Hi All,

So bit of background, I didn't come out to any friends or family until I was 29.  When i did it was just close friends and my sister and no one else for a while.  I just recently came out to my parents aged 35 which is late I know and is something i've been giving a lot of thought to since.  Although i'm now out to most of the people I want to know, I don't feel like i'm really out if that makes sense.  I don't really have any gay friends and i've never had a boyfriend so I feel like i'm still holding back really.

I've never really felt like i've belonged in the gay community, i've tried to see if theres some social groups or similar near me I could attend away from the bars and clubs but i've never gone ahead with any of it.  I was wondering if theres anyone else who has been in similar position really and if they've moved on from that stage in their lives and how they did it.  I'm tired of not being open anymore but being in the closet for so long has it's lasting impact and makes it difficult

Thanks for reading anyway.

Chris