why are you trying to squeeze yourself in to a box?
its not your thoughts and desires that don't fit, it's the box! forget about fitting in to gay or straight. your feelings and thoughts are your own, and your fantasies and desires are about people you find attractive in a consensual, normal way so there's only a problem if you make it one. You don't have to say you are this or that, gay or straight. You don't even have to say you are bisexual, you are just YOU. 
why not both ;D
but seriously, I would take a big ass to dive my face in to. 
Freeleech - I guess everyone jumped on the bed and broke it? :police:
Mine are slowly downloading, but with only one or two seeders I think a lot of people still can't connect or they realised the tracker was down and aren't online or aren't seeding.
I like FTM too OP and I applaud your decision not to label yourself. maybe sometime in the distant future labels will be a thing of the past :love:
like you I am turned on by masculinity but also like pussy. You often see gay men say that they like boobs but not pussy and like you say I am the opposite, I like male chests, hairy chests. I like dick too of course, but also a pussy is really sexy too me, I like both but I am not attracted to the rest of the female body, breasts and traditional feminine traits. I'm happy with my likes and dislikes and I don't really label myself as bi-sexual because that has connotations just like saying you're gay does. I'll use the label gay if I have too, I don't broadcast my sexuality but generally i choose not to label myself at all and am comfortable with that.
"straight"
You can bet in 90% of cases you weren't the first to turn this "straight" man you turned.
On your back, not on your front. Something about being on your front makes you more prone to tense your thighs and buttocks but your mileage may vary. People say be on top (with him laid down and you sat on him) that's ok because you have control but I still say on your back is better because your legs don't have to support your body weight which again can tense up the thighs and buttocks. even if you are on your knees either side of his body there is a tenseness about that position that can go against relaxing your asshole especially if you start off in that position. Oh yeah I'm not saying stay on your back, do it all every way you can think of and see which you like best!
Relax take it slow, make sure he takes it slow. there's no rush and your ass will not want it to happen at first, it takes time relax especially first time. imo, bigger might be better first time I think bigger relaxes your hole better. :cheesy2:
Does it taste sweet or what?
why don't you try it, you have it on tap for free in your pants. take a taster and tell us what you think.
but ended up having sex with him anyway because I was too horny to let him down.
If you were still attracted to him that's fair enough, but it sounds like you weren't attracted to him and that really reflects on a lack of self-esteem on your part that you would still go though with. You aren't under a contract with someone who you meet up with, even less so if they have lied to you to get you there.
I can have it shipped to my house, I'm just worried about hiding spots/my parents opening the package :crazy2:
your parents have no right to open your mail. If they are opening your mail you need to have a conversation about it with them and tell them they shouldn't be doing this any longer as you are not a child. (If you a child, you shouldn't be on this website)
you watch porn for the interior design? :police:
you both have to be 100% on the same page for this to happen otherwise I think it's just allowed cheating (and feelings are still getting hurt they're just hidden).
In my experience more often than not when you scratch the surface of an "open relationship" it's usually one partner wanting it more than the other, or doing it more than the other and the other one more going along with it.
Oh, please what they really want to know is who's the fucker (man) and who gets fucked (woman)
of course that's what they're asking. but as I said above it's a reflection of their own narcissism and narrow-mindedness that gay sex is as static and binary as their own.
i think your intuition is right to use online hook-up or dating sites first.
Some men get off on daddy roleplay and verbalising and some definately DO NOT. this type of thing is easier to approach online because you can be more direct in what you want in your profile, so you put your calling card for those who are in to the same thing as you, and those who aren't can move along to the next page. that doesn't mean you have to ignore real life meetings completely though, when you're getting to know a guy (say in a pub or bar) you might have a little flirtatious banter and if it veers towards that kind of talk and it's met with good humour then you know you're on the right track too. I think that way is more fun personally, but it all depends on you!
Go for what you like, life's too short to not ask for what you want when it comes to sex. good luck
Things are just balancing out. When homosexuality was illegal, anonymous casual sex was practically required so a man wouldn't be found out or be blackmailed. When homosexual acts between consenting adults were decriminalised there was a sense of freedom and a chance to differentiate a gay identity separately from a straight one (which was "the norm" of marriage, kids, monogamy etc)
Now we are moving on past that, marriage is legal in many parts of the civilised world and people have more CHOICE to do what they want to do with their private lives without feeling pressured in to fitting in, whether that's pressure to conform to monogamy or playing the field.
Monogamy is NOT trying to ape a straight lifestyle as many gay men have tried to call it in the past, some people of all persuasions want to develop a deep relationship with one other person, this isn't something exclusive to straight people, just like only wanting no strings random sex is not exclusively a gay thing either.
Choice is always a good thing.
Some people just really are this stupid, it's true.
it's the ultimate heterosexual narcissism, they see the world in black and white so everything is this or that, on or off, 0 or 1.
That's why we have a RAINBOW flag as symbol of diversity.
I'm having the same problems, but the front page says "Expect slowdowns/timeouts" so we just have to be patient.
If in doubt always check the front page.
There's nothing wrong with you, don't beat yourself up over it. Society makes it a weird issue, it's a miracle if any of us don't feel uncomfortable about it at some point. There's no rush, the people close to you know and that's great, why tell strangers and fairweather friends? Just live your life and don't worry whether you're doing the right thing for other people or not.
More than a century ago people's social communications IRL were augmented with non face-to-face communications like the writing of letters.
I think you'll find letter writing is a LOT older than that mate! 