@lizejing1994 You've probably already aware of this, but just to make sure (you never know) -- have you looked at how much data you've downloaded to compare it to your upload total manually? The ratio is a true ratio, so it's determined mainly by dividing your uploaded amount by your downloaded amount

For example, say you've downloaded EXACTLY 300 GB worth of non-freeleech torrents already before uploading the 300 GB. That would get you at a 1:1 ratio and pretty much in neutral (but good standing) zone in terms of ratio. However, if you've downloaded significantly more than 300 GB (this is cumulatively, across the history of your account), it would require more than 300 GB to rebalance things again. It's possible to dig yourself into some pretty big holes if you binge on downloads too quickly.

I apologize again if you didn't need to read all of that and it's old news to you! I just like to never make assumptions, and that really would be the very first place to check. There's no shame in finding yourself in one of these holes, as long as you're willing to dig yourself out by trying to stick to FREELEECH and leaving your torrent client open as much as you can to build it back up. I'm in a similar situation myself, but recovery is slow ... not absent.

Out of curiosity, what is your download vs. upload all time total? You can see that on your personal stats page by clicking your user name in the upper right on the main gaytor.rent website, and then going to "Detaills" and Stats"

I'll just end by throwing in a third apology if it turns out none of this information was needed, and you were already aware to check for all of that. If you are sure that your download all-time total is now at least equal to or higher than your all-time upload total, I have no clue what it could be. It has always seemed accurate to me me when I've done the math myself.

As much as I feel like it, and never with guilt. I've hit over 7-10 times in a day many times, and I'm 33 years old at the moment.

There are days where I'm depressed or going through things (like a hangover, haha) where I just don't feel like it, so I don't at all. There are others where I'm just jerking it until I'm raw all day long. If I feel like I haven't done it in a couple of days, I'll often just go ahead and do it in the same way that a person might decide they should probably eat something just because the timing says you should, even if they're not hungry …. I want my body to continue producing the hormones that make me want to ejaculate.

The people who only go once a week boggle my mind, but I think it's possible for anyone to get there if they let their sex chemical production die down (they're letting their lives distract them from the majesty of cumming, so they stop seeking it out, which leads to the body producing less testosterone which makes you want to cum less ... self-feedback loop kind of thing). Frankly, I love sex and want to FEEL horny, so I don't want to evolve to that state. I don't actually sit down with a spreadsheet and crunch numbers or anything, but if I'm not averaging twice a day at a minimum, I'll probably start getting morose and will eventually devote half of a weekend day to drowning myself in my own cum and precum. My foreskin gets so tender after those 8-hour marathons, but it's the good kind of burn ... like after a workout or really good spicy food.  :cheers:

Of course, it's much more fun with a partner (a good bottom, preferably) to milk that cum out of me with his orifices, but that's not always possible.

If someone knows for sure that their status is positive in this day and age, then more likely than not, their viral load is low-to-undetectable because they'll have been getting it treated. I would clarify the story that the positive guy is actually telling you – hopefully, it's an undetectable viral load.

Every bit (EVERY LAST BIT) of science we have on the subject now indicates that it's a whole lot safer (even bareback) to fuck the positive-but-medicated guy than it is to fuck the "negative as of my last HIV test 6 weeks ago" guy ... which, let's face it, is the boat most of us are in when we tell others that we're disease free in the hookup apps.

I never have, but I absolutely would if he was getting his condition treated, and feel a lot better about it than being with negative-as-far-as-i-know man.

I'm also looking to get on PrEP to add another layer of protection, the moment I can find a doctor I'm comfortable bringing it up with. It makes me sad that the vast majority of the sexually active community isn't doing the same thing. If every one of us in the butt-fucking wild out there had a Truvada prescription, we may very well completely halt new HIV infection among gay men in the U.S. in its tracks for good!

We have a long way to go to really educate everyone that the landscape isn't the same as it was even five years ago, but yeah ... you can have your cake and eat it too, and you can have your sex and keep your blood clean without next-morning panic.

Medical advancement is a grand thing.

@lizejing1994 You've probably already aware of this, but just to make sure (you never know) -- have you looked at how much data you've downloaded to compare it to your upload total manually? The ratio is a true ratio, so it's determined mainly by dividing your uploaded amount by your downloaded amount

For example, say you've downloaded EXACTLY 300 GB worth of non-freeleech torrents already before uploading the 300 GB. That would get you at a 1:1 ratio and pretty much in neutral (but good standing) zone in terms of ratio. However, if you've downloaded significantly more than 300 GB (this is cumulatively, across the history of your account), it would require more than 300 GB to rebalance things again. It's possible to dig yourself into some pretty big holes if you binge on downloads too quickly.

