Tell me your very first obsession towards a guy.
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Talk about myself first.
My very first time seeing a man's genitals was back to kindergarden. I was accidentally peeking my uncle and my aunt having some adult's pleasure. I mean pleasure coz it was not actual penetration. My aunt was wearing pyjamas, one hand holding a magazine and another hand holding my uncle's penis. She was reading while playing his cock. I had no idea what was happening but I am pretty much sure that time my eyes were staring at my uncle's long, thick and hard thing in black bushes. Through my whole primary school time, my fantasy was my uncle's willy. There was a time I fancied a boy in my class after I had seen his penis in a school body examination. But nothing could be compared with a mature's one. I tried a few times to peek my uncle showering. But mostly I sniffed his underwears worn and left in the bathroom. I even couldn't help licking it and collected the pubic hairs dropped on it. He used to have a nap in the sofa only wearing sport shorts and I always had the imagination that I could pull down his shorts when he was asleep, play with his penis and maybe put it into my mouth.
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Hm… my first sexual obsession towards a guy was not in lust or sexual terms. It's more like, wanting to get to know him better and maybe forming a close bond afterwards. It was a little bit weird and confusing for me at that time.
It started back in my first year of high school. On my second day at school, among the seniors, a particular 3rd year caught my attention. At first I dismissed it, since I didn't think about anything special. A few days after, I passed him by chance, but he didn't notice me, though I did. He looked pretty cold, serious and seemingly had this permanent unimpressed look on his face. Most of the time I encountered him was by accident. Sometimes he was alone, other times he was with two of his friends. Classmates I think. During a school summer festival at that time, there was a band performing, and there he was, on stage, playing guitar. From that point on, I suddenly felt like, "I have to get to know this guy." And on that same day, I finally got to know his name.
From that point on, now that I think of it, I turned into a more like stalker with a crush. I followed him secretly to find out where his class was and where he liked to hang out during break time. As a result, I met him from then on pretty often, although those meetings were more like simply passing each other. He seemed to recognize me as well, since when we passed each other again, he looked at me, and during one of those meetings, he finally flashed a smile. One of those best flowery moments of high school :cheers:
Some of those time when my teacher failed to show up, my friends and I were just sitting and idly talking to each other when I noticed 3rd year seniors were outside, having a gym class. And I saw him, playing basketball. He looked so fine. After they were done, I felt curious, so I tailed him to the men's bathroom and saw him changing clothes, while his entire body was covered with sweat. Though I had to silently and secretly peek, I managed to get a rather clear glimpse of the look of his body, and he was rather ripped. He looked somewhat skinny in school uniform, but apparently beneath those... Oof...
Fortunately, no one caught me redhanded at that time since it was actually learning hours for all class, except my class as I previously mentioned, and oddly enough, all of his friends, except the girls of course, got changed in his class. But he chose to get changed in men's bathroom. And he was alone...
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I can't really tell which classmate was the first, but I was in seventh grade. Our class had the 4 most popular guys, and my sexual thoughts just gravitated towards fantasies of me with them.
I even tried stealing a shirt of one of the guys, the one who was in the basketball team. He's tall, pearly white skin but chafed. Very European look, but is part Asian. There were rumors of him letting gay guys suck his dick in exchange for money.
(If you're from the Philippines, you're probably familiar with the stereotype, gays doling cash to hot straight guys for sex) -
I can't really tell which classmate was the first, but I was in seventh grade. Our class had the 4 most popular guys, and my sexual thoughts just gravitated towards fantasies of me with them.
I even tried stealing a shirt of one of the guys, the one who was in the basketball team. He's tall, pearly white skin but chafed. Very European look, but is part Asian. There were rumors of him letting gay guys suck his dick in exchange for money.
(If you're from the Philippines, you're probably familiar with the stereotype, gays doling cash to hot straight guys for sex)Really? I heard that teen sex industry is quite common in Philippines!
