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[chilen]

Hello all.

I've been using this site since about October but just found the forums now.

About me.

I'm a 44 year old, 6'3", 300lbs construction worker (Drywall and accoustics Carpenter - Local 494) in Windsor Ontario Canada.

I hope nobody gets offended by this but I don't think I'm your typical gay guy. Although I absolutely love having sex with men and have been sucking cock since the age of 8 and getting fucked since the age of 12,and I fucking love having sex with me; I've never been attracted to them in the least bit. That's to say I've never looked at another man and thought to myself…."That's a good looking guy." I have no attraction to men what so ever, but at the same time there is not a guy who is reading this who I would not absolutely love to suck off. I FUCKING LOVE having cocks inside of me!!!!

So officially I don't know if that makes me gay, straight or bisexual but I don't really care for labels anyway.

My Sexual History.....

I started sucking dick at a very early age, probably very close to 8 years old, but don't exactly know why I started doing it. I don't think I had seen any porn movies or magazines at that age yet, and I didn't have a computer so there was no internet of BBS's even. But me and my friends had this little club where  we would where we would show each others our cocks and when we would have sleep overs we would do stripteases for each other. One day we were in my basement and decided to show each other our cocks and completely out of the blue I asked them if I could put their cocks in my mouth. So I sucked each of them off for about 30 seconds each doing nothing more than holding their entire cock in my mouth but right from that moment a cocksucker was born. I fucking loved the feel of their cockcs between my lips and started sucking them off regularly.
It was a couple years later that I had another friend that whenever the two of us would be alone he would tackle me to the ground and try and kiss me. I pushed him away time and time again but one time I didn't just to see if he would actually do it. Sure enough he pressed his lips against mine for about 3 seconds and then pulled away and acted all mad that I did not push him away. Within seconds he did it again and again I did not push him away and we kissed again but this time for a much longer time. After that we just started making out with each other.  We spent almost half an hour kissing and it started to make us both really horny because we started running our hands over each others body and eventually we grabbed each others cock through our pants. This lead to my friend suggesting that we show each other our cocks and I was all for it. So that's exactly what we did and saw each others naked cock for the very first time. We went right to fondling each other while we went back to kissing and then about 10 minutes later my friend suggested that if I would suck his cock, he was suck mine. I had been wanting to suck his cock since the moment his lips first pressed against mine, but being kind of a shy kid I had followed his lead. I eagerly agreed to suck his dick so we stripped down completely naked and climbed into his bed. I slid down his body and quickly took his cock in my mouth and started blowing him. Right away he was a little surprise that I would actually suck his dick and stated "Wow, you really did suck off Danny and Joey" (The were the friends I had been sucking off for a couple of years now but I had thought it had been our secret. I guess not.
Well I sucked my friends dick for close to 5 minutes. I wanted to keep sucking him for as long as he'd let me but I wanted him to suck my cock so that he could not go around telling everyone I was a cocksucker. He was very hesitant about returning the favour but after convincing him that he only had to suck me for 10 seconds and I would go back to sucking his dick, he finally agreed and took my cock into my mouth. He sucked me off for a minute or so than I eagerly went back to sucking him.
My other friends that I had been blowing had sort of grown apart. We were still friends and talked to each other regularly but they started hanging around with other friends that i did not really care for, so this boy was the only one I had to suck off. That was ok with me though because he was just as horny as I was, and that was all the fucking time....literally. We started sucking each other off 2 or 3 times a day, any time and any where. We were constantly sleeping over each others house and sucking each other off all night long. He did not suck me nearly as much as I sucked him but I did not have any problem with that at all.
For the next couple of years all we did was suck each others cock but as we started to get older (12 years old), we would start licking each others ass when we would be in a 69 position. He was actually the first to lick my ass and it felt wonderful I did not really like the idea of doing it to him but I felt I needed to return the favour and we had just gotten out of his pool so I knew that he was clean so I slid my face in front of the crack of his ass and pressed my tongue against his ass hole. It took me a while to finally get my tongue to penetrate him but it felt fucking amazing tongue fucking each other. Both giving and receiving. After that ass play became very regular and we started finger fucking each other on a regular basis while we would suck each other off. The more my friend fucked my ass with his tongue and finger the more I craved it. I played drums at the time so when I would be at home in my room masterbating at night I started fucking myself with one of my drumsticks and that's when I got the idea of letting my stick his cock inside me and let him fuck me.
