I don't know how things are in Turkey - but I can tell you from my experience in America, Germany and Switzerland that if you are looking for sex outside of a relationship in frisky places like Craigslist, Gay bars, bathhouses, Gay Cruises etc….you will find the gay community EXTREMELY shallow - lot of emphasis on abs, big dick, bubble butt, drop dead gorgeous looks, tanned skin etc. etc. Gay Porn further accentuates that stereotype and can make a person have low self esteem. But if you are looking for a long term relationship with 1 guy - it is possible to find one...regardless of your body type and how you look.
You seem like a really nice guy. Keep an open mind and look in the right places - don't know what they are in Turkey. But hang in there - you will find your Mr. Right soon.