it will become easier once you live on your own and are able to be yourself. you can live your life without having to worry about the support you still need

my mom treating my ex like he was a piece of shit. hated her for that

i crushed over my exes brother, he was hella cute though haha

we need more details about him to answer this question

Friends of course, extended family then and finally, your parents, they will be the last ones to know and the most difficult ones to accept they might be both sad and disappointed (even angry) about the news, they can even argue whe "chose" this when deep inside they know that wasn't the case leading to yeeeeeeeeeaaaarrsss of therapy to cope with that moments, I have an ex that after he told their parents the subject was erased, that never happened and his mother keep suggesting him to get a girlfriend and settle for once, she bluntly ignored what happened and decided to pretend it has never ocurred. So yes, friends, also, a note, they only one who was a bit upset about the news turned up to be gay too 3 years later so careful with that, it's not only our process, it could be other's as well.

I think he knew you are gay

You need to control your feeling for him, otherwise your friendship with him will be a total mess.

I try to ignore my father who is an ass but he does acts like he asks for it!

I am in the same situation!
It is really hurt!
I am trying my best to forget him now! It will take time, but I have to move on!

Glady no.My friends aree so supportive  :love:

It's great that your mom is cool with gayness.
But just tell her there are some boundaries. She should understand.

My parents found my porn stash when I was a kid.
As the rest of the world goes, I never had a coming out moment. Just started hiding it less and less as I became more comfortable with my sexuality. Until i reached a state of I don't give a fuck.

Interest or Desire?

Just because some one is smoking hot, and constantly putting it on display, doesn't mean they are someone you would want.  I spent time in the military, lived with a bunch of guys, shower, eat, sleep, and work.  There was one that I am told was the "most gorgeous man on earth" by more than one person.  He has the personality of a brick, and was about as bright.

Would I watch a video of him getting down with another guy, Yes.  Would I want to be the guy, NO.

For the original poster, I am guessing that none of these guys see you as anything more than a friend, and more likely just another team player, and that is the reason you show interest, but not desire.

Go for it!