Posts made by idesigay

yes, i made some friends and we chat through PM for hours  :cheers:

I do not masturbate very often, so my sperm usually get drained through wet dream. I have them very often but i do not really like to wake up in the morning with wet trouser

I am 26 and turning 27 in August and I am still a virgin.. Why I am virgin? Because i am living in a country where being gay is crime and cause up to 16 years of jail. But at the same time no one ever has been jailed here for being gay. Finding guy for sex is easy than finding anything else here through Grindr and other sources but i am still virgin as i am afraid to go with some stranger at his place

Yes please.. there is nothing better than this  ;D

FAM$ would you get fucked in front of your school teachers?

What is wrong with this? Parents do kiss their kids. Or At least my father use to kiss on my lips when I was in school.

Dick size does not matter as long as it is touching the prostate of the bottom which is just 2 inch away from hole.. so learn technique to make your bottom happy  :crazy2:

I have come to know about prostate when my father has been diagnosed with prostate cancer 4 year ago. I have searched about this and found that i can get this cancer too because my father had it (50% chances). Any ways long story short. I come to know about prostate massage thing. I tried it several time but did not got anything feeling except lot of water coming out from my penis while simulating and pressing my prostate (may be it was precum) and i got orgasm several time. I considered it prostate milking till last night.

I have not masturbated for 2 weeks, so i decided to simulate my prostate last night. I have simulated my prostate for 1 hours and also did edging at the same time and achieved the prostate orgasm for the very first time. (I can not describe that how beautiful it was) It was not watery fluid come from my penis this time but lot of sperm and i did not get pleasurable feeling on my penis but at my prostate, my whole body start shaking. I have never experienced this before. I thought i have ejaculated my sperm but it was not normal ejaculation but directly from the prostate. After that 5 minutes of rest, i masturbate my penis and found a huge difference in the amount of sperm, it was alot and never seen that much sperm coming from my penis and it come out with pressure.

I wonder is this all normal, i mean this is how prostate orgasm sound like or i did something wrong? If this is all fine then how long i should wait for the next prostate orgasm?

Yes, i would love too..  :cheers:

For 1 million, will visit 10 shop in a busy city and asked their owners to fuck you?

No, not at all.

Will you have sex in porn video with your own dad for 1 million?

Come on.. there isnt much dad son porn … we want more.. more and more  :cheers:

I grow up with my father and somehow close to him but still I love mature men.. Now i can apply your scenario on my situation like i like mature men because of my father because i believe that mature guys are more caring..  :hug:

I need seeds so badly plz

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I am close to my father.. it is more like the cultural things.. Families are really close in Pakistan including siblings, parents and even uncles and aunts.. When I was 12, my father beat me really hard due to studies but this did not effected our relationship as i told you it is more likely cultural thing..

I cant even think to live without my parents..  :hug2: But yes, i am also not out as gay and this could be change our relationship, so i prefer to hide my sexuality to make mine and their life easy .. lolz

@addic2porn:

can some one explain what a sleeper actually is?

Haha.. i have the same question

Yes, but only Turkish oil wrestling

@Pawpcorn:

…just to add the points and advice mentioned above... is that if you DID marry a woman, as in what would be a FAKE and totally false marriage, and under the situation of totally false circumstances... it would eventually be DEVASTATING to the lady, very likely RUINING her life. Many women have actually committed suicide, following the realization of what was, in reality, a sham marriage... totally in deception, humiliation and betrayal.

MOVING to a major city (where sexual freedom is much more acceptable) and taking your chances there... would seem to be the only way out of this nightmarish situation you are currently in.

I have personal experience in this, having gotten married myself... then living the hell of living out my sexual needs and search for male love, in hiding... and eventually giving up, some 22 years later, with 3 kids... to finally be with my male lover and boyfriend at that time.

It devastated my family, and my kids won't even talk to me nowadays; so many ruined lives... all for the sake of trying to comply with other's sense of "normalcy".

I too can relate to not being able to tell your family you are gay. I was well into my forties, before I could tell my mother... and I never could manage to tell my father, in his lifetime.

Today? Finally, at 66, having moved from the USA (which is VERY homophobic, don't ever believe otherwise) to Thailand... which culturally is VERY accepting of gays... to be living now, over 10 years, with my Thai boyfriend, my best friend, lover, and boyfriend of my lifetime, totally accepted and embraced by his family...

...is kind of a happy ending, to the long nightmarish existence and path I chose (in ERROR)... when deciding to marry a girl, at 22.

Advice? Don't DO a sham marriage, move to a major city, and live your life, as you feel inside, being honest to your heart and true identity... and avoid destroying countless lives, by your honesty.

Good luck on your life path....   :cheerup: :ghug: :inlove:

Hugs,
Pawpcorn

Thank you for sharing your experience. But trust me, If i would be at your place, i would probably kill myself before getting marry a girl. I can not even imagine this. I have even seen straight porn for few weeks to be straight guy but this does not work for me or you can say that its actually made me more gay.. The vagina looks too unattractive to me, even if i compare man ass with women, i would still go with man.

I know the girl my parents was me to get marry it is not force but they have asked me about my choice already and i told that I dont have any in my mind. So they have shared their choice. In short, my parents are all ready and waiting for my Yes only.. and here i am dying day by day…

@brianboru72:

I'm also living in a country where family pushes you to get married and can become insistent and meddling. In the end, the final solution for me was (after coming out to close friends) I worked up the courage to just flat out tell my parents that I am gay and not interested in marrying a woman. It sort of helped that by this time my younger brother had just gotten married- and my sister in law was pregnant so they were assured of a grandchild.

