I'm sorry. I'm just banned from every other gay site for being black and gay, so where the fuck else can I go?
What sites ban you for that?
Maybe you're banned for another reason?
I don't want to list names, as I don't think I'm allowed to. But yes, I was banned for being black and gay.
The truth is - having a boyfriend won't fix your life.
If you hate being gay - be straight.
If you don't feel straight - accept being gay.
If you're unhappy - you'll still be unhappy but in a relationship.
Believe me. This is how it works.
So find a meaning, find a hobby reorganise yourself.
If you don't like something in you - change it.
If you hate being feminine - don't be.
Start gaining mass, go to the gym, put up a little muscle.
When you'll accept yourself - then it will be time to find a boyfriend.Are you taking notes, Ā Domosuke? First of all, there's nothing wrong with being black, gay, or autistic. You are a human being. Your conditions (and I don't believe in mental "illnesses") are what make you YOU. Own it. We live in a time where you can get almost anything you want with the least bit of effort. Btw there are LOTS of ways to get a boyfriend or maybe a fuckbud, which I swear can be just as good. Use the Internet, go out to bars/clubs, try Grindr..
No I'm not taking notes. He's an asshole, and fuck him.
He's telling me not to be myself.
I don't like bars and clubs. I just had a bad experience last night at one.
I just want a fucking boyfriend, and I have so many crushes on straight guys and asshole gay guys who don't want me.
I just think it's time to die. I'm sorry. Fuck.
in my experience, one does not simply "get a boyfriend"
you need to be friends first at the least. so go make some gay friends and see where that goes
if you end up with a guy with who u share nothing in common other than being homos, i promise you: it will be miserable and you might aswell just go for a grindr bump or something. presumably that's not what you want.
as an aspie i can relate maybe that making friends isn't so easy, let alone somone to be comfortable enough with to actually open up a real relationship.
more importantly: learn to love yourself manā¦ if you can't love yourself how can you expect someone else to?
that very self-love/confidence is a pretty big attractive force. if you shine (in the right places) they will come. just own yourself.
you say you hate yourself, you hate being gay, but don't want to change. there is here a contradiction! at least one of these is not true.
PS: this is probably not the best place to look for love
I don't want friends. From minute and second one I look at him, he's mine and he's my man, and he's gonna be my man in my life.
Fuck that. I love opposite men. If he's not a racist asshole (even then. If he loves me. he can be racist lol) then I don't care.
I'm sorry. I'm just banned from every other gay site for being black and gay, so where the fuck else can I go?
The truth is - having a boyfriend won't fix your life.
If you hate being gay - be straight.
If you don't feel straight - accept being gay.
If you're unhappy - you'll still be unhappy but in a relationship.
Believe me. This is how it works.
So find a meaning, find a hobby reorganise yourself.
If you don't like something in you - change it.
If you hate being feminine - don't be.
Start gaining mass, go to the gym, put up a little muscle.
When you'll accept yourself - then it will be time to find a boyfriend.
How dare you say that. A boyfriend will help. I want a man.
You can't change being gay.
I'm not changing myself.
I want a boyfriend. So all of that is bullshit.
Downvoting my posts and shit. Fuck. I hate being gay. I gave myself a couple days to think it over, and I feel like worse, and my mind is fucking made up.
I live in the Los Angeles area and I'm very upset.
I want a boyfriend and a guy that loves me.
Being gay sucks.
I know that you're upset, but killing yourself won't solve anything. You'll find people who value you for you; you just have to patient. Have you considered getting therapy?
I have. But I still want a fucking boyfriend, and hate being gay. That's not gonna solve that shit or that category.
I am mentally ill if that's what you're trying to say.
I'm diagnosed bipolar and I'm autistic.
This song reminds me of Elementary School so much.
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This reminds me of High School for some reason. When I first came across this Justin Timberlake track.
"LIVING IN AN ENDLESS DREAM"
Because that's what being black and gay is. A fucking endless dream. I want to die. Ugh.
Some smooth Pharrell Williams R&B. Ugh.
