@LostStoner:
I am a 31 year old gay male who currently lives in the midwest. At some point in the future though I would very much love to move somewhere West, like Colorado, or Washington, or North to somewhere in Canada.
That is a good age to make a move based on my own experience. I would encourage you to go ahead and do so now rather than to wait any longer. As you approach forty, some things such as finding jobs and making new friends become more difficult.
Since him I haven't had any other boyfriends, or dated anyone. For a long time I didn't even bother looking, I eventually decided that I would give it a chance, but havent met anyone who I am into, and who is also into me since then. So I have been single for the last 8 years. After so long I have just given up the idea of me ever finding another boyfriend, much less of finding a husband. I am fairly sure that I will grow old and die alone, which sometimes bothers me, but most of the time I dont really mind the idea since I'm not a huge people person, I'm more of an introvert.
It's understandable that you avoided relationships after that experience but you are much too young to just give up on relationships. You might want to talk to a counselor, though, because you still have a lot of lingering stress from what you went through. Being an introvert also makes it more difficult to meet people and engage in new relationships. You may have to make a formal effort by joining a group or club or team. Concentrate on meeting people and making friends and relationships will naturally occur. Jumping ahead to seeking relationships using apps or similar will result in one night stands or poor quality short-term relationships like those you've experienced in the past.
On top of that of the two files I downloaded it will only let me seed one of them for whatever reason, even if I stop that one and try to seed the other one, it still wont let me seed it, and the one it will let me seed doesn't appear to have any leechers right now, so I'm unable to get my ratio brought up to where I need it to be in order to restore my downloading privileges. So I'm unsure what to do to get my ratio up, other than to just leave it sit and hope someone comes along and starts downloading it.
Sounds like one of the torrents may have been removed from the site. You should still be able to download freeleech torrents which don't count against you for downloading but do count for uploading. Concentrate on the newer ones so you will get some upload credit. I would recommend that you start by choosing just one new one near the top of the front page and see how that affects your ratio. Make sure it is under 2 GB and not one of the large collections.
https://www.gaytorrent.ru/search.php?search=&incldead=0&infl=1&orderby=added&sort=desc