Hm… I remember I was single for some time, for 6 years. When I was 20, as I began to be more comfortable with my sexuality (while still keeping it secret, of course), I tried so hard to find that someone, only to have them rejected me, or had no further feelings than just being older brothers. Yes, here, in Indonesia, most gays, if they find that they feel attached to other guys, they may love them but not as lovers, but instead as brothers, which sometimes I couldn't quite comprehend, whether they said that because they did consider me as their brother and have no interest in me as a lover, or they didn't really want to be in a serious relationship, as of yet. Either way, I know how it feels to have a one sided feeling, to love, but not beloved. So after all of those, I moved on and just enjoyed my life and tried to be more productive. It has been working fine for me until he came to my life.
I met my current boyfriend unexpectedly, and it was via facebook. I didn't think about being in a relationship or anything that time. I didn't even start to have feelings for him until I got to know him for more than a year and finally met him directly. Guess maybe the right one indeed often come when we're not trying too hard looking for them after all.
I still do what I like to do though. Life doesn't revolve around love partners. It's kinda odd how many youngsters, both gays and straights alike, seem to be easily getting depressed of they are single, it's like having girlfriends/boyfriends is a must and being single is a disgrace. I've seen how many people refuse to go out on weekends and solely waiting themselves to be asked to go out with someone, if they're bored half to death and really want to go out shopping and others, yet they don't want to ask or invite their friends first. Weird. Or maybe because I'm not limited to be in company and used to hang out on my own. I'm cool going out alone or with others. At least I'm enjoying things that I like rather than self-pitying myself for having no one to ask me to hang out.