The next time I slept at his house we were lying on his bed in the dark waiting for his parents to go to sleep so that we could start having sex. We were both already naked so I slid over right beside him turned on my side and started my ass into against him. He rolled on his side and pressed his body up against mine and I felt his cock hardening against my ass. He reached around in front of me and played with my cock as he began grinding his cock into my ass and worked it between my ass cheeks. I reached behind me and and pulled on my ass cheek, spreading my ass open and inviting my friend to stick his cock inside me for the first time. The only lube we had the precum that was oozing out of my friends dick. He pressed his hard cock directly onto my ass hole and thrust himself into me over and over again but my ass was too tight and remained clamped shut. My friend reached down and started finger fucking me. He had no problem sliding one and then a second finger into me. He fucked me like that a little bit and then even managed to get a third finger into me as well.  It felt so fucking good, I was disappointed when he pulled them out of me a couple minutes later. He pressed his cock back up against my hole and after a little bit of effort I began to spread open. I had just started to feel the tip of his cock enter me for the first time when suddenly the entire head of his cock plopped inside me almost instantly. I had never felt so much pain in my entire life. I would have actually screamed if the air had not of been sucked right out of my lungs from the pain. I pulled myself off of my friends cock but I don't think he realized how much pain I was in and tried to re-enter me. I had put my hand in front of my ass to keep him from trying to fuck me and that's when he realized I was hurting. I seriously thought that he had ripped me open and thought for sure I had to be bleeding all over the bed. I felt around with my hand for any signs of blood and was relieved when I did not feel any. Not finding any blood actually began to relax me a little bit and the pain actually started to go away. It was finally about 5 minutes after the head of my friends penis had enter me that the pain was gone. It's kind of weird but my first thought after the pain went away was about how empty my ass felt now. Even though I had been in excruciating pain just seconds ago, I thought to myself that I had actually like the feel of his cock inside of me. I wasn't quiet ready to get fucked again though so me and my friend started fondling each other and took turns sucking each other off. I would suck his dick for a couple minutes and then he would suck mine and in between there was alot of fondling and making out with each other. My friend loved to kiss. Well after a couple of turns I had just sucked my friend off for a bit so I crawled up onto my friend sliding my naked body up along his as I went and we started making out again.My hard naked cock was rubbing directly against his and if fucking felt amazing. WE made out in this position for a very long time and my friend started running his hands all over my back. He slid them down to my ass cheeks and pulled me against him. His fingers slipped into the crack of my ass and found my hole and he stuck a finger into me. My ass had recovered because his finger felt amazing and I started grinding onto it. The more he finger fucked me the better it felt and I decided I wanted to let him try and fuck me again.
I raised up off of my friend so that I was stradeling his hard cock. I reached down and grabbed it in to my hand and held it so it was pointing straight up in the air. I positioned my ass directly over the head of his cock and began to lower myself onto it. My ass remained tightly shut as his penis pushed directly onto my hole. I pushed down on his cock with more weight and felt my ass being to spread open. Just like the first time, the head of my friends penis POPPED inside of me. I clenched up every muscle in my body expecting the worst but there was no pain at all this time. I could not believe it. I held steady for a couple of seconds just to be sure and when I was ready i started pushing down onto his cock at a very slow pace, just waiting for incredible pain to shoot through my body. But the pain never came. Just this incredible pleasure of being stuffed full of cock as more and more of his hard shaft entered me. Our cocks were not very big back then so it did not take long before I had my friends entire cock inside of me and I felt like I had accomplished something incredible. I had just lost my anal virginity and I felt so proud. I collapsed onto my friend and we started making out once again and as soon as my lips pressed against his, he started fucking me for the first time. My ass was so tight it did not take long for my friend to shoot his cum up inside of me. It felt so fucking good feeling my friends warm cum spraying against my insides. I quickly reached down and grabbed my cock and jacked off until I shot my load all over my friends chest and belly then collapsed down on him and we made out once again smearing my cum between our naked bodies.
