Over a year ago, I met my ex who had charmed and love bombed me into his life, where this was the only side HIS FRIENDS have ever seen and still see.
Things were fine the first two months until it didn't go the way he wanted my to be controlled. Since I had been with him he had manipulated me by telling me to get off my medication then cause a fight with me then blame me for not taking my medication, then insist that I take my medication then tell me I'm on TOO MUCH medication. (I have bipolar)
He would get so angry at me if I didn't text him a "Drive home safely" after he left work or didn't greet him first at the gym when we met up after work because I was on a business call, that I knew the fight we were about to have would get physically violent from HIS SIDE. Blaming me for unpredictable things and things that weren't even in my control to point of fighting that he would throw paintings at me, dinning room chairs at me, iced brick 2 litre water bottles from the freezer at me, bricks at me, cutlery at me, crockery at me, setting off my bipolar mood swings to the point where I just wanted to kill myself. They were going to prounce me dead twice on the 5th and 6th time of doing this while I was with him... He used this as "fame" for himself telling ALL HIS FRIENDS and DAUGHTER and EX WIFE that "HE SAVED ME" ....Playing THE HERO. SO it made everyone think I had a problem with my bipolar and that "I'M THE DIFFICULT ONE" to live with. His OWN daughter (who is a useless adult with no ambition or drive in her life to do anything, not even complete her studies or find a job at the age of 23) who lives with his EX wife, blamed me while my EX and I were together that my bipolar is out of control and I need to get heavier medication. Meantime he wasn't telling HIS OWN DAUGHTER, the truth of what he was doing.
He has never shown this psychopathic side to his daughter EVER BEFORE. Only to his Ex's including his EX WIFE, who is in denial or just plainly shit scared of him so she just turns a blind eye to his rage with his EX boyfriends.
He takes weed and on one particular evening when I came home from work, he had eaten 6 very strong weed cookies and taken 10 of my sleeping tablets. By the time I entered my house, it was a wreck and everything was everywhere.
I just come out of hospital from having Delta covid and it gave me epilepsy from it then I was sent to a psychiatric hospital to get me off my mixed episode as I was in one for 5 months because of him. That when I was there he would call me, cause I fight with me and I would go into seizures to points where my psychiatrist had to take my phone away from me for a few days. I was sitting myself because I knew I thought I was ignoring him, mean while it was the Doctor who took it away for my own benefit at the time so she can work on getting me right with my mental health. So my psychiatrist knows he is a psychopath.
That night coming home finding the house in a wreck, I knew I was in for something big and I didn't have the physical strength to fight him back cos I was still weak from the covid I had because it took slot out of my body to fight to live after dying from it and being revived in hospital when I had it, so I was weak and 3 days out of hospital.
Before I carried on into the house, I called my best friend and asked her to come over as I was scared. So while she was on her way (as she had key to my house) I continued to walk on and act like nothing was going on.
When he got hold of me, our room at the time was turned upside down and he was in and out of reality. I tried to calm him down but he started with a fist punch into my gut then I hit the floor (because my Ex is strong and on steroids) and he just started kicking me like a ball. I cracked three ribs and my collar bone. I tried to crawl under the suitcase I hadn't yet unpacked from the hospital as a shield to protect myself but he kept going for me and I kept yelling out to him "WHITE FLAG" as this was the agreement at the hospital infrom of the psychiatrist and psychologist that "he" came up with to end the fight and we talk about it 48 hours later.. but he kept going... I honestly thought I was going to die that night.
Then my best friend walked in filming him physically abusing me and then called out his name and told him that she NOW HAS HIM ON VIDEO as legal evidence of his abuse to me. Suddenly he act to changed and wanted me back and cried, and said how sorry he was and then wouldn't let me leave.. As I said to him "We are DONE, LET ME GO!" It was like switch flipped and he snapped again snd went for me again beating me up. While my friend was filming, but at that point dhe came running in to stop him and pull him off me, where she was being beaten up by him as I was at this point trying to crawl out under the suitcase and my friend just kept screaming at me to run with the suitcase and drive away from here.
I couldn't because I couldn't leave there on her own. So I grabbed his stuff and started throwing it out of my house and on the streets while my friend had him pinned and he was kicking her. I took the video and I filmed the left over weed cookies in the container as they were just crumbs and then I fixed the blister of empty sleeping tablets that he took, while he was slipping in and out of reality. I told him I'm being more than fair by giving you 3 days to leave my house otherwise I'm calling the police and having you arrested.
After I came back with 3 people and my friend the next morning, he begged me to have him back in his life because he couldn't remember ANYTHING THE NIGHT BEFORE. I just told him, "you heard me even I said to you that you've got 3 day including today to get your stuff out of my house and leave otherwise I'm calling the police... since then.. and that was a little over one year ago (and he has a new guy in his life) he has not stopped harassing me, defamating my character, bullying me, sending me threats, death threats, went as low as calling all my previous EX'S and spreading lies about me. Which one of my EX'S sent me ALL HIS voice notes of what he said about me to my other EX. My psychopathic EX doesn't even know I have those as well and there are alot of discrimination and defamation and flash accusations going on on in there too.
But ever since I have been with him my immune system has never come right nor has it picked up. I have been so sick catching covid two times after and dying from it twice and being revived as well as developing heart conditions because of it and now from the last one I have developed Crohn's disease.
Just recently I received a threat and defamation on a whatsapp he sent from another number to my friend, as I had to change my number, accusing me of theft which is completely untrue and I am honestly so weak and sick and I've just come back from the psychiatric hospital because I can't get my mania down and now that message has thrown me into psychosis that I am so shot scared he is going to kill me, because in our relationship we had, he has done it twice before.
And if he sees me like this with the amount of weight that I have lost from being so sick for over a year now (I currently weigh 41kgs) because my body catches just about anything since I have just about no immune system that it will feed him and put a smile on his face knowing he is actually winning by killing me this way. So I don't want to give him that.
My psychiatrist said she believes that with ALL the pathological breakdown and trauma HE DID TO ME while we were going out, that my HE AFFECTED my immune system and it SHUT DOWN.
I have no trust left in the gay community in my country because most of the men I've dated have just been manipulative or Aggressive and now NARCISSISTIC and PSYCHOPATHIC.
. I know I shouldn't be thinking this way, and most of my days with my fiance I don't... I am just so happy that if he goes I'd rather then just end my life as well.
