Posts made by SemenDemon

Karagarga is a great place to find films. Specifically art films. Not so much mainstream/recent release stuff, but loads of cult and obscure stuff. Certainly mainstream stuff too, but they don't exactly specialize in the newest Paul Blart or Tranformers movies. Building and maintaining ratio is a pretty grueling process there, though. More so than on a lot of other private trackers I have used. FYI, I have no invites, so don't ask.

What.cd and waffles are said to be good music trackers (never used waffles personally). What.cd does not allow people to offer invites publicly anymore, though (again, please don't ask me for one because I am not offering). Best to bone up on their interview process and take the interview to be granted access to what.cd. Expect to encounter lots of dumb hipsters and millennials on the forums, though. I try to avoid them.

@BL4mm0:

…assuming that your reality TV shows aren't acted of course

I was going to say the same thing…
I tend to watch scripted/"acted" shows, including true crime documentaries (most things are scripted, though, even the news)... Yes, I am an unabashed "ID Addict", as tacky as that is, supposedly.

I occasionally will get into specific "reality TV" shows. You know, the kinds of shows where people are followed around by camera crews with play-by-play interviews intercut. But, sooner or later, I always get burned out on them, lose all interest and never watch them again. Most of them are trash. Fun for a while, but they get old.

1). Dark (I'm talking jet black)
2). Ginger
3). Blonde

I really like dark pubic hair, but fire crotch is also really hot. It's so distinct. A blonde bush is pretty hot, too, though. I like them all. :cheesy2:

TBH, I was getting by with spit for years when I was younger. Just start small and go slow. It's that simple. You can even work a finger or two in your ass with no lubrication at all if you're willing to be patient.

Seems like Satyr Films do a lot of "throat reaming", assuming that's what you're after. They have a series called "Ream His Straight Throat".

@mike4612:

It turned out that not only men but also lots of women seriously hate to accept a woman jumping ahead of them.

That is the biggest load of crap and you know it (it's even contrary to what you said before this in your own post). So is basing votes, particularly in presidential elections, on completely irrelevant identity politics.

She lost because of how undeniably corrupt she is, and how far-reaching her corruption and lies were exposed to be. That was her downfall. Gender had nothing to do with it. You think I didn't think to myself, in spite of all her corruption and ongoing scandals, "Wow, how cool! First woman president!"? A lot of people did. That was her big selling point, pathetically enough. But that is not why you elect someone to the office of President of the United States, FFS.

At any rate, I think I've had my fill of going around in circles with literally everyone about this election and politics in general for the next 6 months, so I'll fuck off now.

I think there ought to be a compromise with illegals here already (who don't necessarily always have the means or the opportunity to emigrate legally), as long as they aren't engaging in any egregious criminal activities and are willing to prove they want to become citizens if given some opportunity. How we do that? I don't know, but it's a potential compromise I think is worth considering.

I think it's a bit un-American to say we ought to restrict legal immigration outright, or kick out everyone here illegally. But I can also see how it's reasonable to put a temporary bottleneck on legal immigration, and stop looking the other way in allowing illegal immigration to continue until shit gets sorted out on our end. It's not about "keeping them out", which is how liberals always frame this issue. It's about tending to our own people's needs (all of them, no matter what their race or economic status) before letting floods more come in, especially those not contributing in taxes. Most Americans are not wealthy. A lot can't even afford insurance. I'm not insured myself. It hasn't been easy.

And, so, it seems logical enough to me to stop the leak before trying to mop up the puddle. It's sad that it's come to that, but I've not heard any sensible suggestions apart from that, just a lot of privileged, out-of-touch liberals shrieking "XENOPHOBIA!" because they apparently don't know how much better they have it than the average, impoverished American. Nobody but the actual few-and-far-between racists/nationalists (who are themselves disproportionately poor and disillusioned, if you want some perspective on their misguided views) "likes" the idea of locking out the tired, poor, huddled masses. It's completely contrary to our American principals. But it seems like a necessary evil at times. No one likely ever imagined what an overpopulated clusterfuck the world would become when they came up with those American principles, after all. Of course we want to take in everyone who wants a part of the American Dream, but there's not enough apple pie to go around, no matter how much it stings to admit that.