For the next 4 years I would let this friend fuck my ass and mouth any time he wanted to even as we both got girlfriends.
My friend moved away when we were 16 but I we would still have sex when I would go to spend a weekend with him or he would come visit me but other than that I did not really have anyone else to have gay sex with. I had sex with other guys between the ages of 12 and 18 but there was nothing regular with any one guy except for a kid on my baseball team over the course of a summer when I was 13 or 14.
As I got older, 18 to 20, I started learning about bathhouses and cruising spots that gay guys would go to from Computer BBS systems that I would go on in my spare time. The thought of horny guys going to these locations just to have sex with other horny guys turned me on immensely and I started fantasizing about going to these places more and more. I was about 21 years old  when I learned for the first time that there was an actual bathhouse in my city. I immediately looked it up in the phone book and found out where it was located.  My curiosity about the place grew stronger and stronger and I knew that I had to go to it because the though of having sex with a bunch of complete stangers turned me on so fucking much for some reason. I found myself driving by the bathhouse late at night time and time again but could not get the courage to actually stop and go inside. As more time passed I got bolder and would even park in the parking lot and jack off while trying to look through the lit up windows in hope of seeing some naked men.  It was on about my my 12th visit there that I was sitting in my car and a light came on in one of the rooms on the ground floor not far from where I was. The curtains on the window were not wide open but open enough that I could see a man enter the room followed by another man and they both were only wearing towels around their waists. My hand went straight for my cock and I quickly fished it out of my pants. The men shut the door to the room behind them but left the light on and they turned towards each other and started making out. From where I was sitting and where the men were now standing I could only see the upper halves of their bodies but I watched in awe of them making out with each other and it turned me on so fucking much. One guy then dropped down in front of the other and although it was out of my view, it was obvious that he was sucking the other guys cock. I sat there jacking off for about a minute as I watched but I NEEDED to see more and knew that if I got out of the car and looked through the window I could actually watch the blow job so that's what I did. I will never forget that first time that I ever watched 2 men having sex together as I crept up to the window and peeped inside. I clearly watched that beautiful cock sliding in and out of that other man's mouth. I only watched the action for about 30 seconds before I became so incredibly horny that I could not stop myself from going into the bathhouse for the very first time and experiencing these things for myself. I did not want to let this courage go to waste so I peeled myself away from that window and started walking around to the front of the bathhouse. The closer I got to the front door the more nervous I became  and I was actually shaking as I reached for the door and opened it. To my surprise there was a second door that was locked. I was about to turn around and run out of the place  but a guy saw me through a small window to my side and buzzed me in. My knees were knocking together as I entered that second door and stepped up to the counter. The first thing that I noticed in the place were 3 older men playing cards in the lobby. They were all naked except for a towel wrapped around them. The guy behind the counter stepped up and the first words out of his mouth were "First time here?" It was obvious because I was so fucking nervous. My throat was dry and it was hard to answer him. He then asked me if I wanted a room or a locker so choose a room. After taking my money the guy handed me some towels and my room keys and to my surprise actually placed a couple of condoms right on top of pile as he handed them to me. The man was real nice and took his time to explain to me where my room and everything else was located like the porno room, the showers and the sauna and then told me to relax and to have fun as there was no pressure to do anything I did not want to do.