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I've never heard of that before either! Wow!
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The first huh?
I think I had a crush on my friend from primary school. He's bigger than me, always exuded this aura of masculinity, and frankly quite protective to others because of that. At first, I thought I simply just enjoy being friends with him. But then there was one time when we were assigned to camp at school (boyscout thing in 5th grade, if I'm not mistaken, this was so long ago). I couldn't sleep and I told him, so he hugged me real tight to make me feel safe and warm. That way I was able to get a sleep, even for a quick one. I couldn't understand my emotion back then, but after I got older, I realized that it's the moment where I first felt 'something more' to another guy.
Ironically, we stayed good friends, though not close (he's a loner and a silent guy). We even went to the same junior and high school (but always sit in different classes). I wonder if that's pure coincidence, or because he just wanted to be close to me? I can't really tell, because he's surprisingly never had a girlfriend all those years. Hmmm. Sadly we went our separate ways after graduating high school, and we lost contact ever since. Years later though, when Facebook began to spark, I discovered that we both actually moved to the exact SAME CITY, and spent our separate college days at around the same time and length too. Darn it, if I knew that, I wished we would've stayed in touch all those years. To think that we were only a few minutes away from each other! No wonder I've sworn I've spotted him several times in the shopping mall.
But that's a thing of the past. By the time I found him again on FB, he's already living in another city. He has gotten married around 3-4 years ago. Last I saw (before I closed my account), he's still as charming and nice as when we were children. His wife (who is older and quite ugly, no offense) scored big time with him! LOL. I guess all I can do now is wish him happiness in life. But really, if I were a wee bit braver back then, and understood about my sexuality, I would've openly told him that I liked him. And who knows, perhaps we could end up as a couple by now… ::)
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Ohhh… all those 'perhaps'. I get ya
Didn't have any obsession I guess. Well I have one towards my ex but that doesn't count. Mostly just crushes. The first one though...
I really can't remember. I had some men in my life that were something like role models (grew up without a father) but it wasn't sexual. The first thing I could remember hmmm I had some kind of weird 'naked club' in my head. That's literally what I called it. It was just a place in my head where were important males and there were just standing in the blank space totally naked XDDD Not sure what was the reason. One of them was a guy who is 8 years older and he was an older scout and a friend of my mum and brother too. And guess what.
After 18 years... We actually share house
He's still my brother's best friend. We bought a new house and made it over. After a while we adapted some space to divide another apartment. There were some students at first but after few and few years he moved in with his fiance. They are now married since 2 years and we still live together. We don't see each other that much as we did earlier but well every now and then when I have some free time and their not at work I will come by for coffee and we will talk for hours about our lives. Hah one time he mentioned that when we were young I couldn't walk with my feet cause I was tired or sleeping and he was carrying me on his back all the way haha sounds cute. But yeah that wasn't an obsession. Or even a crush. That was... THE NAKED CLUB XD -
NUDE CLUD!!! It is not an obsession or a crush. It is fantacy, hahahah~
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Really? I heard that teen sex industry is quite common in Philippines!
That's true. Don't know how it became so common. Poverty, probably.
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k 7th grade….the guy sitting next to me printed a picture of pornstar shyla stylez and brought it to school and showed it to me...i got turned on and then he grabbed my cock in class while the teacher was teaching....and btw we were in the 2nd bench not at the back of the class and i grabbed his.....and we would continue to do the same thing everyday without getting caught......eventually we went to the toilet together and idk how but there were like 10 other guys and they figured out we were in there together and they started banging on the door and we had to come out and they all laughed at us and called us fag and gay(im gay hes bi btw) but luckily the news never spread.....then there was the school field trip..a desert safari trip...the main event was the belly dancing in the night and we knew every1 would be busy watching the belly dancer...so we saw that as our opportunity and we went away and sucked each other off and had sex in the night time in the dessert.
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I dont even know if I had one lol
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