I know how hard it can be, but that was a turning point for me. They were not fully accepting, but they didn't reject me either. They didn't even ask me to move out. I eventually did so and found an apartment where I could live the way I wanted.

So-just to add to all the great advice you've already gotten from others- I say come out to your immediate family, if you are willing. If not, seriously try to find a job far away- in another city or country even, just to be able to live your life away from their shadow. It's not easy at the start, but it is worth all the hardship. You don't want to get into a sham marriage- it is not fair to you or the woman.

Take it one step at a time, explore job options and send in applications- as many as you can. Good luck. I hope things work out for you! Thanks for sharing your story with us.  :hug:

What about you, are you going to marry a girl, if not then what are you telling your parents for not marrying a girl?

@unpleased:

Being aware that your government says "homosexuality is never existed in your Pakistan and LGBT rights are alien concepts to the country and therefore rising from the decadent West" (Jamaat-e-Islami), if I would be you I'll take into serious consideration even the possible consequences of a coming out (even if only within your family) for your future.

I'm not saying that having a marriage right is absolutely essential, but come on fellas this is not granting marriage, it's tolerate discrimination and persecution on a part of the population just because it does not conform to the dictates, I would call this felonious.
http://www.nytimes.com/2012/11/04/world/asia/gays-in-pakistan-move-cautiously-to-gain-acceptance.html?pagewanted=all&_r=0
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/asia/pakistan/1453786/Acid-attack-on-boy-who-refused-sex-with-Muslim-cleric.html

Dunno what your family is like, but given the common denominator in your area, if you don't wanna leave the country, I'll marry a casual girl and forget forever about my true self, even if it's clearly not gonna work.

Never considered to fold up your tents and get out of that unreasonable habits ? Saying "I wanna leave the country, a marriage is only a burden for me in this moment 'cause I wanna leave." is not a bad idea, and just get out of that.

Even Malala Yousafzai had to leave, no one is gonna blame on you for that.

Indeed, it is crime to be gay in Pakistan which cause 14 year of jail but there is no case has been reported ever or no one has punished in Pakistan for being by police. Getting gay sex in Pakistan is very easy and usually they are straight guys or gay guys who are married with women.

Moving to other country is indeed the best idea but moving is not that easy because of low visa rate for Pakistani nationals.

@matwlep:

I think some of the people writing advice here are a little unrealistic about how hard it is to emigrate into a Western country. Especially from a Muslim developing country. I am saying that as someone from Europe (I now live in S.E. Asia).

What is your level of education? What type of education do you have? If you are let's say an engineer and you have some experience it might be easier for you to apply to emigrate. You might also consider Taiwan, which in my opinion is better and safer than many European countries (good-ish earning, nice weather, no macho culture, very very safe-no crime, openness for gay people).
If that is not realistic, I think you should really think very deeply about the life you want to lead. Living on your own without the support of your family can be very hard in some countries, maybe also in Pakistan? There is no one single recipe on how to lead your life in a good way. Also in the West many gay people even though they lead gay lives still are not happy. They have sex that leaves them empty, if thry want a relationship they meet guys with commitment issues. Some remain in dating for most of their lives, and do not manage to find another half. They also don't have family and children, and some of them would like to have them. There are some benefits in following your cultural background and getting married, having children, and meeting guys on the side, in secret. Many people do that. Maybe you can also find some lesbian, who also does not want a REAL marriage but would be happy to get married to you in order to have a family and children, but would ok about just being very good friends and not having a sexual relationship. Whatever you decide I encourage you to think about it very deeply and also think about your physical safety as priority.
If you can think of getting some kind education that can get you a visa to another country, where you can lead a more independent life, make plans to do it. Get your qualifications, go to university if you can, and get the best you can for yourself. That will give you options in your life!

You are right, it does not really work in Asian culture. Specially in Pakistan, family bounding is very tight. I could not imagine to hurt my parents by leaving them for no reason. They do allow me to live alone in an other city or country if i have a valid reason like job or study but leaving them without telling a reason wont work for me at all. Meanwhile, you can live alone in other countries like America and Europe because of financial support by government where in Pakistan this is not possible.

I am also planning to get study visa to other country but in the end, i have to return back to my home

Thank you for detailed reply and other information. But leaving family is not possible for me. It does not really work like that here. People do live alone for reason like if they have job in other city but i dont have reason to tell my parents that why i want to live alone. Although, the issue will be remain there even if i live alone. They will still asked me to get married.

@brand929:

I'm not familiar with the cultures and traditions in Pakistan, so excuse me if I say anything that's unrealistic for your situation.

My recommendation would be along the lines of the person above me. I think you should find anyway you can to become financially independent of your family. That's the first step. If you're not under their roof, you won't be constantly encumbered with talks about marriage. Now I'm going to go ahead and assume that if you don't marry, you'll be seen as the "black sheep" of the family, maybe seen as somewhat of an outcast. This is unfortunate, but you may have to embrace being seen that way if you don't want to get married.

You can't change what people say and think about you, and you shouldn't try. Focus on making your life as happy as possible FOR YOU. If that means not getting married and being an outcast in your family, so be it. At least you won't be living with stress and depression, and you won't be attached so a woman you don't love. Try to connect with new friends who you can confide in, and make those people your new family.

So yeah, try your best to become as independent from your family as you can. I don't know how realistic that is for your situation, but that's the first step I can recommend for you.

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And here are two interesting links I came across while browsing the web:

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https://www.quora.com/What-are-some-of-the-easiest-ways-to-achieve-financial-independence-in-Pakistan

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I hope this helps you out a little bit. I'm sorry you have to go through something like this. Keep your head up, with a strong work ethic and determination I'm sure you can create a life for yourself that'll make you happy. Good luck, buddy! I'm rooting for you!