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I'm noticing that in browse mode, with photos that are very long vertically, the full length is being displayed and taking up multiple row's worth of space. So instead of one torrent per block of image, it takes up a whole bunch. And it's hard to keep track of which torrent I've already seen or not.

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Oh definitely.
In fact, it seems that almost every single person has a fetish - whether more obvious to others or not.
At least the gays in NYC certainly seem to (or at least the ones I attract???).

I personally do have a fetish too - objectification and degrading; being reduced to an object, a sex object to be used for their pleasures.

I think my personality/psychology has a lot to do with it.
Although fit, I'm small in stature. Always survived throughout my life through psychology & intersocial politics, as physical assertion wasn't conducive for or allowed by my genetics. I.E, think manipulative. Although I rarely manipulated for the sake of it in itself, generally tried to manipulate and move in the background for a desirable outcome for all involved. I got off on seeing 'bigger but dumber' guys get ousted because of my politics, which led them to realize that they have to appeal and submit.

That being said, my usual go-to fetish (again, despite being small), has been to objectify muscle hunks. To own them, to make them feel graced and grateful to be fucked by (although, they're the ones inside me) me.

BUT. BUT. The REAL BIG FETISH/TURN ON FOR ME!? If someone, despite my intelligence, politics and charm, completely overrules the WHOLE THING through brute force and charisma, and owns me. Completely pacifying and nullifying any methodologies I have as my arsenal to keep control. To own and use me.

The very latter rarely ever happens though. Most people THINK they have what it takes, and tries to fake it. But then it becomes very obvious that they are reaching way over their heads, and I can't take them seriously and end up taking back control - this is generally the most unideal situation, as they get insecure/butt-hurt, and ends up with them lashing out in a desperate attempt to hide their own disappointments and insecurities with childish-tantrum-like egoic meltdowns.

When someone has what it takes (alpha), generally, I feel/know it immediately. So sad that there's so few and far between.
A muscle hunk who's not just overcompensating for the lack of their intelligence, but simply as is and somehow with a charisma that can command the room: USE ME.  :cheers: :cheers: :love: :cheesy2: :cheesy2:

The last sexual encounter that fits into my fetish was when I met a bisexual guy.
We exchanged pics on Grindr. He saw my photo and simply said, "perfect." Then he came over to my hotel room.
He walks through the door with a leather jacket with fleece lining, normal fitted jeans. He sees me, and then a grin develops on his face as if he is satisfied with his prey. He didn't say anything. He walks over to me, gets behind me, and puts one of his hands down my pants. He initially dabs his finger against my lasered-smooth hole, then grabs the entirety of my ass cheeks with his hand, as if about to lift me up. He then thrust his crotch against my back, pressing his hard cock on the arch of my lower back as he used his other arm to wrap me by my torso and pull me in tightly. His arm moved upwards and his hand reached for my throat, which he used to turn my head as he thrust his tongue into my mouth, to claim me as his own.

He continued to grin and then said, "this is going to be fun," and tossed me onto the bed. I fell face down, barely catching my fall. I didn't have much time to gather my composure, as he then grabbed me by the hip, making me arch my back and perk my ass up. Then I heard him unbuckle his belt, and pull off my pants in one pull.

He started eating me out, and I moaned, perking up my ass for him to feast upon. He took his shirt off, pulled down his pants, then laid on the bed with his back rested against the headboard. He didn't say anything, and just looked at me. His legs spread wide, his cock rock hard, throbbing and resting against his abs. Again, he was still grinning.

I crawled into the warmth of his legs, and dug my face into his crotch. He had his arms up, his hands buckled behind his head. Enjoying the view of me sucking his cock.

When he was satisfied and wanted more, he told me he wants to fuck me. I pulled out a condom and put it on his cock, while lubing my hole and his cock. I asked that he goes slow as I'm really tight. He didn't object or approve - he was just enjoying himself. He laid in the same position, with his hands still wrapped around the back of his head, his armpits exposed.

I slowly worked my way down his shaft, as I impaled myself on his cock. He gave me time, but not completely.
When he thought I've had enough time to prepare myself, he got up, had me on my back in the blink of an eye, and started thrusting inside me. He thrust so hard that I was at the edge of the bed in a few seconds, desperately holding onto the wall to prevent myself from falling off the bed.

To wrap up the story, he came. We took a break. He reminded me that "I'm not done with you yet." I went back to his crotch, and he shot a load into my mouth. We went to bed, and in the middle of the night, he woke me up with his hard cock pressed against my back. He turned me over under the sheets, and used his spit to slide inside my loosened hole. This time, he thrust slowly and deeply until he came.

