Posts made by nixosgl

between 3 and 7 times each day… so 21-49 per week O_o

hum maybe that is why i always have low libido... ocd masturbator

they are both racist…

but hey people have different opinions... some of those are wrong of course.

in the end i never used dove products and i do not plan to start now.

in the past i loved to eat white mill biscuit... a brand owned by barilla... and after their homophobic view i just stopped buying any barilla products or other brands owned by the same people.

@kenjysn1:

that’s only my thoughts no offended to anyone and anything.

no offence, you just make some confusion…

there isn't anything special in being gay or straight...

except the fact that if you are gay some people want to kill you or to shame you... while for being straight that almost never happens...

when was the last time a son has been thrown out of home by parents... for being heterosexual ?

also being proud doesn't mean claiming to be special, but means claiming you will not accept to be ashamed of who you are.

as a straight male who doesn't hide the fact he has a girlfriend, then a proud gay will not hide the fact he has a boyfriend...

i am not saying a proud gay has to tell everyone he has a boyfriend... but when they ask you: will you arrive alone ? you will say no, with Paul
and when they will ask you... who is this Paul ? you will say, he is my boyfriend.

knowing more sets you free from the lies of religions…

back when i was 5 years old... there were only 3 kind of people... or so they told me:

the jew: who had a great opportunity but wasted it, called the betrayers
the christians: who had the truth...
(notice in italy we did not have religious sects in the past...
i did not know that many christians sects existed and they also killed eachother and persecuted eachother
and also that while in the open they may say the pray to the same god, in private they say the other christians are doomed and will be in hell)

the third group were those people still waiting to hear about the good gospel... they were depicted as savages just waiting to be saved...

here is what they didn't tell me:
that some people knew about christianity but rejected it and preferred to live without it
(that was an option i didn't even know it was possible, noone told me)
that some people had another religion... and that they were happy about it.
that many religions exist, and some are even older than christianity.

as you can see... knowledge leads to make better choices... or if you prefer informed choices...

you may like or not like labels… but sexuality while not being everything it defines you.

there is alot of luggage on heterosexuality... men brags about women, and during a conversation there are words like wife, married...
if you do not wanna hide... you are supposed to say something when there is a dinner and you are supposed to take your "wife" with you...

and what about the ring ? don't people assume that a man with wedding ring is an heterosexual who is married and has a female wife with whom he has sexual intercourse ?

you can't just leave a "detail" like sexuality out... just cause it doesn't totally define you, it just doesn't mean that is doesn't define you.

so far i prefer left wingers than right wingers
and atheists rather than religious people

being gay and on the rightwinger/religious side is like shooting yourself in the foot…

so far i think brexit was a bad thing for uk, but it can be a good thing for europe... uk always wanted to have a better deal compared to the rest of the eu countries, also it acted more in the interest of u.s.a. than the interest of eu

i disliked politicians of uk going into war... a war that maybe gave benefit to u.s.a. but in the end gave only trouble to eu with waves of immigrants...

i was surprised some rightwingers uk politicians used the gay rights to their advantage... so they stole a perk from the left side and used it to score a win... in the end i do not complain, even if i do not benefit from it since i do not live in uk

the fact the mayor of uk is religious is a thing i do not like, for me christian , muslim is the same... all wrong... but still he behaves better than the gop, trump, repubblicans... so it is fine for me...

in the end it was very stupid for the rightwingers of uk to make a brexit vote... when right wingers play with extremists right wingers the country suffers.

in the end i do not know how it will go, still i am just a spectator anyway.

hum i am still puzzled how some gay can support repubblicans and/or trump  ;D

btw i am not american, and happy that i do not have to deal with them…

still i would have liked to live in a better country, a north european one 

not a virgin anymore… lost it a 18yo

i am 33yo and has been 3 years i am no longer interested in doing sex with other people.

at 12 i had the fantasy of being dominated by females that wanted to undress me and make me cum…

then it was about 4 strong guys who were holding me down, while a female take advantage of it...
then 4 strong guys holding me down while a feminine man would take advantage of me...