I'm still reluctant to get behind slogans like "round 'em up" and "build a wall", though. They're mostly as desperate as the rest of us. It's easy to be angry and unsentimental and say "fuck 'em all", especially when you can't even get insurance or any other kind of help, speaking from experience. But I can't forget that they are still people, and most of them are not malicious, underhanded tricksters trying to willfully bleed America dry, they're just desperate people trying to get away from even more corrupt governments and to survive. So, give the illegals already here who are willing to become naturalized, documented immigrants a chance (a real chance, not a hand-out or a free ride). If they refuse to accept that opportunity, then it's on them for getting sent back, or otherwise stripped of free access to healthcare and things of that nature.

@jazzmale29:

I am more than terrified. Horrified, sad and if I was able I would leave the country. He is the American version of Hitler. I had a dream last night that he rounded up all the gays and took us to the concentration camps…...just like Hilter did to the jews during the holocaust. I have read several articles that state he is the Anti-Christ and the 666 sign is underneath the scar on his head...all things 666 relate to Trump more that is just a coincidence. I do believe that during his reign as God of America we will see the end of the world in more ways than one.
So terribly sad here and I can't believe that he actually won.

Not sure if satire or just plumb crazy (really hard to tell these days)… Laughing all the same.

@markystarky:

I'm curious, when Trump said "round them up", does anyone know who "them" is and who's next?

Look, I'll spell it out right now: I am against deporting all illegals. But that's who he's referring to: Illegals.

As in, people who came into the US illegally. Not immigrants, not Mexicans, just illegals. Specifically, and this is key, because people keep ignoring this fact, violent criminal illegals. Frankly, as I said once before, I am opposed to his policy for "building a wall" (good luck with that anyway, Trumpo) and "rounding up" illegals (At least the non-violent ones, and most of them are not. Fuck the minority who are, though, seriously). But, being the rational, objective individual that I am, I try to look at all the angles. And, from what I can observe (it's not hard to see, if people take a moment to look beyond their Starbucks cups and charmed, metropolitan existences), the poor people of America feel they've been completely shafted, and there's good reason for that: They have been.

Regardless of the fact that I think many poor people's anger about illegal immigrants as a whole (versus violent criminal illegal immigrants specifically) is misguided, it's not hard to comprehend, if nothing else, why they feel resentful about illegals (remember, were talking illegal immigrants. Not legal immigrants. not anyone based on their race or culture, just illegals). The fact of the matter is, they don't give a damn about people emigrating legally. But they feel like they're being screwed by a system that looks the other way when people come into the country illegally in droves and take advantage of resources while they're still poor and suffering. Why is it so hard for the pampered liberal elites to understand the perspective of the poor in the US? I notice the vast majority harping on "racism" in this issue are very well-to-do white people who live in cities. Doesn't surprise me they know nothing about the underclass of America, or don't seem to get that not everyone has it as good as they do.

Yes, obviously, there is an incredibly small minority of extremist, right-wing fringe voters who are racist, but they don't come near to representing the vast majority of poor who are voting for themselves, not against immigrants. They vote for border control because they feel abandoned by the system, not because they "hate" immigrants. Assuming all poor people are racist idiots is just as arrogant and clueless as [**assuming non-whites can't get ID's for voting [EDIT: inb4 "buuuhh! Faux News!" Would you feel better if I'd posted it from MSNBC?]. It's the typical soft classicism and racism of the privileged left that deems everyone "less" than them as helpless and weak idiots in need of their wisdom and stupid, narcissistic savior complexes, and who prefer to coddle and placate the disadvantaged than to actually help them. I grew up poor. Dirt-fucking-poor. I know what a trap the welfare system is, and how condescending the left is to its "underlings" (poor, disadvantaged people) based on personal experience.