You get the idea.

In summary: I like to take control, generally get what I want no matter the circumstances (except for my sex life :blownose:). This is reflected in my professional career and position. But someone that completely overrides that and proves me wrong. Uses me with complete disregard to the methods that most others submit to. Actually, no not disregard, but seemingly have mastered and transcended beyond it that they simply could not be bothered by it. And goes on to claim and take what he wants  :love:.

I'm pretty sure child psychology has a lot to do with it. Freud's idea on fetishes (not necessarily sexual, although often the case with men as it entails their fear of castration) I think is a good base understanding: a child's mind desperately clinging to the very last moment in which it's own phallic and thus egoic definition was complete without any threat. Any associations that happened to be around at the time of such disillusionment, is what he believes one develops as a fetish for: the most common example being a child looking up the skirt of his mother/women, realizing that she does not have a penis, making him fear for the possibility of his own being removed. With the last visual/physical 'entrance point' right before this occurrence would most likely have been the feet, hence the reason a lot of people might have foot fetishes; the last light one remembers before having entered the eternal cave.

Of course, don't take it literally, as there are other more complicated possibilities/permutations of egoic repression/expression.

@herculean76:

Monster muscle man

What's his full name please?

@isdraugr:

I tend to like them shaved but a moderate amount of body hair works well for me.

How about these?

OMG. Names please!

Gay, Bi or Straight.
Taking recommendations. Anyone?

Not just flexing though.. At least stroking or jerking off

You guys are hilarious  :cheesy2:
Thank you all for those that tried to validate me  :love:
Especially:
@mattb36469:

I am a bottom and I would happily top for you.

because as a bottom myself, I know how much of a compliment this is <3.

No I didn't get any yet.
I did get a few matches - the guy that I was talking about when I said that I once bit my lip so hard that it bled while watching this guy work out? Turns out he has been checking me out too. I guess I need to start wearing my glasses or contacts, cause I can barely see people.

Somehow though, my libido's been gone  :cry2: So I haven't actually been fucked by him yet.

And of course. Here I am on vacation, horny as fuck and in need of a breeding, and no one interested. I'm over it  :cheesy2: :cheesy2:

Sorry for the super long delayed response guys.
Thank you for your input.As strange as it may sound, it somehow did not occur to me that ethnicity might be a factor - which I've become acutely aware of now.
Just the other day, someone at the gym hit up my buddy and asked about me saying, "Who's that. He's cute for an Asian guy."

I do have preferences myself, but a wide-scope rather than just one. Better put, it's not so much that I have preferences but very specific dis-preferences.
That being said, considering my honest self-observation about my sexualization or desexualization of certain ethnicities, I'm assuming that's the same cause/reason as to why others do/may not find me attractive.

It's like the issue with Steve Harvey having said on TV that Asian men are simply just not attractive.

When I made the original post, I'm pretty sure I was in heat   :cheesy2:. I would literally bite my lip so hard at the sight of a hot guy working out at the gym that it would bleed. Since then, I've come back to my senses and haven't really hooked up with anyone or tried to.

It is a bit strange though, I have to say: those that are attracted to me seems to be a very specific type. I don't mean in a demographic or physical way, but in that they have a very very specific preference if not exclusive interest in Asians. Not sure how I feel about it yet, but eh. I have other things to worry about nowadays.

Oh, I also forgot to mention: since making the post, I shaved my head. And the change in the way other guys look at me is so drastically different to the degree that it's pathetic… I'm wondering if perhaps Asian men are feminized, and the longer-than-short hair was not helping such an image?

@casino:

If I were in Manhattan the same time you happened to be "in heat", I'd fuck you… although I use Manhunt rather than Gringr...

Oh shit, didn't know Manhunt was still alive. Been years for me. Thank you, will look into it again.

@cubtellak:

Grinder pics and porn for many relieve the need for physical sex as they can jerk off and fantasise over them and then get on with their lives. By sending people pictures of your ass or cock there is nothing left to find out so they can wank off and no need to meet. Personally I find dating apps mostly a waste of time and get most sex meeting people physically. Saunas offer the best option for quick sex as everyone there is there for the same purpose. If you really must use apps then "less is more", don't show your cock or ass and if you must then obscure it so its teasing. Keep your shorts on with hard on etc. Your face pics are very much like everyone elses so try to be different here too and less pics, one or two are enough. Give little and you will get back lots. Good luck

Thank you. Didn't think about this - Apparently fake photos are a thing, so I was projecting what I would want: to know what I'm getting. I will definitely give this a try.