well... i realized i was gay when i downloaded some gay pics at 14yo using the computer at school in info lab
to check while i was so focused on glans penis... when i was watching straight porn...

i wanted to know what would happen at watching two at the same time... also i wasn't interested or aroused by a vagina, i still didn't realize i was gay...

i remember first i laughed at the gay pics, and then like 5 mins later i was already aroused madly...

it was 14yo on may, i remember i cried on saturday not because i was gay... but because i lost my dad at 7, and now i had to endure people picking me cause i was gay too... i disliked growing up when the teacher asked what did u do for father's day... and selected boys and girls in the class... when she picked me i always said he was dead... i didn't like feeling different...

but hey... here i am at least now i do not have any alimony to pay, and even if there is a world wide crisis i do not have a family and especially kids to support -.-'

1. the person i had sex with: i was 18, he was 29… some random man i found on irc chat

other than gay people i told only to my mother

ehy look another italian… i presume you are bisexual... (since you talked about son/daughter)

i am italian too, i said it to noone except my mother, not sure if she told anyone else...
i told her, cause she asked how i could be rejected by the (ex) mandatory military service
(it was in effect for only 2 years, the 1 year younger generation after mine was the last one to go to mandatory military service)

i just didn't want to lie and to tell her i faked to be gay to be rejected at the examination...

the first year i went to the examination place, i showed a state psycologist paper about me who costed 25 euro as ticket, since we used to have free healthcare; now we get a reduced pay healthcare... so we still need to pay something...

i had to return the follow up year, i showed again the paper and had a talk with one of their psycologists... and then i was rejected.

about family... i guess i could have told them... but i am a bit too much self destructive and self isolationist to take that path...
so i just cut contact with all of my relatives... i know it is a bit foolish as you can potentially loose a safety net...
but those years i didn't simply care... i wanted to have sex, alot of sex, like my lucky hetero schoolmates that could start at 14yo...

i started at 18yo... at the beginning i was wary of taking hiv, then i simply didn't care anymore... i guess now that i am no longer interested in doing sex with another person i feel lucky i caught only 5 std, that also could be healed. 5 std during about 12 years i was sexually active.

i only visit 1 relative twice each year, my only living parent... my mother... and only cause i have to, if i do not do it... noone does...
i usually fix what is broken in the house, and do taxes, payments for the apartment

if i have to stay there it is like hell... well not like when i was 18-22, i felt an aura of dread and depression just moving close to the door of the apartment... i remember 1 day i couldn't move my hand on the handle... it frozen without my conscious part comanding it, it was the istinctual part i do not control... i could not enter my mother's home, and i just stood quietly there just outside for 5 minutes doing nothing till i could regain control.

now i am 33yo and it is just a bore i have a free wifi internet not always working there, a single size bed also uncomfortable, i can't stay naked as i usually do at my home, and there is nothing there for me anyway.

maybe now is a bit different from 15-20 years ago, i remember all males in my class were pro nazi... while the female teacher did all she could to explain that what they did was bad... those young males simply saw a male winning over another male as "cool"... (talking about 13yo)
in the 14-18 years there was a group of males who had a worship for fascism and carried the coin of mussolini at school, and they boasted to have the hitler's book at home... there was a single male good guy other than myself who was on his own... and a group of right winger leaning boys who cared only about driving a motorbike and getting drunk...
in the end i spent those year in self isolation talking from time to time only with the other good guy.

is a bit strange now that there isn't so much homophobia in italy as it used to be... clearly we are still the only western european eu contry without civil marriage and adoption for same sex couple... of course there is still greece which is part of the western block even if it is a bit too much to the east.

in the past years there were episodes of homophobia... with rent negated to gays, or gays even robbed and beaten up and killed... not sure
if media never reported in italy or is a new thing... but now there are also episodes of discrimination directed toward people of color... even if they are italian citizen, even if they are adopted and their adoptive parents are white...

and some italians also whine about the fact that during this crisis foreigners do not visit that much...

i used to openly kiss someone in the street when i was 18yo, simply cause i had passion and i didn't care about anything else...
now i am just not interested anymore in the relationship, kissing in public, walking hand in hand...
during these years i read on the country newspaper some gay couple got assaulted, some even died... after exiting some gay club at night
just cause they were walking holding hands, or people saw them exiting from a gay disco/bar/club, or they kissed on the walkway...

if you did all correctly, wait 90 minutes and check again

i started few days ago with 20mb upload , about 50gb download… ratio 0.001
now 428gb upload,same about 50gb download ratio 9.0

here is what i did...

