1 00:00:37,789 --> 00:00:39,374 Please prepare to exit the ferry. 2 00:00:43,586 --> 00:00:46,186 Attention, on deck. We are now arriving at Fire Island Pines. 3 00:00:47,298 --> 00:00:49,300 All right, welcome to Fire Island, everybody. 4 00:00:49,384 --> 00:00:51,261 Please take care, exit slowly. 5 00:00:51,344 --> 00:00:52,971 Those steps can be wet. 6 00:00:53,054 --> 00:00:55,223 Also double-check you have all your luggage... 7 00:01:00,728 --> 00:01:02,313 Have a good day. 8 00:01:22,542 --> 00:01:24,669 - Hey, Weeks! - Hey, honey. 9 00:01:25,545 --> 00:01:26,754 How you doing? 10 00:01:27,505 --> 00:01:28,881 We're doing great. 11 00:01:33,678 --> 00:01:35,096 Here we are! 12 00:01:42,020 --> 00:01:43,229 What are you guys doing? 13 00:01:43,313 --> 00:01:46,357 Hairy is out. Your turn, teddy bear. 14 00:01:46,441 --> 00:01:48,109 No. No. I love my teddy. 15 00:01:48,192 --> 00:01:50,528 - Calvin Klein would not approve. - Oh. 16 00:01:51,112 --> 00:01:55,658 The baseball game is on and my summer has officially begun. 17 00:01:55,742 --> 00:01:57,102 The thing is he actually means it. 18 00:01:57,126 --> 00:01:58,953 - Hey, baby. - How are ya? 19 00:01:59,037 --> 00:02:01,623 - You want a beer? - Nah, I've already had a couple. 20 00:02:01,706 --> 00:02:03,791 Nice stripes, Lieutenant. Hot. 21 00:02:03,875 --> 00:02:06,044 Oh, please. Captain. 22 00:02:06,127 --> 00:02:07,920 Just got back from the reserves. 23 00:02:08,004 --> 00:02:11,257 You know what they say. Once a month, I get to play a real man. 24 00:02:11,382 --> 00:02:14,302 Ooh. I haven't seen you at the gym lately. 25 00:02:14,844 --> 00:02:16,012 Bruce! 26 00:02:17,430 --> 00:02:19,349 - Your turn, Bruce. - What? What? 27 00:02:19,432 --> 00:02:21,976 Brucey, please. Don't embarrass our house at the beach, hon. 28 00:02:22,060 --> 00:02:23,060 Uh-oh. 29 00:02:23,102 --> 00:02:24,646 You gotta do it. 30 00:02:25,897 --> 00:02:29,275 You know what they say, Ned. If you can't beat 'em, 31 00:02:31,653 --> 00:02:32,904 Join 'em! 32 00:02:35,281 --> 00:02:36,783 That's my guy- 33 00:02:43,247 --> 00:02:45,127 Craig was miserable when you weren't interested. 34 00:02:45,208 --> 00:02:47,502 Now look, he's got Robert Redford. 35 00:02:47,585 --> 00:02:48,753 It shows you there is a god. 36 00:02:50,088 --> 00:02:51,589 How's John? 37 00:02:51,673 --> 00:02:53,091 - John? - John. 38 00:02:53,716 --> 00:02:56,594 Oh, John! No, I'm with Gregory now. 39 00:02:57,011 --> 00:02:58,811 We're celebrating our 15th month anniversary. 40 00:02:58,835 --> 00:03:01,557 Fifteen... That's a long time for you, Mickey. 41 00:03:01,641 --> 00:03:06,020 Oh, please! We're lovers and we live together. It's not like we're faithful to each other, too. 42 00:03:06,104 --> 00:03:07,522 He's not even Jewish. 43 00:03:07,605 --> 00:03:09,065 Don't tell my rabbi. 44 00:03:12,360 --> 00:03:14,070 Oh, my God. 45 00:03:15,321 --> 00:03:17,699 Hey, Weeks! You suck! 46 00:03:18,449 --> 00:03:22,078 Why do you even come here anymore? We don't want you. 47 00:03:24,038 --> 00:03:26,791 You made us look terrible in your novel. 48 00:03:26,958 --> 00:03:28,751 Look around you. Sex is liberating. 49 00:03:28,835 --> 00:03:32,463 All I said was having so much sex makes finding love impossible. 50 00:03:32,547 --> 00:03:35,883 Do not put your failure to find someone on the rest of us. 51 00:03:36,134 --> 00:03:37,301 Neddy! 