First thing first: You are going to the gym to do your routine. Don't give much importance to how other people look at you (unless you are doing an exercise wrong) Also, focus on yourself, and keep away the pervy thoughts. You'll get used to naked and seminaked men and then there will be no 'hard on emergencies'.
I'd say, go to the damn gym, get a trainer to explain you the basics and possibly some dietary advice (bodybuilding depends on BOTH exercise and diet), once you get some knowledge you can try exercising on your own at home when you can't go to the gym.
Last advice, did you thought those muscled, delicious men were born that way? NO! At some point in time they were fat/skinny kids. So don't give a damn if someone calls you a nerd….. :hug2:
.....BECOME A HOT NERD!......
I agree! If you stay home you won't have proper equipment to workout plus you need someone like a trainer to explain you the basics of the movements and how to prevent injuries.