1 disable something called dht,pex,local lan
2 when u create a torrent make it private and insert tracker
3 after you do the upload... download .torrent file of your upload from this site...
it is the tricky part... here is what i did:
place original .torrent somewhere safe, will delete later
do the upload on the site inserting description, photoes, original .torrent file
download .torrent file of upload from the site, open it, make sure a copy of the uploaded files are in the correct place...
force a recheck... should now show as seeding on the site.

well i have some sort of obsessive compulsive behavior…

when i do something, i do something alot till i burn and i lose interest...

happened with sex... (even 3 times a day with 3 different guys... morning, afternoon, night)

after about 10 years on having alot of sex, and doing hardcore stuff (bondage, electro stim)
i just simply lost interest in doing it with real people... i feel it is a drag

the fact about people being males, but sex not always being easy, and people disappearing, not calling you... is quite normal and happens to everyone...

15 years ago i was worried it was my fault, that i was flawed and broken... but it just happens to everyone.

here is 1 story:
years ago i meet this guy at his home, i am not self confident so i get some cialis (it made my cock go hard in few seconds from soft just from watching it... and no matter how many time i came... it went up almost immediately just by touching it...)

me being a 25yo top i give him 35-40yo the ride of his life... cough cough ok now i am being just a bit too arrogant, lets just say i gave him a very good ride... and he called me his "young stallion"

do you think he bothered to call me back, to be his fuck buddy ?
of course not... and i was thinking it was my fault at that time, that i wasn't enough...

months later... i am at the home of 1 of my friends, who knows this guy... as they lived in the same small town during childhood... they chat using the computer... i am helping him mounting a furniture while he calls me...

here is what happened: they were boasting the good sex encounter they had, and that guy talked about a very good sex encounter he had... with a young stallion, and described me... since my friend knows the story of my life, he found out it was me... my friend gave the guy my profile link to be sure it was me... and it was really me... i was described as a young stallion who gave him 1 of the best rides of his life...

then why he didn't call me back ? why he didn't want to be my fuck buddy... i always put myself down my whole life... i thought i wasn't enough...
i also, in the end, ended up using sex enhancing drugs i didn't need... since i was feeling i wasn't enough...

and then... it ends up... people are just lazy and easily bored, and would rather not give a fuck... and just swipe at a new encounter secretly hoping it would be better than the previous ones... why bother with 1 person only... when you got a virtually infinite amount of males on apps these days ? (it was gayromeo/gaydar 7 years ago)

guess what... that night, when i came back home... i received a message from this guy... (to which i didn't reply and just deleted it)
do you think he was really interested in meeting me ?
nope... and not because i am worthless...
but simply because he had full balls and wanted to unload them with the first random person he could meet...
i was just 1 random dude from a bunch to which he probably sent the same identical message.
i realized this thing when i was 26yo

this character is my favorite… james vega

i would totally marry him

i rarely store stuff online, but it is more as a way to share stuff to other people, not to save for myself: mega.nz /google drive

i have currently 2 hard disks i keep my data archived on, and every 1 january i attach two other hard drives and do a yearly backup

it would have been cooler to just have 1 archive disk + 1 yearly back up disk… sadly at the moment i just can't

i figured out i do not need to save data that much, i need to carefully select what to keep...

in the past years i reduced alot the quantity of downloaded data... and i try to delete something when i can.

as i only have less than 50gb of porn i am kinda fine on that (still need to select alot of it, and delete most stuff)

the problem lies on videogames... i got more than 3tb of data, and i never played most of them ...