Lol…
I put that grey circle there for the purpose of posting it here, but send the photos without it on grindr

Please believe me when I say, I am not fishing for compliments or assurances! Rather, the purpose of my post is more pragmatic.

I live in downtown NYC. Every 4 months, I get into a weird zone where I NEED to be fucked. I normally do not hook up with people at all, and just get by with jerking off 2-3 times a day.
When I'm in that once-every-4-months thirst craze, the photos attached to this post are the photos I send to grindr profiles that I would like to hookup with.

And I NEVER. SUCCEED!?

Going back to the opening of this post: it is very clear that what I am doing is not working.
I think of myself as an attractive enough person. I go to the gym a lot, and have a balanced physique (I never skip leg days. In fact, my legs are a bit over-developed from ballet).
I don't take selfies (my facebook is almost empty), and am not good at taking photography. So is that what it is?

What am I doing wrong?

When sending a message to someone, I generally say:
"How's it going. (Name) here. Looking?"
And proceed to send those photos.

My profile reads:
"We all have needs.
Tastes vary wildly depending on mood. Power bttm if it comes to it. Open to most things.
Sex as the mean or end.
Even deep depths have a shallow layer."

I've been told by previous sex partners, that I am weird. Straightup, people have said that "You are weird" after we've had sex. Okay, I get it. I ask strange questions and am sometimes a bit aloof. But that's not what I'm talking about here. I'm not looking for dates or Boyfriends.

We all have needs. Come on, when you're on Grindr at midnight on the weekends in NYC, you're looking to fuck. So why not straight to the point?

Am I presenting myself as a slut? Are my photos unideal? Am I not as fit as I like to think?

Would appreciate any feedback, as this is driving me insane! I really don't want to have to resort to using my vibrating dildo tonight…

….???
This is the Black Party we're talking about, not a normal club.....???
99% of the population will be in tight leather underwear and a chest-harness.

You don't really need to say or do anything. Honestly, just dance and let your body do the talking. If you like someone, go next to them and start dancing - they're probably doped up on something anyways. If they're not feeling it, move on, but if they're feeling it, they'd either grab you at some body part or something along those lines.

Black Party's quality has degraded over the years, and last year was just atrocious... No theatrical value whatsoever (lights), backroom was wayyyy too crowded, the drinks were simply vomit-inducing. I no longer recommend it.

From the very start of our sexual realization, our (gays) sexuality was seemingly never a private endeavor.
We had to define ourselves against the opinions of others, and to solidify that identity, we further categorize and label ourselves.

There's nothing wrong with the above phenomenon, it is simply an observation and statement.

In other words, we had to realize, confirm, approve and seek validation for our sexuality. And in the process, I think we've gotten too used to it being in the public domain; in the opinion of others.

Again, there is nothing wrong with it. It's not like it's our fault for being too insecure, it's just what happened in the process.

Most importantly, one of the biggest logic or consolation behind our sexuality has been that it is natural. It is who we are, and it was simply a matter for us to discover. I personally agree with this perspective.

BUT. HOW that sexuality expresses itself or manifests, is not set-in-stone. It's not a matter of 'discovering' it and actualizing it like we did with our sexuality. In fact, it changes over time. Because behind every sexual fetish or desire, is yet another hidden motive/desire. And you never know how that primary desire may be fulfilled, either it be sexual or not.

To be honest, I don't have the answer myself, as I myself am going through this. I THINK I have this sexual fetish, I jerk off to some fucked up shit too. I portray different parts of me (hyper dominant vs hyper submissive) to different people, and THINK that I have a taste, an ideal romantic partner etc.

But guess what. I met someone that proved me wrong. I thought I wanted to be fucked like an object. Objectify me, dehumanize me, use me. Strip me of my ego so that I need not defend it anymore, because I am tired of rebuilding and defending it. It's almost like those people who WANT to get HIV, so they never have to worry about it again.

With tender care, somehow, this one person managed to convince me, that I do not need to defend my ego with him, nor surrender.
This is all new to me, so I don't know how to describe what is going on. All I know is, despite my usual sexual fetishes, somehow, with him, I think I can make it work.

Hell, who knows, he might even be into it later on, if we ever get to discussing that part of me. Also, by the time that timing comes around, maybe I will be a different person too, in which case the fetish might not be a thing anymore either.

