I've got more porn than you can shake a stick at, but its all more or less the same. Whichever one I open first, even a crap one, will usually do the job.
Out of 500+ themed movies on my hard drives there's admittedly a lot of crap. (I still can't figure out why Kiss Me, Guido was such a popular download.) But the potential for real artistic expression is there.
I just downloaded The Wedding Banquet, a movie I first saw as a closeted teenager in the suburbs of New Jersey. Movies like that or like Jeffrey, real or not, made me feel like there was a whole other world out there. Now I watch them for the same reasons anyone watches a nonporn movie. To be entertained and maybe even a little inspired.
Raphjd, they're not all so gloomy. I mostly prefer the touchy, feely, boy gets boy, happy ending themed movies and there are plenty of those out there.