I work with a straight married guy. We see each other often (work together) and text/phone daily. He knows I'm gay. We talk about sex a huge majority of the time, both straight and gay sex. We've shared tips about anal sex toys (he enjoys it). We've never directly talked about playing with each other but it's gotten pretty darn close. His wife works at the same place we do and I'd consider her a friend. It's a very difficult place to be in considering I've allowed myself to develop strong sexual and emotional feelings for this man. I go stints where I bring myself to orgams 3 or 4 times daily thinking about the most simple interactions with him. There are moments when I feel I know without a doubt he wants me and there are moments when I feel he just sees me as another "bro" to shoot the shit with and nothing more. At this point I feel there's no hope for him to reciprocate and the only rational thing to do is find a new job and put this mess behind me for my own sanity.
-jp
