I have all kinds of fantasies and kinks. It's anal that I never really got myself into. I never liked being fucked nor do I find putting my dick in a hole erotic. Don't take me wrong, I love watching porn just as much as you do. I love watching guys who can do it and do it well. It's amazing to see hunks drenching in sweat and fuck. I just wish I could. I could cuddle and kiss, JO and edge, give the best rim job in the world, I could suck your toes, worship your body and armpits, I would even do water spots, all depends. But it's always anal, penetration anal that I am not into. I even enjoy watching fisting videos! It's just when it boils down to me, I am overly conscious about everything, therefore it's never that enjoyable to me.
OMG I FEEL THE SAME WAY. I feel so conscious when I'm with someone else, it's almost fake. For me it's like they are trying so hard, and the faces are so weird. I always get myself overthinking than enjoying sex.