52 00:03:38,511 --> 00:03:39,554 - Ow! - Oh, jeez. 53 00:03:46,728 --> 00:03:48,104 Oh, my God! 54 00:03:52,150 --> 00:03:53,234 Guys! 55 00:04:00,324 --> 00:04:02,243 Hey, what happened? 56 00:04:02,326 --> 00:04:04,328 - Are you okay? - I'm okay. 57 00:04:04,912 --> 00:04:07,272 I just got a little light-headed. I got myself up. I'm fine. 58 00:04:08,791 --> 00:04:11,461 I think I just got a little dizzy. 59 00:04:12,795 --> 00:04:14,422 Does he seem okay? 60 00:04:14,881 --> 00:04:19,719 Happy birthday to you 61 00:04:19,969 --> 00:04:24,766 Happy birthday to you 62 00:04:25,224 --> 00:04:31,564 Happy birthday, dear Craig! 63 00:04:31,856 --> 00:04:37,570 Happy birthday to you! 64 00:04:37,653 --> 00:04:38,863 Blow! 65 00:04:38,946 --> 00:04:40,615 He's good at that! 66 00:04:53,836 --> 00:04:56,339 I fucking love this place! 67 00:05:33,626 --> 00:05:35,086 Hey, Ned! 68 00:05:35,711 --> 00:05:37,046 Come on. Please? 69 00:07:22,026 --> 00:07:26,572 I sold you a ceramic pig once at Maison France on Bleecker Street. 70 00:07:27,365 --> 00:07:28,783 I'm Sanford. 71 00:07:29,033 --> 00:07:30,368 Yes, I remember. 72 00:07:30,451 --> 00:07:32,453 Somebody I was friends with then collected pigs 73 00:07:32,536 --> 00:07:35,998 and you had the biggest pig I'd ever seen outside a real pig. 74 00:07:41,379 --> 00:07:45,132 They just keep getting bigger and won't go away. 75 00:07:46,884 --> 00:07:48,219 I'm her 20th case. 76 00:07:50,096 --> 00:07:52,098 And six of them are dead. 77 00:08:02,400 --> 00:08:03,693 Hey, Ned, won't be a minute. 78 00:08:03,901 --> 00:08:05,581 Hey, Buzzy, I didn't know you worked here. 79 00:08:09,740 --> 00:08:12,284 Who are you? 80 00:08:14,036 --> 00:08:16,914 Uh, Ned Weeks. I spoke to you after The Times article. 81 00:08:19,208 --> 00:08:20,459 Come in. Take your clothes off. 82 00:08:21,043 --> 00:08:22,670 I only came to ask some questions. 83 00:08:26,507 --> 00:08:28,759 - You are gay, aren't you? - Yes. 84 00:08:30,136 --> 00:08:34,265 Take your clothes off. Don't be nervous. I've seen more men than you have. 85 00:08:38,394 --> 00:08:40,594 To answer all of your questions, I don't know. 86 00:08:40,646 --> 00:08:44,191 I've never seen or heard of anything like this. 87 00:08:44,275 --> 00:08:45,901 Have you had any of the symptoms? 88 00:08:46,318 --> 00:08:49,780 Most of the shit The Times said, amoebas, gonorrhea, hepatitis. 89 00:08:50,114 --> 00:08:52,594 You don't know what it's been like since the sexual revolution. 90 00:08:52,616 --> 00:08:54,744 What makes you think I don't? 91 00:08:54,827 --> 00:08:57,538 Any fever, night sweats, weight loss? 92 00:08:57,621 --> 00:08:58,914 Don't I wish. 93 00:08:59,040 --> 00:09:00,082 No. 94 00:09:00,875 --> 00:09:03,419 And purple lesions? Open your mouth. 95 00:09:04,920 --> 00:09:06,422 It's a cancer. 96 00:09:06,630 --> 00:09:09,425 There's a strange reaction in the immune system. 97 00:09:09,508 --> 00:09:10,634 It's collapsed. 98 00:09:10,718 --> 00:09:13,763 Won't fight, so the diseases most of my patients are coming down with 99 00:09:14,722 --> 00:09:16,682 are brought on by germs that wouldn't hurt a baby. 100 00:09:18,392 --> 00:09:19,393 Ticklish. 101 00:09:19,477 --> 00:09:21,277 At least not a baby in New York City, anyway. 102 00:09:21,645 --> 00:09:24,398 I mean, the immune system is the system we know the least about. 