'd spent the last 6 years denying it and using it as an insult against each other). That stuff sticks with you in ways that don't even touch on your conscious thoughts. They become instinct after while.

Still, there's hope and good news -- you can and will deprogram that nonsense shit. It just takes time, and a refusal to let it beat you. Now, when I miss a day of jacking off, THAT'S when I feel disappointed in myself. It's like exercise for every gland in your body that produces testosterone -- it's good for you, mentally, emotionally, and physiologically to ejaculate at least once a day (or multiple times, if you can get it). The fact that you use porn as an aid is no reason for shame -- we're visual animals.

You'll get over it. I promise. I promise, humanity at large will still love you after you jack off to a video of a twink getting stuffed up the rump. What's more, the people you're talking to right now can relate.  

I've seen up to the latest episode, and I can say it's very hot, and an excellent series. The whole premise is titillating. Essentially, the "guests" are allowed to take their personal storylines anywhere they want with the "hosts" (the AI androids in the amusement park) … they can be hero or villain, or literally just stay in the local whorehouse and fuck and drink the whole time.

That kind of freedom pretty much allows a paying guest to the park to "seduce" whichever of the androids he/she fancies; generally, most people try to do it with a love story that the android is programmed to go along with. All the android characters are well thought out for an Old West town ... this means a paying guest can do something incredibly wild like seducing the town sheriff, who already has a wife and kids, haha. Then again, the same kind of freedom is what allows the Ed Harris gunslinger character to commit rape against one of the robots if he wants to (in his own words, "I didn't want to woo you, I wanted you to fight."

Regarding gay characters -- lots of lesbian action so far, and some hints of male-on-male interest in at least one park-goer so far, but that does seem to be something they're easing into for an American audience (we haven't exactly had our own Torchwood show yet, which blew the doors open on the possibility of sexual fluidity). There's hints at it happening eventually.

I have no doubt that, consistent with the show universe, you're eventually going to see a male guest seduce a male host that would ordinarily be intended for women (like James Marsden's character), and I'd imagine that their programming would mean they'd go along with the man-romance. There's a lot of innuendo that the park's employees and scientific staff take liberties with the "equipment" as well.

The storyline is great, and that should be good enough … as far as the nude female form literally being disgusting to you, I can't say that I understand why that matters or warrants an "ew" (just a body) ...

... but even if it does, there's lots of naked guys, ass and cock, though ... hairy daddies, otters, jocks, hung black, etc. I've yet to see a man-on-man sex scene, but it's only a matter of time.

We all know firsthand (from watching it happen) how much Brent loved having big cock stretching his tight bubble butt open, how sexually alive and enthusiastic he was. That's sexual energy. No level of "technically superior face symmetry" can match that, so case closed on that alone … although, even based on photographic good looks alone, I still thing Brent/Sean wins.

Brent is hotter. Mind, I do find his more recent porn work more bland and sterile, but that's because I think he was desperately making an effort to become more mainstream. That meant big contract studio work, plastic, rehearsed, and artificial sex ... condoms (blech, not in PORN, get people blood tested and on the right medication, or don't go into  the field) ... an attempt to break into more mainstream indie acting, trendy adult gay clubs, yadda yadda.

Thanks for the support, everyone. I promise to make the torrent above freeleech as soon as I can, too.

I don't want Francis to be forgotten.

@cannonmc:

I think Alexander meant a button on each individual torrent page rather than alongside the entry on the Search list.

And it has been requested before.

I'd really like this functionality, as well. I often decide a new download based on your front page "most popular" list, or sometimes see direct link to torrents from the forums as recommendations.

I've been a member in good standing for many year (not a "newbie" by any means), and my ratio's in a down period right now … so I'm in payback mode. I don't want to commit to any big downloads at the moment, I just want to seed what I have as best I can and upload.

I hate to completely lose track of something I stumbled across, though. Sometimes, I have difficulty even finding the torrent I'm looking at going through the search function. The button on the actual torrent page would be very helpful.  

https://www.gaytorrent.ru/details.php?id=499d2a85f6c280446057094b228e603edf9deff762934261

Alright, so I went ahead and re-uploaded the actual torrent I once-upon-a-time-got from here, and I even cleaned up the video files a little (labeled them properly in their actual format), and added screenshots. If anyone can clean it up further, or add more to it, please let me know. The link is above.

I would've added it into my original post from a couple of years ago, but it's too old to edit.

I hope this meets the eyes of people who appreciate it, and remember him. There's no shame in part of your memory being about your sexuality … I hope when I'm gone, lovers will remember the horny side of me (it's important). 

