Don't feel bad. I love to give blowjobs but I don't like receiving or being touched at all for that matter( Never bottomed and probably never will.) Some guys were more than fine with this, but still surprised that I didn't expect something back in return. One guy was really insistent to blow me and I finally gave in aaaaaand couldn't get it up. When I was blowing/rimming him, I was hard as a rock. The minute he touched me, I recoiled. So again, don't feel bad I'm MUCH weirder than you are.