In conclusion, I think there are two things you are really asking: 1. Our sexual identity, 2. Moralization of our sexual identity.

Different philosophies have differing opinions on this. Some suggest that thoughts become words, words become seeds, and seeds bloom and you reap what you sew. Others, suggest that we are self-conflicted beings with various permutations of expressions of our desires: some more direct than others, some more twisted than others; and that the thoughts are not what defines us, and that our actions define us.

I personally believe in the latter, not simply for the sake of my peace of mind, but also because I know better than to think that I am not a self-conflicted individual. The fact is, we all are. Our unconscious mind seemingly has a mind of its own, and no matter how hard I try to control it, it never seems to work that way.

By punishing yourself for being self-conflicted, you further fragment yourself. What good does that do?

If anything, I've been approaching life as if it's all a fucked up puzzle. Once in a while, someone comes along, and helps me solve each piece at a time. When I think I've figured it out, someone shows me yet another bigger picture. In essence, the overall definition or identity is always changing, and we need not punish ourselves for every step of the way. Because it's not permanent, and doesn't have to define us, unless we want it to.

Instead of guilt, I say, take a curiosity to it. Don't be completely controlled by it. Don't mindlessly pursue it just because of the pleasure it brings. ALLOW yourself to indulge in it, but at the same time, remain aware. As that fetish itself is not the end goal, but simply a clue, a door to somewhere deeper within yourself.

Do not confuse the process as the end goal itself. It does not define you, but is a companion guiding you to self discovery.

Sorry if my language is convoluted and overly poetic. I'm slightly drunk

When it comes to my fetishes (objectification, as described above), I've slowly learned overtime that it stems from my abusive father. Because of the trauma, I developed a defense mechanism over time, which involved building this massive barrier and protection: a metal solid ego. But because that's not natural to me, or is too tiresome to maintain, the relief from it manifested as a sexual fetish; the very opposite, complete loss of control.

When I first started psychotherapy, I thought there was something 'wrong' with me that needs fixing. See a parallel yet?
Just like you are approaching your fetish as an end rather than the means, I thought my 'troubles'were the end that needs discovery and fixing, rather than it being the means. By inquiring and coming to terms with my past, and WILLINGLY deciding where I want to be (rather than be controlled by it), I realized that my past trauma were simply the means for me to discover myself, but not what defines me.

Hope this helps.

Oh, those are the ingredients already listed in the products!
I did make one mistake though: It's not neutrogena brand moisturizer, it's Aveeno.

@koolqee:

@cwamoon:

Don't masturbate for a few days - you'll definitely start loving that hole again.
Also, when I top (which is rare), I prefer to fuck guys that are 'broken in.' Too tight, and it actually hurts my cock. I prefer it a little loose.

When it comes to the curry-dick… OH HELL NO. NOPE. NOT HAPPENING. INSTA-HARDON-KILLER.
Find a bottom that cleans himself INSIDE OUT squeaky clean before sex. Enema X 3. I mean, that's what I do for my tops when I bottom...

When it comes to the size.. I mean.. Which direction does your dick curve? With the prostate's location in mind, choose your position accordingly so that the bottom's prostate is grazed against. Make sure to have him whine and quiver until the prostate is inflamed, and the size shouldn't really matter too much. Unless you are below average size, then maybe not.

I'm a smal0 5'5" Asian with a 5.5" dick. Never had problems with fucking other guys. Although I guess I haven't tried fucking a 6' tall guy before either. Tallest I think may have been like 5' 9". Taller than that, because of anatomy, might be difficult to please.

OMG the image that popped up in my mind when you said curry dick…. I actually almost vomitted  :puke:
My dick is 16cm and it points to the sky so it kind of hurts to have it perpendicular to my body but usually I go for missionary. That works best for me. I stress about hygiene though and doesn't help that I have a sensitive nose so I can smell things easily. Sex is hard... lol

It really is xD.
I mean, I have a sensitive nose too so I always make sure I'm COMPLETELY clean.. Never any issues despite hours of sex. Of course, had to learn it the hard way.

In regards to it being unhealthy: actually, not really. Yes, there are concerns with flushing out the vitamins and minerals you need, potential contamination, loss of probiotics etc. That's not a problem for me considering that my supplement/vitamin stacks are quite extensive and split into 2 doses, so cleaning myself thoroughly like that never throws off my balance. Granted, I only have sex once every few months.

@koolqee:

@cwamoon:

Boys. Sit. Down. I got dis  :cheers: :cheers:  :cheesy2:

I've always had combination skin. Too oily on the T-zone, but somehow breaking out in pebble beach patch of white-heads whenever I use anything to control the oil.