This is another good one.
The bridge. "YOU'RE THE MAN THAT I'VE BEEN DREAMING OF"
Yes you fucking were, why don't you love me back though?
I just fucking want to die. I hate being black and gay, and being attracted to a gay culture and men who don't like me. So much racism and homophobia.
This one is so sad too. Like urban new jack swing R&B 90s ish. Isley Brothers.
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Anybody else like urban music and soul and funk and R&B music?
I'm just in a pissed off mood being black and gay and 27 years old. I'm feeling really suicidal right now and I want to leave and rest indefinitely.
I like current and new stuff. But this song is so sad some 70s Soul. I dream I have a boyfriend someday.
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I don't cope. I think about suicide all the time. Including now.
I hate being black and gay, andĀ not having anybody to turn to, and no boyfriend. I really wish I had a boyfriend. I hate being alone.
Fuck. I'm just impatient and done. Ugh.
I live in the Los Angeles area and I'm very upset.
I want a boyfriend and a guy that loves me.
Being gay sucks.
https://forum.gaytorrent.ru/index.php?topic=56038
I hate being gay
I hate being black
I hate being feminine
I hate how nobody loves me.
I don't have anybody to turn to. At all.
I feel porn is all I have, and porn is good. It is. But I wish I had a boyfriend.
I feel like I'm never gonna be happy.
I'm' 27 and I've never had a boyfriend and I'm just getting impatient.
Ugh.
I'm really thinking of suicide or similar and worse things.
My thoughts, as a queer Jew. Ā
If you'd like to meet Jewish men (or men of any specific minority religion) consider going to events within the culture. Ā I know there's a Gay-Lesbian synagogue in Los Angeles. Ā Consider going to some of their events. Ā Learn some stuff about our culture - there are Jewish restaurants, film festivals, concertsā¦.
You are unlikely to be the only Black person in the room.
I see.
Apartments:Especially if it's in a big metropolitan area, just find complexes near where you work and ask if they have any vacant units. Look for signs outside saying they are now renting.
You can use Craigslist as well too, however there are many scams for apartments on there.
It's best just to look around for complexes which are renting.
Houses:You can use Zillow as a tool to see whats available and what the market is like, or see what others have paid in the area you want to live in, or look for any hot offers which you can't pass up.
But a real estate company would also be good to use as well.
I want to say as a black African American homosexual Christian man, over the past couple of years, I been really attracted to Jewish and Eastern European/Middle Eastern men of all degrees. (I put them apart of the same group, because my attraction ranges towards all of that.)
Here in the United States, they comprise of a big population, and here in Los Angeles, I see many of them.
The only issue, is that I feel most of these men don't find black people attractive, not just for love, but for interactions in general. So I feel like I'm wasting my time and living in an unrealistic paradox by infatuating over men like this.
I don't really see that many gay black men with guys like that. But I don't know.
So because of that, I feel trapped and I feel that these types of guys to pursue as far as interpersonal an intimate close relationships are going to be difficult. I remember reading on another gay message board (I'm not gonna give the name..please lol), by a gay man who lived in Europe, said most guys like that seem to be attracted to black and dark skin gay men. That perhaps is true, but that doesn't mean they will still open their lives up to you.
I'm not saying they are racist, no I'm not, but, ugh. I don't know.
I remember that story of that gay black man who was nearly beaten to death by a bunch of Jewish/Eastern European men recently for unknown reasons in a gay village. Maybe him being gay was dismissive, and it was a racial attack, maybe it wasn't, I don't know. The story still doesn't add up, and it's concluded and finished but still.
https://nypost.com/2016/08/31/gay-beating-victim-details-how-attacker-gouged-his-eye/
But despite all of that, it's just something I want to get out there.
I just find these types of guys very attractive for some reason, and I don't see a lot of discussion about it really.
This was just something that was on my mind and I wanted to post to get out there and off my chest. So, that's all.
Just wanted to post this here for any help and if someone else wanted to post on or offer their opinions, that would be nice.
