Posts made by milaeternal

The one actor I canr emember now that I was never fond of is Rafael Alencar.
He seems so phony.

I haven't come out yet. But I've been thinking a lot about that lately (by "lately" i mean the last two years).
Some events in my life are almost pushing me to do, because it's more pressure from my inner conflicts than i've ever experienced before. A part of me wants to avoid to take any decision. The other one urges to take an attitude.

I can't resist to a pair of male feet! I always stare at guy's feet and in the street. And when the guy is wearing shorts, I always check their calfs. I find so hot a nice big male calf!
And a nice pair of round and slightly brown nipples. Ir drives me crazy!

@LEVI:

One I was very protective of that no other guy would approach him lol.

Man, tell me about it! lol
The jealousy crisis still gets me from time to time! Specially in his case, because he is so extrovert, and a very vibrant guy. This inevitably makes the other guys stare at him, as he complained to us twice. lol
He has such a endearing innocence, i guess he doesn't realise that, along with his beautiful figure, his moves gives him some sex appeal.
But the worst time was when he started to date this friend I told about. That devasteted me at the time! But I had to let it go because she is also one of my best friends.

No he doesn't. As no one else.

Since you ask, I'll tell more.
He's younger than me (but that is not the problem). Although he may appear to be homosexual, I'm not sure he really is. He dated a girl from my class, that is also my friend, for a few months. He gets piss off when people presume he's gay just because off his manners. I admit when I first met him, I though he could be gay myself. We became good friends from the beginning, and I've grown very fond of him. He is a very special guy, and very special to me, as I believe I am to him.
Unexpectedly, this intense feeling started to flourish inside me. I was realising that I was liking him more than I should. He was becoming a quite attractive man. It was desire! I was so attracted to him… His face, his lips, his eyes, his hair, ...  Everything about him fascinates me, in addition to the qualities that I mentioned before.
How hard still is to be at his side and not let anyone notice or suspect that I feel this way about him. He is too cute.
I can't resist to lay my eyes on his body, when he walks. Sometimes I can't even look directly in his eyes because I melt inside.
All that seems wrong, and I feel so guilty.

I may fantasise about he being interested in be with me, that he but that is impossible. College is now over, and he is looking for a purpose that is incompatible with the love I feel for him.

Good evening, people!
I'm posting for the first time here.
I'm desperate!
For a few years now, I fell in love with a close friend that I met in College, and I can't continue to keep this feeling bottled inside me!
Unfortunately there aren't any chances for us to have romantic relations.
He is an amazing guy, and we get along very well. But i can't stop thinking about him! He is very devoted to church duties, and he plans to become a priest in the near future!
I can't help it! He is so nice, impetuous, kind, funny, pure hearted. And beautiful - i couldn't let that out!
He is like an angel that charmed me!
I'm doomed! Love made me miserable!