103 00:09:28,319 --> 00:09:30,780 So where's this big mouth I hear you've got? 104 00:09:30,863 --> 00:09:31,989 Is big mouth a symptom? 105 00:09:32,656 --> 00:09:34,241 No. It's a cure. 106 00:09:34,950 --> 00:09:37,661 This seems to only be happening to gay men. 107 00:09:37,745 --> 00:09:40,206 Buzzy says you are well-known in the gay community 108 00:09:40,289 --> 00:09:42,875 and not afraid to say what you think. 109 00:09:43,667 --> 00:09:45,795 I can't find any gay leaders, 110 00:09:46,253 --> 00:09:48,798 and I call gay organizations, no one ever calls me back. 111 00:09:48,881 --> 00:09:52,384 Dr. Brookner, no one with half a brain gets involved with gay politics. 112 00:09:52,468 --> 00:09:54,804 - There's no room for criticism. - What's your criticism? 113 00:09:54,887 --> 00:09:58,182 I hate that we play victim when many of us, most of us don't have to. 114 00:09:58,265 --> 00:10:00,101 Then you're exactly what's needed now. 115 00:10:00,184 --> 00:10:01,602 Maybe they're just waiting for someone to lead them. 116 00:10:01,852 --> 00:10:03,187 I don't want to lead them. 117 00:10:03,395 --> 00:10:06,273 What exactly are you trying to get me to do? 118 00:10:06,357 --> 00:10:08,275 Tell gay men to stop having sex. 119 00:10:10,903 --> 00:10:13,114 Do you think that this cancer is sexually transmitted? 120 00:10:13,572 --> 00:10:15,449 I think it is, yes. 121 00:10:15,533 --> 00:10:17,493 Can I prove it yet? No. 122 00:10:19,703 --> 00:10:23,082 Do you realize that you're talking about millions of men 123 00:10:23,165 --> 00:10:27,586 who have singled out promiscuity as their principal political agenda? 124 00:10:28,045 --> 00:10:29,421 How do you deal with that? 125 00:10:29,505 --> 00:10:30,798 Tell them they may die. 126 00:10:31,799 --> 00:10:33,884 - Where? - Down the hall! Down the hall! 127 00:10:33,968 --> 00:10:35,052 It's not that simple. 128 00:10:35,136 --> 00:10:37,221 It's more complicated than that. 129 00:10:37,388 --> 00:10:38,931 They think sex is all they have. 130 00:10:39,014 --> 00:10:40,850 Mr. Weeks, if having sex can kill you, 131 00:10:40,933 --> 00:10:43,519 doesn't anyone with half a brain stop fucking? 132 00:10:47,731 --> 00:10:50,109 You can go. I'm not finding what I'm looking for here. 133 00:10:52,570 --> 00:10:54,010 - Where is she? - Open up! 134 00:10:54,034 --> 00:10:56,661 - Where? Where? - Right in that room. 135 00:10:57,616 --> 00:10:59,376 - Easy! Easy! - Just put him up on the table. 136 00:10:59,400 --> 00:11:00,400 Up here. 137 00:11:00,411 --> 00:11:01,412 Just try to hold him. 138 00:11:01,495 --> 00:11:04,123 - Baby! - Easy! Be still. 139 00:11:04,206 --> 00:11:06,566 Can you tell me what happened? 140 00:11:06,590 --> 00:11:09,885 We were meeting him outside. We turned the corner, he just collapsed. 141 00:11:15,718 --> 00:11:16,927 Jesus! 142 00:11:17,386 --> 00:11:18,786 Hey, get the fuck outta the street! 143 00:11:21,807 --> 00:11:22,933 Baby! 144 00:11:23,309 --> 00:11:24,727 Oh, my God. 145 00:11:24,810 --> 00:11:25,936 Help! 146 00:11:30,107 --> 00:11:31,734 - Who's the lover? lam, ma'am. 147 00:11:32,026 --> 00:11:34,320 - What's your name? - Bruce Niles. 148 00:11:34,695 --> 00:11:37,055 Brookner, I need a room immediately. 149 00:11:37,079 --> 00:11:38,657 Niles, you were Reinhardt's boyfriend? 150 00:11:38,741 --> 00:11:40,367 Yes, ma'am. How do you know that? 151 00:11:40,451 --> 00:11:41,493 He died three weeks ago. 152 00:12:15,653 --> 00:12:18,280 They wouldn't even let me say goodbye. 