drugs + gay porn combo addiction
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does anyone else here have the habit of getting high on stimulant drugs like meth or cathinones and end up watching porn for tens of hours or days even?
I'm not addicted to any drugs on their own and I don't watch porn when I'm sober, but for some reason am having a hard time kicking the combo of the two. anyone went through this habit, successfully kicked, it and have any advice?
I've said I was gonna quit this habit so many times, and I do seemingly make progess but its always 1 step forwards 2 steps back.
I can't even go to chemsex parties anymore cus I know I'm just gonna end up watching porn in the corner even if the men at the party are begging for my attention. (yeah im quite cute, but its a total waste now that i have no real sexual desire anymore for real life encounters, when compared to the insane dopamine rush of watching porn on dopaminergic drugs that calls to me like im a dog on a leash.
any helpful advice, anecdotes, scientific facts would be appreciated!
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