@Briantheslag:

I'm 100% bottom when it comes to anal sex, and I prefer to be fucked bareback.

I don't see the point in being well fucked without the final ass full of cum.

The feel of the tops cock pulsating deep inside you is the most wonderful thing. :anal2: :churn:

As a top, I totally agree. I don't see the point in going bareback at all unless you're going to indulge in a little deep, copious breeding.

Pulling out is not a guarantee against HIV, guys. In fact, I'd say that if you're worried about it with who you're with, you should either both be on PrEP, or bareback is out completely.

The thing is, labels like "straight" and "gay" are completely new inventions, and they were cooked up by our modern culture over the last couple centuries or so. So many very angry "pure gay" people get upset when someone who uses the WORD 'straight' to describe themselves dare allow themselves a pleasurable sexual experience with the same gender to go around, continuing to call themselves 'straight' for all intents and purposes for the rest of their lives (and acting like it, too … wife, kids, mistresses, yadda yadda).

... these are also the same militant people who come rush in to emotionally defend a man who decides to leave a wife and kids to be with another man after over a decade of marriage, and insist "he was always gay, he just never knew it, let him be what he is." They don't want the reality of it to be more complicated than that, the extreme anti-bi activists, anymore than the extreme religious evangelical activists don't want to acknowledge that sexual attraction to one's own gender might not be a corruption sent by satan  >:D that is twisting God's true instructions about the way a person should be behave.

Here's the truth -- sexuality is fluid. It's okay. Sexual orientation, though? That's 100% cultural, the entire concept of it, that you have to "pick" one or the other and stay true to it your entire life. It's a new idea, not an old one.

So, you might only like males your entire life, and never stray from that. Vice versa, you might only like women your entire life, and stay true to THAT. That does happen.

Straying across that border happens a lot more often than our current culture officially recognizes, though. If you successfully seduce a straight guy (I've done it, and it usually results in just a casual drunken handjob or blowjob), who wakes up the next morning and continues on with his life as a "straight man" ... it's okay for him to keep calling himself straight. It's an identity label, and people get to pick those for themselves.

The reality is, though, that there's precious few of us in this world that have never entertained thoughts of sex with both genders (whether we call ourselves "gay" or "straight" now in our daily lives ... again, culture and labels). If it's a one-off incident that has happened 4 or 5 times in your lifetime, your fantasies straying oustide of your orientation, or if you fantasize every day ... it happens. You can seduce straight men, yes.

The important thing to remember is that "straight" is a word. Sexual orientation is not as firm as people want to believe it is. He might go home to his woman afterwards, but if he let you suck his dick, he got something good out of it. Don't worry about the word "straight." Just read people as individuals, see how responsive they are to advances, make discretion and privacy a guarantee, you'll start seeing exactly how solid orientation lines are drawn.

I was terrified of the idea for years, and kept hush-hush about it out of fear of it disrupting my life in a way I couldn't recover from. Then, I went through some major drama with friends that made me stop caring (at least briefly) about the outside world in general. So, I just did it. Like a band-aid.

… I had never felt so free. My development as a person grew exponentially after that. Toxic influences in my life melted away, I grew closer to my true friends and my family, and my dating and romantic prospects positively exploded. It was very scary the first week or so afterward, but it did not take long at all for me to start feeling giddy with the freedom of not having a deep, dark secret. It was like I'd been carrying a backpack around my entire life, weighed down with cinder blocks inside of it. Suddenly, I decided to drop it.

Look, it's normal for a human being to have romantic interests and sexual interests. People ASSUME it's part of your life, romantic or sexual connections ... they don't put it that way, but almost every person you can meet (as they get to know you) want to know about "who you're dating," if you're single, whether or not you're married, do you have kids, etc. It's part of normal human interaction. When you stay silent on the subject and you're very shady and secretive about it, when people ask you about your private life ... they're going to connect the dots in their brain eventually, anyway (or they're stupid).

The alternative is to never let anyone get too close, always getting angry and tight-lipped when someone dares to ask you about a basic human component of your life that they're going to assume that you have -- love. This is a miserable way to go about being. It's best to make it clear where you stand from the get-go, so you can honestly tell another person "yeah, I've been seeing this guy, and it's going well ..." 

Part of it depends on your situation. Are you a minor in a super-religious household, and you're worried about losing necessary financial support? Probably better to wait.

Are you living in a region of the world in which you can be criminally prosecuted, or even executed, for being what you are? Probably best to stay closeted.

Are you in the United States, most of Western Europe, or any more enlightened nation in the world? .... then yes, it's worth it to come out.