153 00:12:19,156 --> 00:12:22,159 Not even let me kiss him goodbye. 154 00:12:24,411 --> 00:12:25,746 He's dead? 155 00:12:34,338 --> 00:12:35,839 I'm so sorry. 156 00:12:43,180 --> 00:12:44,348 It can happen this fast? 157 00:12:46,934 --> 00:12:47,935 N just did. 158 00:12:58,320 --> 00:13:00,281 We have to do something. 159 00:13:01,448 --> 00:13:03,075 No one else will. 160 00:13:03,826 --> 00:13:05,911 What are we supposed to do? 161 00:13:10,666 --> 00:13:13,961 You make these assumptions on the basis of 46 cases! 162 00:13:14,712 --> 00:13:17,298 You wanted to know what I think. This is what I think. 163 00:13:17,506 --> 00:13:19,300 You are all going to infect each other. 164 00:13:25,556 --> 00:13:27,641 Now only a few of you have. 165 00:13:27,891 --> 00:13:30,811 Unfortunately, we can't tell yet which ones. 166 00:13:31,562 --> 00:13:34,273 Long before we isolated the hepatitis viruses, 167 00:13:34,356 --> 00:13:38,485 we knew about the diseases they caused and how they got around! 168 00:13:38,569 --> 00:13:40,249 Where are the medical journals? The Times? 169 00:13:40,321 --> 00:13:43,824 I sent my first report to the medical journals over a year ago. 170 00:13:43,907 --> 00:13:46,577 Excuse me, how do you know what you're looking for, 171 00:13:46,827 --> 00:13:49,204 real quick, if you don't know what you're looking for? 172 00:13:49,288 --> 00:13:50,968 I'm sorry. I guess that's a dumb question. 173 00:13:50,992 --> 00:13:52,207 No, it isn't. 174 00:13:52,291 --> 00:13:55,878 It's the smartest question of all and the hardest one to answer. 175 00:13:55,961 --> 00:13:58,361 Doesn't common sense tell you you should cool it for a while? 176 00:14:00,758 --> 00:14:02,009 Why not? 177 00:14:02,468 --> 00:14:04,108 It doesn't leave much to look forward to. 178 00:14:05,387 --> 00:14:07,097 What if it turns out that you're wrong? 179 00:14:07,264 --> 00:14:08,599 Let her speak! 180 00:14:09,725 --> 00:14:12,405 The worst that could happen would be that you cooled it for a while. 181 00:14:12,478 --> 00:14:13,937 No! Excuse me! Excuse me! 182 00:14:14,021 --> 00:14:15,189 That is not... 183 00:14:15,272 --> 00:14:18,233 Excuse me. That is not the worst that will have happened. 184 00:14:18,317 --> 00:14:20,152 Guys will become frightened of sex, 185 00:14:20,235 --> 00:14:23,155 they will lose our self-respect that we fought very, very hard for. 186 00:14:23,238 --> 00:14:25,074 We will be scapegoated worse than ever. 187 00:14:25,157 --> 00:14:26,557 The world will think we're carriers 188 00:14:26,640 --> 00:14:28,921 and the moral majority will have even more of a field day. 189 00:14:30,788 --> 00:14:34,083 I am not coming back until that bitch on wheels is gone. 190 00:14:34,166 --> 00:14:37,419 Wait! I see more cases each week than the week before. 191 00:14:37,795 --> 00:14:39,380 Half of all my patients die. 192 00:14:41,090 --> 00:14:44,593 Okay, I hope she winds this up, 'cause I've got a tiny little orgy in New Rochelle. 193 00:14:44,676 --> 00:14:46,678 Where's the health department? Where's the Mayor? 194 00:14:46,845 --> 00:14:47,971 Shut the fuck up, John. 195 00:14:48,055 --> 00:14:49,640 Oh, you shut the fuck up, hon! 196 00:14:50,140 --> 00:14:51,308 What were the numbers? 