I turned and started walking through the lobby, making my way to my room. I had to walk right past the lockers as I went and there was an old man in his 50's standing at them and we made eye contact as I passed. I climbed the stairs to the second floor and quickly found my room. My room was right near the stairs so I did not really get to look in any of the other rooms. I entered my room and quickly shut the door right behind me and turned on the light. Inside the room was only a little table and small bed but the thing that caught my attention was the walls. They were covered with writing by people leaving their phone numbers and looking for sex.I was even surprised to see some writings left by married men who were looking for other guys to have sex with him and his wife. Reading all those writings really got me horny and I started to lose my nervousness. I striped off my clothes and stood there playing with my cock as I read all the things on the wall. It was when I heard someone walking down the hall past my room that I remembered why I had come there in the first place, and now that I had actually gathered the nerve to get inside the place, there was no way I was turning back now. I remembered some of the things I read about bathhouses and how some guys just lay on their bed with the door open so that's what I decided to do.
I was already completely naked so I shut off the light in my room and opened the door to my room just a couple of inches. I did not have the nerve to open it all of the way yet. I quickly jumped onto my bed and laid there shaking as I waited in anticipation of someone to come walking by. I laid my towel over me hiding my cock but I was still playing with my penis underneath it.  Literally within 2 minutes of opening my door and getting into bed someone came walking down the hall and stopped at my door and peaked in. It wasn't until he pushed the door open and stepped inside my room that it was the man who had been standing by the lockers as I entered.
The man stepped into my room, turned on the light and closed the door behind him before walking over to me and standing directly beside the bed I was in. Not a word was spoken between us. I was so fucking nervous that I doubt I could have talked to him anyways. The man reached down and slid my towel off of my cock,then wrapped his hand around my penis and started stroking me. I could not believe I was actually doing this. This whole fucking experience so far had me so incredibly aroused that I did not even really have control of myself any more. It actually felt like I was standing in the corner watching myself as I reached under the man's towel and grabbed his cock for the first time. Touching another person's cock had never felt as good it did right then. The man undid his towel and it dropped to the floor around his feet and I saw his beautiful cock for the first time. The second I saw it my mouth began to water and I needed to feel it entering my mouth. I propped myself up on one elbow and turned towards the man and brought my face towards his penis. I closed my eyes and opened my mouth and took this complete strangers penis into my mouth and eagerly started blowing him.
Right away the man let go of my cock and climbed onto the bed with me, his cock never leaving my mouth. He stadled my chest with his knees on his shoulders as he fed me his cock over and over again. I sucked that man like the whore I was becoming and almost felt like cumming just from having this man's penis sliding in and out of my mouth. It actually felt like a huge weight was being lifted off my shoulders from fantasizing about this bathhouse for the past couple of years and visiting it so many times with out being able to gather the courage to actually go inside. But this time I did to inside and now here I was with a man that I had never even seen before, sliding his cock in and out of my mouth as I sucked and slobbered on it for all I was worth. As he got closer to orgasm I pulled my mouth off of his cock just to tell him not to cum in my mouth before going right back to work on his cock. The man just grunted in agreement. Sucking this man's cock got me so incredibly aroused that I could not help but reach down and jack off as I blew him. He started moaning louder and louder and his breathing became heavier. I knew he was close to coming but did not stop knowing that he would pull out of my mouth when he was ready to cum. He did not pull out and cum started shooting into my mouth. I felt so totally betrayed and like a dirty fucking whore as I felt this old man's cum splashing across my tongue. But to my surprise. I actually liked these feelings. I could have easily pulled my moth off of his man's cock but I didn't. Instead I started sucking the cum right of of his dick. I let some of the cum drool out of the corners of my mouth and slide down my chin and collect on my chest but not all of it. The rest of the cum that was collecting in my mouth, I began to swallow. I did not like the taste of cum at all but swallowing it made me feel dirtier and more like a whore so I did it. And LOVED IT!
I was still eagerly sucking this man off as he finally started going soft. He pulled his cock out of my mouth as he climbed off of me. He grabbed his towel off of the floor and managed to thank me as he walked out of my room leaving the light on and the door wide open, and me laying there with his thick cum coating my chin and chest and furiously stroking my dick.