Unfortunately, what the disenfranchised underclass who support deporting all illegals miss is that illegals are often just as bad off as they are, or worse off, and that they are human beings with families trying to escape their own corrupt system and the madness of the drug cartels (Donald Trump unfairly plays up the "violent criminal" angle, and never seems to mention all the women and children). It's a sad fact that things are like this, but it doesn't make the people voting against illegals racist. They're certainly sick of being labeled racist by ivory tower assholes who know nothing about their plight, though. That's probably another big reason they voted in Trump. So thanks, SJW's, for pissing everyone off to the point that we ended up with a fucking populist clown like Trump! People got sick of this hysterical, batshit-crazy PC culture we've become mired in. They got tired of being told everything is their own faults.

Also, I'm guessing "we" are next, if the shit I've heard about Pence wanting to fund gay conversion therapy is true. As I said, the people around Trump scare me way more than he does.**](http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rrBxZGWCdgs#)

@byassi11:

I tend to avoid realating to my father, he always knew he had a gay son and used to punish me in severeal silly ways, just because he could not accept the fact.

I was forbidden playing with dolls (even Saint Seiya ones which i'm addicted to, i'm not referring to Barbies), or picking up female characters on video-games, i couldn't even wear all-star shoes (can you imagine?) all-stars inside his tiny mind was a gay shoe, i was forbidden practicing tenis at our usual club just because he heard that 2 tenis players were having an affair (which i had no clue, but after i came to find out it was true HAHAHA they were f*cking hot), so tenis suddenly became a gay sport and more… Unfortunately :-[
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To be fair, tennis is pretty gay. ;D No, I'm just trying to insert some humor into the discussion. That sounds like a very miserable upbringing in all seriousness. I am sorry.

@markystarky:

The thing that bothers me the most is that this election has brought out the worst in people. It seems that bigotry, racism, misogyny, and homophobia have been legitimized. After all the strides forward we've made, I feel that we may be set back 50 years.

As an Independent who didn't vote for Hillary or Trump: If anything's been legitimized, it's left wing hysteria and baseless accusations of "bigotry, racism, misogyny, and homophobia". People don't think about anything critically or objectively anymore, they just regurgitate sensational BS and shout "isms" they hear in their Facebook and Twitter echo chambers.

The fact is, Hillary was/is so enmeshed in corruption and guilty of so much blatant hypocrisy, people felt they couldn't trust her. "Racists" didn't vote, people who saw how unbelievably corrupt and insultingly dishonest Clinton was, and how deeply her corruption appears to run throughout the American political system, even the media (CNN, anyone?), voted.

In short, Trump is the last guy I'm concerned about. I'm more afraid of the hysterical, rioting protesters than the alleged racist/homophobic/whatever boogeymen coming out of the woodwork that I keep hearing about from Liberals, but have yet to see. I'm more afraid of the people around Trump than I am of the bumbling fool himself (Mike Pence, for one. But that's why they call VP's "assassination insurance", right?).

Partisans have to hate. Doesn't matter what side they're on.

@PumpingMuscl:

@SemenDemon:

He didn't like the idea of a macho son who might be bigger and stronger and better than him… Lucky for him, I had two sisters and no "macho" male role model to emulate, and ended up being an effete wimp who hates sports and liked playing with Barbies. He even used to prepare food for me and my sister's tea parties. I really do believe he wanted a sissyboy for the sake of his own fragile ego.

very interesting story! ironically enough most of us would actually appreciate a father like that. but do you believe he's the one who made you gay ?

I think I sounded really bitter when I wrote that, but I didn't mean to. It's hard even for me to understand my dad, is all. Everything I've said is pure speculation, most of it off the cuff. He was and continues to be something of an enigma to me. I appreciate that he did things like cook (good!) food, have picnics and fishing trips with us and prepare tea and snacks for our tea parties, but he never seemed emotionally present/involved in anything, even those activities. He was very accommodating and did a lot for us, but he seemed to just be going through the motions, showing no real emotions so as to be unreadable. Sometimes, I think maybe he was scared, because of the way he was, to "get too close" to his own kids on an emotional level. It seems as if being around us made him uncomfortable, which might explain why he seemed so distant, and why the few hugs I recall getting from him felt emotionally detached.

