Little info about me: 24, male and gay (of course).
I've always been an avid enthusiast for porn for a good portion of my life, but I feel like I should finally move on to just experimenting with someone. Though, I've been closeted save for a handful of people I trust, some even loosely. I've never had sex, ever (I really just don't like women), and of course I have no STD's. I just want to know, where do I even begin? I'm such a recluse, Jesus. Never even had a gay friend, just all straight.
Even if I were to begin, how would crossing out the risk of STD's be handled? Do I go for a check-up and show verification that I don't have STD's and show it to someone? I don't want to be too trusting but at the same time I'd love to just play with someone's precum in my mouth. I truly want to avoid STD's, medication costs, the symptoms, etc..
Man, if I were to execute my fantasies, I would want to seek out a bear, a 30-45 y/o with a full beard, white; but I probably can't be that picky, but would adore a bear. I want to experiment with someone "raw," no condom. Even then, I'd like to just edge someone with my mouth, indulge in my foot fetish. No ass play entirely. I'd like to tickle them, get into nipple play, get someone to teach me about how to pleasure someone without it involving my ass. I just don't like anal in either way of top or bottom. Pfft, I don't even know how to make out with someone. I'm a huge basket case. But my main goal would be…just to pleasure myself and them.
Though, I feel a bit bad about my appearance. I'm 5'9''. I tie up my hair in a bun because it's just gotten out of hand, I'm pretty overweight, but people think I'm around 180 when I'm weigh more than that. I'm Filipino-American, wear glasses. I've had people think I look like a hipster or an artist lol. Get mistaken my age a lot, mostly people assuming 18 or very early 20s, but that's only when I don't shave my lame facial hair. I'm not even that big down there, I'm like 4'' when hard, when I don't touch it, but if I stretch it out to the point of discomfort, it's like 5.5''. I hate being so self-conscious...
I live around the Chicagoland area, yet, I'm just...so clueless. I've tried searching online, but I feel like maybe it is too shady.
I just...really would like to experiment with someone, one day.