Life is exhausting sometimes ngl
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I know "I still have a long way to go in life" and all but dealing with ADHD and being closetted is tiring tbh. Even college is overwhelming now. I just wanna live by my own and make music for myself. That's all i want tbh: More personal space and freedom to do anything. Yes i do still have freedom now but i'm still surrounded by responsibilities and it's beginning to bea little too much. This might not be that much at all for other people but to me? no
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Hope everyone else is doing well anyways. I'm just venting a bit to get this off my chest. Don't give up on your journey tho. Sometimes screaming it out can do wonders for your psyche. Again do NOT give up what you're doing. Wish yall the best.
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@wholelottagp-0 said in Life is exhausting sometimes ngl:
do NOT give up what you're doing. Wish yall the best.
And back at you, dear brother. It does get better--and "screaming it out" is a healthy response.
You mentioned being in college: Perhaps you can find peers or a counseling resource that can help you along the way. Private messages to other members here can also be helpful.
Hang in there, buddy, and let us know how things are going. We care.
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@wholelottagp-0 knowing you "still have a long way to go in life" is precisely the burden for most people when they're in such an unfavorable situation and have been there long enough to see anything better in sight.
To be fair, there isn't much to say, it's in our nature to overcome it. Either by actively trying to get out or just getting used to it.
That's about it to be honest, you either try or you'll just get used to it eventually.
The thing with being closetted is that there are many reasons for one to go that way. For some people it's just fear, for some it's knowing that they have more to lose than otherwise, for some it's just internalized homophobia, etc.
If that very subject keeps getting in the way and preventing you from living the life you dream of, you certainly have more to lose by just trying to get used to it, that's from personal experience, as most people here will probably agree I guess.
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As of my own "getting out" backstory, I started professing my gayness first to unknown people, acquaintances so to speak. With the prospect of having a group of people with whom I was free to be myself.
Then I started opening up about it with close friends, and family was last as their opinions were the ones that mattered the least, because I'm wasn't (still am) not willing get closer to them.
But that's my tip, if you can't be gay to everyone at least have a couple of friends with whom you can, and I don't mean forum friends, for as awesome as some people here are, but people from your college, your own town, etc.