I apologize again if you didn't need to read all of that and it's old news to you! I just like to never make assumptions, and that really would be the very first place to check. There's no shame in finding yourself in one of these holes, as long as you're willing to dig yourself out by trying to stick to FREELEECH and leaving your torrent client open as much as you can to build it back up. I'm in a similar situation myself, but recovery is slow ... not absent.

Out of curiosity, what is your download vs. upload all time total? You can see that on your personal stats page by clicking your user name in the upper right on the main gaytor.rent website, and then going to "Detaills" and Stats"

I'll just end by throwing in a third apology if it turns out none of this information was needed, and you were already aware to check for all of that. If you are sure that your download all-time total is now at least equal to or higher than your all-time upload total, I have no clue what it could be. It has always seemed accurate to me me when I've done the math myself.

What other options are there?

Grindr, Growlr, Scruff, etc … it's all on the apps now. Public cruising spots are becoming a thing of the past faster and faster, as far as I've heard.

Do you have a smartphone or tablet?

The shame feelings are about cultural programming, trust me. I don't know what your upbringing was like, but even a casual connection to Western culture tends to bring with it deeply ingrained Old Testatment hangups about your own sexuality.

Even an atheist who pragmatically knows in his head there's no logical reason to keep feeling those old fears and shameful feelings can't escape an entire childhood, adolescence, early adulthood, etc … however long it took you to mature enough to understand there's nothing wrong with you venting off perfectly natural horny steam, as an adult man, has little to do with it. If you're religious, it's the screaming of the preacher and your parents that have those subconscious reactions programmed into you.

If not, it's at least the jeering and jokes from your peers while you were going through school and growing up (I still remember the day I could finally get all of my male friends to admit to me that they jerked off, at 18. We'd spent the last 6 years denying it and using it as an insult against each other). That stuff sticks with you in ways that don't even touch on your conscious thoughts. They become instinct after while.

Still, there's hope and good news -- you can and will deprogram that nonsense shit. It just takes time, and a refusal to let it beat you. Now, when I miss a day of jacking off, THAT'S when I feel disappointed in myself. It's like exercise for every gland in your body that produces testosterone -- it's good for you, mentally, emotionally, and physiologically to ejaculate at least once a day (or multiple times, if you can get it). The fact that you use porn as an aid is no reason for shame -- we're visual animals.

You'll get over it. I promise. I promise, humanity at large will still love you after you jack off to a video of a twink getting stuffed up the rump. What's more, the people you're talking to right now can relate.  

I've seen up to the latest episode, and I can say it's very hot, and an excellent series. The whole premise is titillating. Essentially, the "guests" are allowed to take their personal storylines anywhere they want with the "hosts" (the AI androids in the amusement park) … they can be hero or villain, or literally just stay in the local whorehouse and fuck and drink the whole time.

That kind of freedom pretty much allows a paying guest to the park to "seduce" whichever of the androids he/she fancies; generally, most people try to do it with a love story that the android is programmed to go along with. All the android characters are well thought out for an Old West town ... this means a paying guest can do something incredibly wild like seducing the town sheriff, who already has a wife and kids, haha. Then again, the same kind of freedom is what allows the Ed Harris gunslinger character to commit rape against one of the robots if he wants to (in his own words, "I didn't want to woo you, I wanted you to fight."

Regarding gay characters -- lots of lesbian action so far, and some hints of male-on-male interest in at least one park-goer so far, but that does seem to be something they're easing into for an American audience (we haven't exactly had our own Torchwood show yet, which blew the doors open on the possibility of sexual fluidity). There's hints at it happening eventually.

I have no doubt that, consistent with the show universe, you're eventually going to see a male guest seduce a male host that would ordinarily be intended for women (like James Marsden's character), and I'd imagine that their programming would mean they'd go along with the man-romance. There's a lot of innuendo that the park's employees and scientific staff take liberties with the "equipment" as well.

The storyline is great, and that should be good enough … as far as the nude female form literally being disgusting to you, I can't say that I understand why that matters or warrants an "ew" (just a body) ...

... but even if it does, there's lots of naked guys, ass and cock, though ... hairy daddies, otters, jocks, hung black, etc. I've yet to see a man-on-man sex scene, but it's only a matter of time.

We all know firsthand (from watching it happen) how much Brent loved having big cock stretching his tight bubble butt open, how sexually alive and enthusiastic he was. That's sexual energy. No level of "technically superior face symmetry" can match that, so case closed on that alone … although, even based on photographic good looks alone, I still thing Brent/Sean wins.

