There are few thing to be considered due to our reality:
- Gay ppl are less than str8 ones
- Gay ppl interested in long terms relationships are a minority this days
- We are not attracted to every gay men
- Due to your interest, gay men over 50 interested in a boy for a long term relation… even alot more difficult.
So.. i'm just dont wanna bother you, but don't push a lot to found YOUR men, just try to be happy, know ppl, who knows ppl, and who knows maybe it will appear from somewhere. I think that love can be found but not search, life will it bring it to you exactly when you are ready. This is my experience.
But when you found you will fight for it, remember the difficulty and accept that you probably will have to change some things about your life if it worth.
I had a long term relationship since my 20, 14 years of relation with one, and now 3 years with my current partner. And in order to follow my true love i had to change my hole life, to move on to another city, to left my family, etc.
And be patient with your men taste, it will probably change in the future once you get more experience.
Excuse my spelling, i'm from Argentine.