Weight is mostly determined by diet and outside factors such as stress, anxiety, etc. Not weight-training. I would suggest changing your diet and remove any stressers in your life that contribute to your overall happiness. It could be certain people, circumstances, etc. Also, when you change your diet, you'll begin to feel better naturally and have more energy. With the new found energy, you'll probably want to do more or become more active - this is a good thing. Use that energy to get involved with activities or projects that inspire you, rather than engaging in something that will discourage you or make you feel stressed out. I tried going back to the gym, and had no motivation to return. And then I started feeling bad about not returning, that it became "something I had to get done." When going to the gym turns into something else I put on my plate to accomplish, it stressed me out more and more. Stick to what YOU can do, that's easy for you. Instead of trying to go to the gym, I started with changing certain foods from my routine. I stopped drinking sugary, colored drinks and sodas. I'm now only drinking water or Ginger Ale, or coffee. I'm to the point where "Sprite" turns my stomach and I haven't had an orange or red or purple soda or fountain drink in over 15 years. I also increased my veggie intake. I love Kale and Spinach and Cauliflower mostly. I only do broccoli when I need to flush my system, otherwise too much of it isn't good for me. I also love beans and rice, mostly brown rice. I still put a lot of shredded cheese and dressing on salads though. lol. I used to love fried chicken, but the grease turns my stomach now, so I do baked or grilled chicken now. Still love fish though!
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