Worried about porn habbits
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hey fellas! i have a bit of a dilemma and honestly feel like i don't know where to turn for answers. maybe any of you can help or have similar troubles or whatever
basically: should i stop watching porn?
what really sucks about the whole thing is that you can't base your decision on anything but your emotions right? and my emotions about porn are like a fucking pendulum. if haven't watched porn for like 2 days i get all positive and feel like there's so much great stuff so i get home and start downloading being really psyched, big boner just waiting for it come home, watch it and jerk off like crazy, you know. then i cum and i always feel real fucking bad like "ugh why did i do this?".
it's not a shame-thing, i'm quite certain, because i NEVER feel like that if masturbate just in bed with only my thoughts. the big difference there being i'm always a part of my own fantasies, and i try to keep the fantasies all about being equal with my partner, like - i get off like crazy thinking about just sitting naked beside a guy and we jerk each other off. after those session i always feel GREAT.
but i feel like i always get such a bad gut-feeling after watching and cuming to porn, especially straight porn (i watch like 50/50 straight stuff)! i'm thinking it might be connected to the sense of losing control, because i feel like i do lose control a bit when i watch porn - which i'm guessing is connected to the whole biological aspect of it and how sexual behaviour affects dopamine and stuff. but i feel like we should be able to be stronger than our fucking out-dated biology right?!
and once again, when i don't have that bad feeling i fucking love porn - so many hot guys and a lot of it is so well produced and it has really helped me in discovering my sexuality over time so it's like… since it's not all bad (if even bad at all wtf) i don't want to stop, but i really don't want to do something that gives me anxiety!
sorry for the longest post in history but
any thoughts? does anyone have like a similar experience? thankful for any input, really. xoxo
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It's not just you - ironically, most porn BORES me.
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I'm actually planning to take a break from this site, there's always something new and excited to download and watch. even when I'm not in the mood to watch porn I end up watching it anyway because I'm curious. I don't think a day ever passed without seeing a dick it's better to take a break and focus on something else. not only porn, anything you're doing everyday isn't healthy for you.