I was in a state of complete bliss from this first incredible experience and hardly even noticed as another older man entered my room and came over to my bed. I could not get this man's cock into my mouth fast enough and I eagerly started sucking him off. He kept pulling his cock out of my mouth and rubbing it into the cum on my chin before shoving it back into my mouth so I could suck it clean. He had fed me all of the other man's cum before he climbed on top of me in a 69 position and buried his entire cock deep into my mouth as he laid down on me with all of his weight. I did not even last a minute. As soon as I felt the man's soft wet lips wrap around my cock I was ready to cum. Without any warning I started cumming in the man's mouth and it caught him off guard that I was cumming so quickly. He was a champ though and started swallowing my load as it shot into his mouth. Even after cumming  I still eagerly sucked this man's dick though and he just continued blowing me even after I had gone soft. I no longer cared if this man came in my mouth so I sucked him off for all  was worth. WE sucked each other off for about 15 minutes before he blew his load in my moth and I eagerly swallowed it for him. Once he came the man pulled his cock out of my mouth but I was fully hard by then so he crawled between my legs and continued blowing me.
It wasn't until there was movement in the doorway that I realized this guy had left the door open when he came into my room. Anther man entered the room with us and came over the bed removing his towel on the way. I sat up a bit and eagerly took his cock into my mouth and started sucking off a third complete stranger of the night. 
I sucked this man off for a good 10 minutes before he started cumming in my mouth and I swallowed his load as well. He grabbed his towel and left, leaving the other man still sucking me off. It was not much longer after that that I started cumming for a second time and the man swallowed this load of cum as well. We thanked each other as he left the room. I was laying on that bed completely naked with cum smeared all over my mouth and chin feeling like I had been used like a dirty slut. I started feeling guilty about what I had just done, so I made my way out of that place as quickly as possible. I was barely back in my care when those feelings of dirtyness left me and the more I thought about it the more aroused and excited I became about what I had just done with those strange me and I realized just how much I loved doing it. And being used like a whore, REALLY turned me on.
I was only about half way home when I became so erect from thinking about all of the things that I did that I had to pull out my cock and jack off while I drove the rest of the way home. I stopped about a block from my house in a school parking lot and blew a huge load all over myself. I gathered the cum on my fingers and shoved it into my mouth and smeared the cum all over my face and jacked off one more time before going home and jacking off some more.
It took me a while to go back to the bathhouse but over time I started going more and more and had incredible experiences almost every time I went. Even when I would go there and the place would be empty I still got an incredible thrill of walking around the place completely naked  and would still have an incredible jack off session in the porn room while watching gay porn or out on the sun deck where people in a nearby apartment building could see if they happened to be looking out their windows.
Over time I learned about parks that guys hung out at and started going there as well and just like the sun deck a the bathhouse, I got a huge thrill exposing myself in a public place and outdoors.
So it has been more than 20 years since I went to that bathhouse for the first time. It caught on fire a couple of years ago and probably will never open back up but I still enjoy going to parks and having sex with complete strangers. I don't go as often as I used to any more but I still enjoy it just as much now as I did the very first time I went and just as thrilling.
That's pretty much the history of my gay sex life. When I started writing it I thought it would be a paragraph or two but kind of got carried away. I don't know if that's good or bad, I'll let you decide that.

So as I said, I consider myself Bisexual but not really attracted to men even though I love cock, I prefer gay porn over straight porn. I'm not really into big muscular guys in porn though. I like porn with amatuer (looking) actors, and that's mainly chubby and older men. When I watch gay porn I don't really get off to what I'm watching but actually to my sexual experiences that come to mind while watching it so what gets me aroused the most is porn with actors resemble the men I've had sex with the most, and at the bathhouse and public parks, that was mostly Older and chubby guys. I also really enjoy vintage porn from the 70's and 80's as well. Probably because it was in the 70's and 80's that I was sucking off my friends (and early to mid 90's as well) so I think it reminds me of those times.

And also, one last thing about me that you probably noticed already. I love to write stories about my sexual experiences. As I write them I relive those moments in my mind so vividly that it is like I am actually reliving them. I also love sharing my stories and it really does make me incredibly horny knowing people are jacking off while they read my stories. I've posted stories on Nifty before and have spent the night jacking off while reading the feedback emails because they turn me on so much!

Anyways, enough for now. Feel free to ask me anything you want and I'll try and answer it for you.

[cannonmc]

Heavens, that was some introduction  :laugh:

Most people just say 'hi' - hope you're having fun