@hypnotec:

does that mean they are not my friends because my homosexuality clashes with their ideologies?

I've never considered to be a friend anyone who isn't open-minded enough, so that's not a case for me. I know for sure we wouldn't ever find a mutual understanding. As for me friendship is not about appearance - it's all about mind. Btw I'm an explicit introvert, so I'm not very concerned about the other people opinions ))

@hypnotec:

I think I can be just friends with him, from time to time I dream about him and can't get him out of my head for the whole day. It's like the flames of hell burning me already!  :cry2:

That's the problem. And now I think it has nothing to do with a friendship… it is some other four letter word, like this. Be sure - falling in love with a straight guy is, maybe, the most common experience of every gay. Sooner or later it will happen. Just be prepared to live a hard gay's life. And there is really nothing to suggest.

@hypnotec:

It really scares me to death to loose a friend just for that. Are there any signs for knowing that?

In case you lose somebody, he isn't a friend. So he doesn't worth to think about. Bullying and dissociation with the rest of society - the only things that are really frightening. But it all depends on the kind of personality you are. You should agree, it's impossible to scare everyone ) The second thing that matters is your ability to recognize the other people and predict their behaviour - whether they want to harm you or not.

I live in the most homophobic country of Europe - Russia. But even here lots of people tend to respect your personality more than hate your sexual orientation. I wouldn't come out to any religious fanatic, a street mobster or something. I agree, that the key thing in any decision is your trust to your friend - it works everywhere.

I haven't ever told anything to anyone of my relatives - I don't belive somebody could understand me. But I came out dozen of times to other people I knew long enough. Reactions were quite different - from temporary split in any relationship till close friendship. But I wouldn't say I've ever regret. At least I know from now on - the hardest come out is the first one )) - every next becomes much easier.

Sorry for my French )))