After years of trying everything out (All the major brands + the so-called acne-focused brands. Did you know even burtsbees has some questionable ingredients?) without success, as a last resort, I tried the hippy-dippy shit: all natural.

And my goodness. It worked. Now my friends refer to me as someone having exemplary clear skin…
The only "chemical" that I've kept is Benzoyl Peroxide in the morning, and a tiny tab of salicylic-acid-containing moisturizer at night.

My daily routine looks like this.

Morning:
-Benzoyl Peroxide cleanser, applied using finger and hands
-Witch Hazel and cold-pressed Aloe Vera, alcohol-free "toner." Spritz
-Burts Bees SPF 30 daily moisturizer (although not perfect, when it comes to sunscreen ingredients, they use the mildest)

Night:
-Tea Tree Oil and various essential oils with natural ingredients, applied and scrubbed using terry cloth
-Witch Hazel and Aloe Shit I mentioned above. Spritz
-Then I mix in my palm: a bit of cold-pressed 100% aloe vera juice which has grapefruit seed extract as the preservative, 1 small pump of cold-pressed argan oil, 3-4 drops of 100% Lavender Essential Oil, tiny dab of Neutrogena moisturizer with salicylic acid.

Of course everyone has different skin types.. But with most other conventional products, I noticed that it swings the "pendulum" too much because it works too quickly/strong on my sensitive skin. Rather, going the hippy route took longer, but actually managed to balance my skin.

Please link the products you use. I want to check it out haha

I buy everything in bulk, so these links might not be the best deals currently available, fyi. These are what I bought during my last batch purchase. Also, I did do a lot of research into each of these products before actually settling on em. Been on this routine for a year or so now.

https://www.amazon.com/CLEAN-CLEAR-Continuous-Control-Cleanser/dp/B00HYB0LSY/ref=sr_1_4_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1492467477&sr=8-4&keywords=Clean+clear+continuous+control

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00ENO9JTM/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00ENO9JTM/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B001CMV8FG/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00KRJPE00/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B004Z209HS/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B004Z209HS/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1

https://www.amazon.com/Aveeno-Complexion-Blemish-Treatment-Moisturizer/dp/B00006FRW7/ref=sr_1_34_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1492467644&sr=8-34&keywords=lotion+with+salicylic+acid

Don't masturbate for a few days - you'll definitely start loving that hole again.
Also, when I top (which is rare), I prefer to fuck guys that are 'broken in.' Too tight, and it actually hurts my cock. I prefer it a little loose.

When it comes to the curry-dick… OH HELL NO. NOPE. NOT HAPPENING. INSTA-HARDON-KILLER.
Find a bottom that cleans himself INSIDE OUT squeaky clean before sex. Enema X 3. I mean, that's what I do for my tops when I bottom...

When it comes to the size.. I mean.. Which direction does your dick curve? With the prostate's location in mind, choose your position accordingly so that the bottom's prostate is grazed against. Make sure to have him whine and quiver until the prostate is inflamed, and the size shouldn't really matter too much. Unless you are below average size, then maybe not.

I'm a smal0 5'5" Asian with a 5.5" dick. Never had problems with fucking other guys. Although I guess I haven't tried fucking a 6' tall guy before either. Tallest I think may have been like 5' 9". Taller than that, because of anatomy, might be difficult to please.

Living in NYC, there's quite a few cruise gyms where the showers and steam rooms serve the purpose of releasing all that pent up testosterone from the workouts  >:D . Immediate gratification. Works beautifully for motivation.

And yes, absolutely. It's to purposefully flash.
Same thing with tights. Super short shorts. Anything that purposefully bulges out your crotch, etc.
Yes. It's for show.

When it comes to restrained movements, compression-gear can come in handy rather than loose clothing that might end up catching. But even with that, there are some that are meant to just compress vs the ones that purposefully accentuate, either by functional or aesthetic design.

I don't really do cardio so wouldn't know about why people wear loose-clothing… Apart from taking part in the cruise, I just can't imagine weight-lifting without wearing form-fitting clothes.

Hold that thought. When it comes to torso-days, I definitely prefer loose muscle tanks to make sure my arms and lats don't feel restrained.
I guess I've actually only worn shorts for my bottoms. Huh. Didn't realize.

I never go commando though... I mean... Yes... We're all cruising but.. Idk. Leave some for imagination rather than showing the perfect imprint/outline? xD