i had a compulsion about collecting them... my long term goal is to delete stuff i do not need, after i share it online maybe on a file locker

i see… i used to be an hoarder and used a collection software for videogames...

after living about 30+ years i realized i almost never rewatch sitcom, unless they make me laugh and still seldom
i rarely watch movies (so let's not even talk about rewatching)

i found it is easier just to stream... and i never have regrets about the possibility in the future i will no longer be able to rewatch a particular thing

about videogames... i found out i was collecting crap, i edit an iso image and put inside what i want, this for every videogame i want to keep...
there is an high chance i wanna replay them, or that i am emotionally attached to them, but the number of them i care is extremely low
i will probably upload and share the ones i didn't like before deleting them for good... (among these there is dragon age i still can't force me to play it, and still do not like it :P)

porn is the easiest of them all, not only i find nowadays most of it uninteresting... but i feel compelled to save only a few of them...
instead of a software i just add information in the file name: production house, favorite actor i care, original file name, then tags...
very basic like gay bisex bj hh jack cum eat

just recently i managed to divide them in grades, like i did for videogames...
A the ones i watch totally without skipping or almost without skipping and i really want to save...
B the ones i need to skip and usually just watch some pieces... they may end edited up in avidemux to keep only what i want
C the ones you usually watch once then you usually delete (not talking about bit torrent, but talking about streaming or file locker sites)
D the ones so crappy you wish you never watched and you just delete to spare the pain to other people

right now i think i got only 47gb worth, i got some C and D who i will delete when i need space...
on the other end i got 1,04tb anime i need to sift through, 3,04tb videogames 1,34tb sitcom and 334gb movies

i still think i got alot of things i do not want and need to delete, so far i am managing to delete more than i download

hi there…

yesterday i had an upload / download ratio of 20mb/36gb 0.001 ratio or almost
today 116,7gb/44,53gb about 2,6 ratio

i did this:

1. option/bit torrent uncheck: dht, pex and local lan
2. i downloaded freeleach files: initially only those i was a bit interested in, then some of those with at least 10 leech and not many seeds
   especially those having gb of data instead of a few mb
3. i rated and voted category for each downloaded freeleach (after i watched it)
   (at least 50 voted freeleach gives enough to download about 2gb... 150 gives 20gb but is much harder to get)

what really helped is... my isp offered me to upgrade my connection from 800kbps/20kbps to 900mbps/280mbps
for a +20% cost

ok... with and especially without one of these bandwitch my tips are:

a) always rate and vote category for downloaded files
b) download the freeleach you like, and the freeleach with 10 more leechers and not many seeds or with some size in gb
c) when a file is not freeleech download it if you really like/need it... for example file is something it has got what you want, and it is rare (not easily available)

this site helped me when i needed some particular files from maskurbate that weren't available elsewhere... i also found out something from englishlads, nick baer, brad posey (jeff brent, clayton), muscle matt... but in any case it was always a specific file i was looking for which was also rare, i wasn't downloading everything not freeleech at random or on a whim...

hi there, i finally got an internet line with a nice upload rate

i am trying to raise the quantity of seeded data…

but i found a problem so far: inside my torrent software qbit torrent 3.3.13 it is shown i uploaded 300mb

while inside my profile on this site the uploaded ratio raised only of 20mb...

what did i do wrong ?

i am only seeding files from this site at this moment
i have a successful port forwarding
i have no limit cap on upload
reading a guide here

1. i disabled dht
2. disabled pex
3. disabled search local peer
4. checked i had codify connection, and found out i have this option: prefer to codify connection if possible...

are there other things i need to do, to make sure that if i upload for example 1gb of data on the software, it will also be shown here that i have uploaded 1 gb of data ?

edit: at least now the stats are updated... instead of 20(previously)+20mb(today) uploaded it shows 310mb uploaded (on software is 375)

i guess... one of these days i will try to upload a torrent... i hope i will not fail... i guess i will have to download a specific torrent software if i want to use your automatic upload maker software.