You're too right maaaan. About the social media. It is true. It is so easy nowadays.
But fuck… I don't want to block him. I really love the guy and I don't wanna do that. That would be just so bad... I just keep thinking what if something happens and I won't even know. I just can't let myself think about such things.
But I did limited the amount of information. Stopped following him on instagram. He still does. Kept him in Facebook friends but turned off all the posts. So actually I don't see anything he does unless I have a moment of weakness and check it myself. It's all about will. I like looking at him and knowing how he looks now, but yeah I guess I'll stop anonymously stalking that Insta too.
About the pushups ;D yeah it's okay I'm actually working out pretty often haha. Though I've been in and out of the city lately so didn't have time to really settle in with a new cycle. I'm trying guys. If there comes a thought about him or just a picture of them being together I will just cut it and start doing something else. But it still happens. If I don't think about it during a day it's okay I try to restrain myself. But what about unconditional thinking? Dreams? Like I just wake up and he's the first thing I think about? Any tips on how to just drive that away? + Am I that stupid that no matter how much time passes and how he settles in his new life I still hope he'll change one day? Cause everybody is saying same things all over again and I just don't seem to listen. It's like I'm so sure he's the one, the right one on the earth for me that I can't let go. I just don't know what else I can do to convince myself he's not because I believe in it so deeply.