The thing is, I don't think he "made me gay" at all. I don't know for certain that he ever abused me, though I have personally identified a number of indications that he or someone else may have at some point in my life. Regardless, I can remember being "excited" (in as much as a pre-pubescent child can be, without necessarily understanding it as "sexual") looking at my sister's male Barbie dolls naked. This was at a very young age (around 6-7), so I suspect maybe I was always fruity (I saw the female Barbies naked plenty, too, but that didn't excite me). I just don't know whether or not I would've developed more stereotypically masculine sensibilities if he had been more present as an authoritative voice and educator in my formative years. Then again, he himself was not remotely into sports or other "guy stuff". Despite being mostly a gruff, insular, blue-collar alcoholic, he was also something of a pseudo-hippie gourmand/carpenter (he really could cook or build just about anything) who enjoyed the outdoors (I think he was about a quarter American Indian, which seems to have been important to his sense of identity). Not really "macho", cooking and interior design, is it? The main problem, though, was that he didn't really get involved with his own family, let alone other people. He didn't seem to like interacting with anybody. He was very private. A "loner", though "manly" in his own peculiar way. He actually built the first house I lived in. He just never taught me much of anything he knew, apart from fishing and how to prepare certain foods.

So, more than anything, I feel he simply left me a blank slate to be filled in by my mother and two sisters in his absence. I'm not really "girly" in terms of speech or mannerisms, but I can't seem to relate with stereotypically "manly" activities/sensibilities at all. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere because I "feel" like a man, but I don't relate well to other men (gay or straight). I mostly just relate to women, unsurprisingly. Apart from women, I seem to identify best and feel comfortable with eccentrics and weirdos. But they're hard to find, and usually slim pickings in terms of romantic potential. At any rate, I like my individual personality. It's what makes me "different". I just feel alienated because of it most of the time, though my severe anxiety is no doubt a worse hindrance than my general weirdness.

Anyway, to talk about my mother some more, in case anyone might think she made me gay, I doubt that as well. As I said in my earlier post, my mother wasn't domineering, or even molly-coddling. She just obviously couldn't take the place of a father in making me "more manly". She really let me and my sisters explore our own interests independently and allowed us be ourselves without spoiling or over-indulging us, though. But, having no male figures, I just ended up being sort of like the 3rd daughter of the family, because I defaulted to going along with what my two older sisters did. Fortunately for me, my eldest sister developed a lot of very unladylike interests (listening to extreme metal, going to concerts, wanting to be a mortician [though now she says she wants to be a crime scene photographer], etc.) once she hit puberty. She was the closest thing to a male role model I had. ;D

So, what's the procedure for consistent measurement? I dunno how big mine is, but I guess it's probably about average. More likely a bit below. Nothing special, but it gets the job done.

I didn't have a bad relationship with my father, but we were never really close. He was emotionally distant and an alcoholic and generally a complicated mess of a human being. I hadn't seen him for years when he died last year. I felt bad about that, but was strangely indifferent about it for the most part.

We were just so estranged, it felt like I didn't know him by that point. He wasn't an exceptionally terrible man at his core, just mixed up and closed off and a controlling alcoholic to boot. He was actually a somewhat prolific sexual abuser of children/teens as well, from what I've gathered. Kind of scary and shameful to confess that, but it should help to illustrate what I mean when I say he was "mixed up", and why we had such a distant relationship. He was sick, honestly. And I think that had a lot to do with why he drank and why he was so emotionally and socially reticent.

