@Ozboi Yeah that's exactly what i do, i PANIC :crazy2: all the time, even when I'm hanging out with my friends and the topic goes to 'what would you do if you were gay?' or any related gay thing, i just snap and avoid the topic altogether. I'm just starting to feel a bit comfortable, but I'm so confused all the time.
@NickGWM So i took the test and the result is "F : The test failed to match you to a Kinsey Type profile. Either you answered some questions wrong, or you are a very unusual person." ??? I checked and there's no blank option. And I'm afraid of coming out while I'm still near them so i just act when I'm with them, well I'm 100% sure my brother is Bi (sometimes i 'borrow his porn' when he's not around) but he's not out. Though my family is a bit indifferent around gays, but when they see them they treat them like a clown or just someone to laugh about (sometime they say 'yuck' or 'ew'), just like a weird animal if you will (but gays around here doesn't care about that, in fact they like the attention). So I'm thinking of coming out when I'm away from them.
@Olitommy Well when i first realized i like men I'm 12-13, and i tried to change myself to only liking women, as you can see it didn't work, and i don't know when i started to accept it. I find women attractive but two girls going at it doesn't do it for me, maybe i can just appreciate their beauty? Thanks for the info about the virginity thing, around here most people lose their virginity early (even gay ones). And I'm a romantic (I think) so the virginity thing only bothers me a bit, I don't know if it's a lost thing or not but i haven't met people who are romanticist (only read it from websites).
Anyway Thanks for the Replies and the Info, this is actually the first time i talked about my sexuality so it's kind of awkward, and i typed this for an hour LOL, again thanks for the posts. ;D