Before lockdown I was at my gym getting changed to leave. One of the staff members came in and announced to everyone in the locker room that someone had to come in to cut a lock off from a locker, and it was a woman so they needed to make sure everyone was prepared. He explained to everyone but new people kept coming in so he had to put a sign out to block  the entrance. Then he asked everyone in the locker room to move around the corner where the bathrooms and showers are until she was done. (This was a little over dramatic I thought, it was just a woman not a dangerous monster but whatever lol) A bunch of us crammed in together down the hallway by the showers in whatever we had on at the moment, some fully dressed, some half-dressed with their pants and belt open. The other guys were talking about it together, or getting drinks out of their bags and stuff. We were next to the shower room and drying area, normally I would just rinse off or walk past quickly but having no choice but to stand here in a group I could check everybody out but was still kind of paranoid if guys would see me taking a good look. One of the guys by us motioned and yelled for a guy in the showers and he walked over to see what was happening. Some other guys toweled off while we waited too. It was an awesome excuse for total strangers to start talking to each other in the locker room. I watched the hot ones as much as I could until we got the signal that we could go back out again. Left the gym with a huge hardon and jerked off as soon as I got home.

Lately I've really been wanting to try bottoming but I'm getting very frustrated. I'm not a very big (height/weight/proportions) guy, and I always somehow manage to hookup with guys who turn out to have very thick cocks. They can't fit for me to bottom like at all, because of sheer physics. I tried getting poppers and a plug to try and get used to it and be looser, but so far it isn't helping and I feel like I'm either just a failure at sex or doing something wrong. I just don't get how guys do it. Can anyone offer advice?

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