A Strange thing is happening to me!
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A strange thing is happening to me!
I am a mature early sixties gay man, I have been living an out gay life since my late teens living in three full-on gay relationships over my life. My current partner and I have lived together in a fully all embracing out gay relationship for over twenty eight years and still enjoy good sex together.
About two years back I retired from work, although my partner is still working full time, so I have a lot of free time at home while he is at work. With all this time I have become totally immersed in the internet, reading and watching the world news stories and researching various subjects of interest. Included in these subjects, like so many others are gay porn sites. I am a member of many gay groups (not all porn) and several gay torrents sites including this one. Like most members I have tried to play my part as a member and downloaded, uploadeded and seeded countless movies or clips that have caught my attention or imagination. I now have quite a collection that I have watched avidly getting turned on big time by seeing lots of hot gay fuck action. I have been doing this over many years as I have always enjoyed gay porn and even used to buy VHS tapes sent from Amsterdam when it was still illegal in UK to buy porn. (That dates me!)
However just recently something strange is happening to me! In no way would I consider myself to be sexually straight having spent all my adult life enjoying gay sex, but I have come across a porn streaming site that has a full collection of all categories of sexual interest including Gay. I originally started using it to look for gay clips that I may not have seen on the main sites as many of the clips are private amateur that are posted up. The thing is more and more I have started to watch the straight clips and in particular the interracial clips with extra large black guys fucking white girls and what’s even more concerning is they are turning me on big time, and now I am even getting off on watching them as before I was just curious, so they starting to become a real habit.
Naturally my partner knows nothing of my strange addiction and I don’t think he would be very impressed if he found out. My question is does anybody else have these “off the wall” tendency or is just some sort of strange identity crisis I am going through?
Comments welcome.
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:panic: If you have a problem then so do I :lolp: I have the same attraction to some Str8t Porn and Black Men on White Women is a favorite for me as well. I never download any of it but will watch it given the chance. Sometimes I even create a "chance" by navigating to the Str8t Porn section of such sites as you speak of. My interest is only about the dick on the man involved and usually the woman is secondary. I do not think you have a problem at all :bighug:
It is not likely that you have an identity crisis at this time in your life. After 28 years with your Life Partner can you honestly say you are thinking of leaving him for a Woman? I seriously doubt it.
We all have secret pervs and yours is no different than others that people have. Just my opinion :ok2:
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And I am the opposite of the posters above.
My secret pervs are watching hot white men fucking black girls/older women as well as hot white men fucking very fat, very old and very old grandmas. I pay more attention to the hot men of course. :cheesy2:Hot girls porn are just boring and I will never watch very fat, very old, very ugly grandpas fucking beautiful women. :blind:
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Thanks for both the comments above, its reassuring to know that my attraction to straight porn is not that uncommon, I had begun to think my fantasy were a bit strange for a gay man, but as you say leatherbear the real attraction is the black guys dicks and how they use them is such a sexually erotic and dominant way as well as the size thing. That is what I find a real turn on, not the woman themselves, although I have to add that some women can be very attractive in their own right, I think there is a little bisexual mentality in all of us!
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Hmm analyze it …what makes it attracting besides the men, is it the dirty talk, the dominating submissive complex... what is really compelling you in this scenes, I'm a sucker for scenario, history period and vintage in general.
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Sexuality will never fit into only one category or dimension. It is wholly dependent on what causes sexual arousal. It may involve person-based characteristics, such as gender, age, race, and body type. Or perhaps involves different sexual acts or objects, such as S&M, foot fetishes, fisting and dildos. We typically self-identify our sexuality based on gender attraction - gay, bisexual and straight - but even on just that dimension alone, there is so much overlap that it actually is an artificial distinction based only on generalities. There are at least several hundred, if not thousands, of various combinations of different sexual characteristics. Each person identifies and discovers them when there are exposured to a new experience. Everyone for some known or unknown reason has special attractions, which we typically label as fetishes, but even that doesn't encompass the full dimension of sexuality.
As for myself, I fully identify as gay and have no interest in straight/bisexual films, EXCEPT for large endowed men engaging in anal sex with smaller woman. Similar to your interest. Sure, it's a "straight" porn if you want to define it according to gender, but that has absolutely nothing to do with my sexual attraction to that type of film. My interest is fixated on the large cock going into a small, very pliable body part that has a different texture compared to a man.
You are attracted to whomever and whatever you're attracted to and don't need to try to define it into a little box. It's just a sexual characteristic that appeals to your individual sexual interests. Sounds very normal to me. You've tried something different and found out that lo and behold it turns you on. Congratulations on finding it, do not shame yourself for it. Instead explore and enjoy!
If we could only get straights to better understand the fluidity of sexuality and stop trying to classify it, we'd all be better off.
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I am into straight porn too, always have been. I'm as gay as gay can be, though.
I would say unless you start jacking off to lesbian flicks or women pleasuring themselves, it's quite clear you are still very much into guys.
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I think that's what we called for fetish…
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Dont fret, your not turning straight.
Its just something different that has sparked your spark.
Alot of straight porn has huge dicks that are hard as rocks and the guys are really into it.
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I can easily aroused by straight porns.
because there is always a guy with handsome dick inside… :cheesy2: -
you should go to a doctor
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I actually like straight porn… I get off on watching I guy what most guys do.
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I think this kind of sexual evolution as we age is a lot more common (maybe normal, for people that fully explore their sexuality and allow themselves the harmless, daily joy of cumming, haha) than you may think.
I'm in my early 30s now, but when I was just barely getting on the Internet at 17-18, the only thing that would turn me on were super fit, tanned bronze, flawless, gorgeous model-types. I would seek out porn and I'd basically be stuck with Bel Ami (incredibly hot to the younger version of myself), or Vivid entertainment or something. Oh, and um … I've been jerking off to both gay and straight porn for as long as I've been watching porn, so don't feel weird about it.
What kind of imagery can get my motor running has changed since then, though. I totally get it. I never used to like scrawny little feminine twinks, but Staxus and Helix make some of my favorite scenes now. Probably my favorite type. Also, I used to be really really confused by "tranny" porn, allegedly made for straight guys, but I've since watched a few things along those lines and been really turned on. I always understood wanting to fuck a pussy, or a guy's ass, but for some reason a woman with both tits and a dick just seemed like "someone else's thing" for me, and then all of a sudden ... it was different.
I dig the BBC (big black cock) interracial things too, a monster of a black cock penetrating a petite white partner (male or female). The imagery is intense, of course it's hot! There's a few scenes from Staxus that are gay but inspired by interracial white porn you should check out, if you're finding yourself like this. Also, look up the performer "Goldie" for the straight videos.