Brent is hotter. Mind, I do find his more recent porn work more bland and sterile, but that's because I think he was desperately making an effort to become more mainstream. That meant big contract studio work, plastic, rehearsed, and artificial sex ... condoms (blech, not in PORN, get people blood tested and on the right medication, or don't go into  the field) ... an attempt to break into more mainstream indie acting, trendy adult gay clubs, yadda yadda.

Thanks for the support, everyone. I promise to make the torrent above freeleech as soon as I can, too.

I don't want Francis to be forgotten.

@cannonmc:

I think Alexander meant a button on each individual torrent page rather than alongside the entry on the Search list.

And it has been requested before.

I'd really like this functionality, as well. I often decide a new download based on your front page "most popular" list, or sometimes see direct link to torrents from the forums as recommendations.

I've been a member in good standing for many year (not a "newbie" by any means), and my ratio's in a down period right now … so I'm in payback mode. I don't want to commit to any big downloads at the moment, I just want to seed what I have as best I can and upload.

I hate to completely lose track of something I stumbled across, though. Sometimes, I have difficulty even finding the torrent I'm looking at going through the search function. The button on the actual torrent page would be very helpful.  

https://www.gaytorrent.ru/details.php?id=499d2a85f6c280446057094b228e603edf9deff762934261

Alright, so I went ahead and re-uploaded the actual torrent I once-upon-a-time-got from here, and I even cleaned up the video files a little (labeled them properly in their actual format), and added screenshots. If anyone can clean it up further, or add more to it, please let me know. The link is above.

I would've added it into my original post from a couple of years ago, but it's too old to edit.

I hope this meets the eyes of people who appreciate it, and remember him. There's no shame in part of your memory being about your sexuality … I hope when I'm gone, lovers will remember the horny side of me (it's important). 

@Briantheslag:

I'm 100% bottom when it comes to anal sex, and I prefer to be fucked bareback.

I don't see the point in being well fucked without the final ass full of cum.

The feel of the tops cock pulsating deep inside you is the most wonderful thing. :anal2: :churn:

As a top, I totally agree. I don't see the point in going bareback at all unless you're going to indulge in a little deep, copious breeding.

Pulling out is not a guarantee against HIV, guys. In fact, I'd say that if you're worried about it with who you're with, you should either both be on PrEP, or bareback is out completely.

The thing is, labels like "straight" and "gay" are completely new inventions, and they were cooked up by our modern culture over the last couple centuries or so. So many very angry "pure gay" people get upset when someone who uses the WORD 'straight' to describe themselves dare allow themselves a pleasurable sexual experience with the same gender to go around, continuing to call themselves 'straight' for all intents and purposes for the rest of their lives (and acting like it, too … wife, kids, mistresses, yadda yadda).

... these are also the same militant people who come rush in to emotionally defend a man who decides to leave a wife and kids to be with another man after over a decade of marriage, and insist "he was always gay, he just never knew it, let him be what he is." They don't want the reality of it to be more complicated than that, the extreme anti-bi activists, anymore than the extreme religious evangelical activists don't want to acknowledge that sexual attraction to one's own gender might not be a corruption sent by satan  >:D that is twisting God's true instructions about the way a person should be behave.

Here's the truth -- sexuality is fluid. It's okay. Sexual orientation, though? That's 100% cultural, the entire concept of it, that you have to "pick" one or the other and stay true to it your entire life. It's a new idea, not an old one.

So, you might only like males your entire life, and never stray from that. Vice versa, you might only like women your entire life, and stay true to THAT. That does happen.

Straying across that border happens a lot more often than our current culture officially recognizes, though. If you successfully seduce a straight guy (I've done it, and it usually results in just a casual drunken handjob or blowjob), who wakes up the next morning and continues on with his life as a "straight man" ... it's okay for him to keep calling himself straight. It's an identity label, and people get to pick those for themselves.

The reality is, though, that there's precious few of us in this world that have never entertained thoughts of sex with both genders (whether we call ourselves "gay" or "straight" now in our daily lives ... again, culture and labels). If it's a one-off incident that has happened 4 or 5 times in your lifetime, your fantasies straying oustide of your orientation, or if you fantasize every day ... it happens. You can seduce straight men, yes.

The important thing to remember is that "straight" is a word. Sexual orientation is not as firm as people want to believe it is. He might go home to his woman afterwards, but if he let you suck his dick, he got something good out of it. Don't worry about the word "straight." Just read people as individuals, see how responsive they are to advances, make discretion and privacy a guarantee, you'll start seeing exactly how solid orientation lines are drawn.