The funny thing is that I don't really feel the need of jerking off until I see a little bit of porn.

Well, you're a guy, like all of us. It's normal for us to be "triggered" with visuals. The only answer I have for you is a return question … so what?

So what? What difference does it make if the visual lights the fire inside of you? The day that I no longer got horny by watching two handsome men kissing ... mark that day as the one in which I want to stop living. Why does it matter what starts the process rolling? Some people need to bring something to read (or their phones) into the bathroom in order to relax enough to have a bowel movement, too ... does that mean the outside stimulus is "unnatural" and should be avoided? Or ... does it mean, that it's simply an aid to help trigger your body's natural responses in order to do something healthy and good for yourself?

I think that our wild(er) male ancestors were genetically programmed to be that way, triggered by what they see, because everywhere they looked ... there were sexually appealing partners, nude or in loincloths. Without organized religion and judgemental overseers that made all sorts of arbitrary cultural rules surrounding sex, I'm willing to bet sexual openness was a lot less dramatic, too (as in, if you look to your left, you'll see a couple "doing it" with no shame). To be turned on by what's taken in by your eyeballs was simply the shortest evolutionary route to making sure that the male gender was going to be as cum-ready as possible. If your species' survival depends on men with boners, how are your eventual genes going to learn how to trigger said boners? Probably ... when you visually recognize a situation in which you would get to actually USE that boner.  :laugh:

Bottom line, when you do finally nab that cute boyfriend, his live, warm presence ... the sight of him naked in front of you, the smells of him, the sound of him, the sensation of him, is going to be the best "porn" of your life. Using porn to jerk off with is not a reason for you to worry -- you're not ruining yourself. Again, I promise you this -- I've had sexual partners from both genders in my lifetime (actually, even a FTM transgender), and I continue to enjoy porn alone (or even with my partners, if we both want to watch a little). I was always able to meet the need of the moment, even if I had fapped twice the night before to something on my computer. It's a non-factor.

In fact, my firm habit of making sure I cum at least once a day, and not fighting myself over it if I feel like more, is part of why I can do that. My testicle-testosterone-cum-factory is in healthy working condition, because I've exercised it enough to keep it that way (in my early 30s now). I can fap or fuck live any day I want to. This isn't a bad thing, friend.  

I'm also not saying that I'm just a free-loving slut, either. I want monogamous love, just like you do, and I've had it before. I actually haven't had sex in over a year, because I'm recovering from a heartbreak ... but I'm about over it and ready to get back out there. No sex doesn't mean I stop cumming, though. I absolutely will NOT give up jerking off. I just don't worry about it if I'm meeting my sexual needs without shame in the interim moments.

Here's a couple of fun articles on what our closest genetic relatives, bonobo chimpanzees, act like to keep social balance and psychological happiness in their little tribes (hint: the key is lots of sexual venting, and lots of that sex is actually what we would call "gay").

https://psmag.com/bonobos-have-lots-of-sex-are-awesome-may-hold-key-to-our-past-d89e75f7d5a3#.j4w83hnwu
https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/bonobo-sex-and-society-2006-06/

And a video to a documentary on our sexuality, in which bonobos are mentioned:

Youtube Video – [00:40..]

It must have been deleted for some reason … I still have the file. I'll re-torrent it and upload it when I can (have family over so I can't exactly be screenshotting a twink porn vid right now.

My ratio does need the help. I'll post here again when it's up.

Also ... I'll just take the opportunity to repeat the request for more of Frank Wolf. Seriously. Anything anyone has. I wish he was still around.  :cry2:

Double (or even triple) penetration scenes seem a lot hotter to me if there's a woman as the submissive partner. With men, it's usually just awkward and doesn't last long.

Some Staxus scenes with petite white twinks with hung black tops are a notable exception to that rule, though.  ;D

I've always gone with the philosophy of simply doing it when I felt like it, and it's always worked for me. I never choose to not do something productive or fun socially so I can jerk off instead (frankly, I can do it quickly if I need to and get it out of the way).

Do it when you need to. Stop worrying about it, bud.

Frankly, it's unhealthy to artificially create this restriction on yourself. It's not comparable to resisting the urge for a doughnut or a little bag of potato chips … you're SUPPOSED to ejaculate, and regularly (like, daily, no joke). If you don't have a current partner available to help meet this need, that doesn't really matter -- you need to do what you need to do to be a psychologically healthy man. Feeling shame over your own need to let loose is not psychologically healthy.