My mom is a bit neurotic (her mother and her mother's boyfriends and some of her own siblings were abusive in various ways, and so was my dad). But she's not overbearing. We have a good relationship, though her neurosis can occasionally get under my skin. I don't blame her for it, though, because I understand why she is the she is. My father, on the other hand, was a virtual stranger to me. We never really bonded emotionally, yet he wasn't totally incapable of kindness or platonic affection. It's just that I know next to nothing about his life, particularly his formative childhood/adolescent years, because he was so private.

I never came out to my dad, but part of me honestly thinks he liked the idea of me being a meek, timid "little boy", and probably would've been fine with me being gay (I think he was pretty open-minded or simply apathetic anyway, though it's hard to know since he basically never talked politics). I think it had more to do with his insecurity and desire to feel in control than it did his predilection for children… He didn't like the idea of a macho son who might be bigger and stronger and better than him... Lucky for him, I had two sisters and no "macho" male role model to emulate, and ended up being an effete wimp who hates sports and liked playing with Barbies. He even used to prepare food for me and my sister's tea parties. I really do believe he wanted a sissyboy for the sake of his own fragile ego.

TBH, I like who I am, if I sounded resentful there. It makes me feel unique, though it can sometimes be hard being so unable to identify with "guy stuff" and feeling alienated from most men, especially considering I'm gay. Even though I have girly sensibilities, I'm not really "femme" at all, which makes it even harder, because I can't even fit in with the femme gay guys anymore than I can the butch ones.

Hopefully you'll find something you like in my list! I really don't expect people to agree with me about Seth Putnam or anything, but maybe you'll find something you like.

Sorry to hear about your lack of opportunity/income for purchasing physical media. I was lucky to be receiving VA checks in college, and most of that money went to buying records, tapes and CD's, haha! I am also lucky to have a good used record shop in my city. I've picked that place clean… I can't be arsed to take any pictures ATM, but I have approximately 800-900 items on various formats in my physical collection. Not "huge" by a lot of collector's standpoints, but, again, money (and space!!!) are issues. Anyway, I don't see the value in bragging about how much extruded/molded plastic I own, other than to prove what a hopelessly out-of-touch and old-fashioned trainspotter I am.

I am secretly proud of my technophobic curmudgeonliness, though. I am the only person I know who doesn't own a cellphone and never dropped cassettes/VHS (or physical media in general). More than anything, it's just endlessly amusing how shocked people are when I tell them that I don't have a cell/smartphone. Sometimes they even think I'm just lying to avoid taking it out for them. It's very surreal to me how dependent people have become on them, and how helpless they seem to be without them. What'd they do in all the years prior? People are entirely too "plugged-in" these days.

@dist:

At least SNL will have plenty of material for the next 4 years.

I do love Alec Baldwin's Trump impression.

PS: Sorry for double-post. I dunno how to delete and amend previous posts… Mods, feel free to punish me. :police:

@brianboru72:

Though the campaign was filled with unprecedented negativity, and even though Trump seems to be one of the most unqualified to hold the position, I really hope for the best for America and by extension the rest of the world. The only reason outsiders care so much is because the influence of America is felt all over the world.

May the new President overcome his failings and rise to the job. I still need to recover from the shock.

Ditto.

I gotta say, though, I was really drunk last night (personal reasons, not because of the election. Just good timing there) and felt a lot more open to the idea of silver linings. I woke up this afternoon feeling as if I'd come out of a nightmare. Now that the alcohol has worn off, the gravity off this is starting to sink in. His temperament just scares me so much in terms of foreign policy. But I am also hoping that his victory has been sobering, and that he realizes the importance of his position.

I am not going to engage in partisan bullying and all that shit. I didn't vote for either candidate, and I wouldn't have been happier with either being elected. I am going to remain open-minded, but that doesn't change the fact that I am still pretty worried. If no other good comes of this, I'm likely to be a lot more involved/vocal than ever before in checking the President-elect on his bullshit (same would've been true of Hillary, though), because I am determined not to let him make a catastrophe out of his presidency. I am not going to be outright obstinate (I loathe divisive, counterproductive partisan obstinacy and pettiness), but I'm no longer going to be as complacent and apathetic as I have been historically, having always hated politics to begin with.