The rough equivalent of what you're doing to yourself is like a person who wants to lose weight simply deciding to stop eating. It doesn't work, and it's not a ticket for "health."

http://www.webmd.com/prostate-cancer/news/20040406/frequent-ejaculation-prostate

http://news.softpedia.com/news/Not-Ejaculating-is-Very-Dangerous-to-Men-039-s-Health-43586.shtml

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/ejaculation-frequency-could-have-serious-consequences-for-mens-health_us_571e557de4b0d0042da9e154

http://themodernsavage.com/2009/05/01/fapping-with-4chan/

Failing to ejaculate at least once per day, as a healthy male in prime reproductive years, CAUSES your body to begin diminishing the rate at which it produces testosterone. This is not something you want – it comes with all sorts of negative consequences:

http://www.prevention.com/health/health-concerns/health-benefits-more-frequent-ejaculations

http://www.healthline.com/health/side-effects-of-low-testosterone

To the young people that talk about their feelings of shame, those who go on that subreddit:

True addiction to masturbation (using the definition of "addiction" to mean that you literally can't make it to work, or function in any other aspect of your life, because your need to have your hand on your dick is so great that you'd be willing to call in sick to jerk it all day) is exceedingly rare. That subreddit isn't about the very, very small minority of true porn addicts. Most of what drives that subreddit is based in guilt and culturally ingrained feelings of shame. It's people who blame all that's going wrong in their romantic lives on what they do to relieve their perfectly natural, perfectly normal, internal sexual pressure by themselves.

Again, if you're not whipping it out at work because you can't stop yourself, or trembling with the effort of self-control in public (as an example, food addicts often experience those things) – you don't have a problem with this.

As for what they preach about it "increasing energy," productivity, emotional health, yadda yadda ... BUNK. None of that is backed up with the actual good science out there on the subject. What those people are experiencing is relief from internalized emotional pressures. They never were quite able to shake off the cultural programming of seeing something wrong or shameful in the behavior.

/r/NoFap is one of the subreddits that do a lot more harm than good. Even letting yourself go down this road of thinking is you hurting yourself. Please stop hurting yourself with this nonsense – it's only making your personal journey harder. Don't go back to that subreddit, don't post there again, and IMMEDIATELY call a halt to your personal experiment. That's my advice.

Jerk it when you need to. Give up on this idea of it "being bad to do" completely. You're extremely young, and it's a lot more normal than you think it is to have never had a long-lasting relationship at your age that included a sexual aspect. To try to blame your fondness for venting off steam on your own for your current loneliness, you're on the wrong track completely – the two things are not related. I promise.

I think it's a lot more common than people will admit. For every person who confesses that the idea of it turns them on behind closed doors, there's three others who keep completely silent on the subject (and kill themselves with guilt after they've jerked off to the internal fantasy).

As long as it's kept to the realm of fantasy, I don't think there's anything "wrong" with it. How many men out there love being called "Daddy" while they're in a top role? I'm one of those guys, myself. The "Daddy" thing is universal among horny dominant guys in both homosexual and heterosexual pairings … and what's more, the sort of partners that are receptive to it are equally turned on by the same framing of the situation.

It's not often stated explicitly, but everyone knows the invisible mental connections that are being drawn when that kind of dirty talk is used, haha. Still ... so many people cum to it, yet very few people actually act on it in the real world. That's why it's called "fantasy."

Fantasize to your heart's content, friend. Just keep it to fantasy.

I just wish so many of his scenes didn't involve condoms. It's an instant no-go for me, when it comes to porn. Latex is not part of my sexual fantasy.

He's got some good bareback scenes, though. He reminds me of Esteban a bit.

I'm tall and built solidly, I'm definitely almost always the stronger and more masculine partner in any matchup (I like it that way, too  ;D).

Definitely a twink. I love finding a slim, slender, petite, smooth bottom that craves feeling my physical power that much (not that I put all of my strength into my spanks, I'm not out to actually hurt anyone in a permanent way).

These are usually the guys that let me fuck them as hard as I want, too, so win-win. I get backed off way too much when I want to fuck hard by "ow" reactions, haha.

I don't have just one. I've got a couple (I categorize, haha, and also archive things from long ago). Altogether, probably about 150+ gigabytes.

I refuse to be ashamed of it, too. It's not like I'm watching porn all day, every day. It's just an aid to help me cum a couple times of day to keep my testosterone (and sanity) kicking.

It also gives me a wide range of things to browse through (often stuff I've forgotten about, so it's almost like new) without necessarily going through the commitment of a long search of looking for something brand new. I have to admit that some of the stuff I got a few years ago has lost its edge, though. Newer porn seems to be rawer and more real.

The things I still have from Bel Ami from a few years back, however, seem airbrushed and boring now. Sometimes "new" is very good.