Please don't be everything the Dems said you'd be, Trump. I am hoping he realizes his position, tones down his insolence and rhetoric and finally becomes more presidential. One reassuring thing is that it does seem like he's been doing so gradually. He's toned down his overall arrogance and oafishness considerably since last year. Not nearly  enough, but enough to notice. So here's to hoping for continued personal progress on his end. If he doesn't shape the fuck up, I can at least take solace in knowing his insolence will not help him to accomplish anything, and he'll be a lame duck president.

To be honest, many of these (*)'s indicating complete collections are padded out with illegal digital downloads, but I would buy physical copies of all the albums if I could afford them. I love physical media, and I like to support the artists who have done so much to enrich my life in any way I can when possible (though a lot of my physical collection also consists of second-hand copies, too, so it's not like they made any money off of those purchases). I will buy any format when I can afford it, even 8-tracks! Also, a lot of the female entries could also count for bands/groups, because I don't seem to have a ton of beloved solo female artists. None of these are in any particular order, because I can't pick favorites. I also realize much of the stuff I like is not going to be everyone's cup of tea. Some of it is downright silly in its melodrama, but I genuinely adore all of it.

Female:
01. Kate Bush ()
02. Nina Hagen [Particularly her early work]
03. Strawberry Switchblade () [Technically a duo, but both female]
04. Donnette Thayer/Hex (*)
05. Siouxsie [and the Banshees]
06. Dinah Cancer/45 Grave
07. Little Annie [AKA Annie Anxiety]
08. Lorita Grahame/Colourbox
09. Diamanda Galás
10. Gitane Demone

Male:
01. Morrissey () [Are you surprised? He's a complete dipshit, and I [i]still love him unconditionally]
02. David Tibet/Current 93 [He can't even sing! Yet I still consider him and his work beautiful beyond description. When he starts weeping at the end of the song, I can't help but do the same]
03. Klaus Nomi ()
04. Rozz Williams ()
05. Seth Putnam and associated bands [Hard to explain my admiration of this complicated individual in a few words. A rebel in the realest sense! R.I.P.]
06. GG Allin and all the endless bands he performed in [They honestly made great music. I don't care about the shit-flinging at all. R.I.P.]
07. Marc Almond [Particularly for his work in [url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqv6j5O0Wyc]Soft Cell and Marc and the Mambas]
08. David E. Williams () [He can't sing either, but I love his obscenely morbid sensibilities and ironic(?!) pretension]
09. Ronnie James Dio () [My earliest heavy metal obsession. R.I.P.]
10. Benjamin Smoke and associated bands () [R.I.P.]

Duos, Groups and Bands:
01. Christian Death with Rozz Williams () [90% of the Valor-era material is trash. They haven't released anything short of terrible in over 20 years]
02. The Smiths () [Yes, even–no, especially!--"Miserable Lie"]
03. Cocteau Twins ()
04. Virgin Prunes ()
05. Shelleyan Orphan () [R.I.P., Caroline Crawley. Her passing this year was devastating]
06. Nuit Noire ()
07. Pavlov's Dog ()
08. T. Rex () [I've been obsessed with their eccentric, coked-out mid-70's era that everyone writes off as crap because they're idiots]
09. The Germs ()
10. Sparks
11. (Yes, this list goes up to 11!) Black Sabbath [runner-up: [url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kpKJUa6IoBs]Blue Öyster Cult!] () for both bands
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Honorable mentions:
Skinny Puppy [Everything up until [i]The Process. I hate their post-reformation albums]
Richard D. James and his many monikers [Not sure if he even qualifies… His music doesn't really have lyrics/vocals in any traditional sense]
Siege
Crass
Poison Girls [R.I.P., Vi Subversa]

Don't bother with encryption. As embarrassing as the thought of people rifling through my porn is, I know it doesn't matter if they do when I'm dead… Anyway, there's nothing so bad I'd "need" to hide it.