197 00:15:01,902 --> 00:15:03,862 ls every gay meeting like this? 198 00:15:05,656 --> 00:15:08,534 Half these people just showed up to get laid. 199 00:15:10,244 --> 00:15:12,121 Quiet! Quiet! 200 00:15:12,663 --> 00:15:15,582 We're starting a group! We're starting a health crisis group. 201 00:15:15,666 --> 00:15:16,917 We're gonna meet here again. 202 00:15:17,000 --> 00:15:19,420 Next time bring some fucking food! 203 00:15:19,503 --> 00:15:21,130 Hey, hey, hey. That's not nice. 204 00:15:26,301 --> 00:15:28,261 Welcome to gay politics. 205 00:15:59,543 --> 00:16:02,783 Yeah. I'm very late for an important meeting with Craig Claiborne. 206 00:16:02,807 --> 00:16:04,475 He's expecting me. 207 00:16:20,355 --> 00:16:21,398 Hi, Felix Turner. 208 00:16:22,024 --> 00:16:24,443 - And you are? - My name's Ned Weeks. 209 00:16:25,944 --> 00:16:26,945 You're very cute. 210 00:16:28,822 --> 00:16:30,866 You caught me at a rough moment, all right? I have a deadline. 211 00:16:30,949 --> 00:16:32,229 The First Lady's coming to town. 212 00:16:32,253 --> 00:16:33,293 I've been told you're gay. 213 00:16:34,369 --> 00:16:37,249 And you might be able to help me get some vital information in The Times. 214 00:16:37,273 --> 00:16:38,707 You've been told? 215 00:16:38,790 --> 00:16:39,910 And who was it who told you? 216 00:16:39,917 --> 00:16:41,752 Oh, honey, everybody's talking about it. 217 00:16:46,632 --> 00:16:49,092 Why does everyone gay think that I run The New York Times? 218 00:16:49,176 --> 00:16:51,386 I can't help you with this. 219 00:16:51,470 --> 00:16:53,555 I'm sorry to hear that. What would you suggest I do? 220 00:16:53,639 --> 00:16:54,681 Take your pick. 221 00:16:54,765 --> 00:16:58,018 I got 23 parties, 37 new restaurants, 12 new discos. 222 00:16:58,101 --> 00:17:01,146 Listen, I can't get anyone here to write another article. 223 00:17:01,230 --> 00:17:04,608 I've talked to half a dozen reporters and the guy who worked on the first piece. 224 00:17:04,691 --> 00:17:06,944 Mr. Leather? Yeah, no. 225 00:17:07,528 --> 00:17:09,905 No one here will write about it, and I can't. 226 00:17:09,988 --> 00:17:11,573 Look, we're very compartmentalized. 227 00:17:12,199 --> 00:17:14,326 You wouldn't want science to write about sweaters, would you? 228 00:17:14,409 --> 00:17:15,577 It's a very peculiar feeling 229 00:17:15,661 --> 00:17:18,661 having to go out and seek support from the straight world for something gay. 230 00:17:20,415 --> 00:17:22,015 I wouldn't know about that. 231 00:17:22,251 --> 00:17:25,337 I just write about gay designers and gay discos and gay chefs 232 00:17:25,420 --> 00:17:28,966 and gay models and gay rock stars and gay celebrities and gay everything. 233 00:17:29,049 --> 00:17:30,342 I just don't call them gay. 234 00:17:31,969 --> 00:17:33,470 Isn't it time you start? 235 00:17:36,265 --> 00:17:38,141 - Look, I really do have a deadline. - Hmm. 236 00:17:38,642 --> 00:17:40,602 - And you wouldn't want me to get fired. - Hmm. 237 00:17:41,061 --> 00:17:42,396 Would you? 238 00:17:43,855 --> 00:17:46,567 Guys like you can be a pain in the ass. 239 00:17:49,027 --> 00:17:50,904 - You in the book? - Yes. 240 00:17:57,327 --> 00:17:58,870 Hi, guys. Give to gay cancer? 241 00:17:59,663 --> 00:18:01,415 Hi, give to gay cancer? 242 00:18:01,498 --> 00:18:03,375 No? Hi, give to gay cancer? 243 00:18:03,500 --> 00:18:04,835 Hi, sir... 244 00:18:05,043 --> 00:18:07,504 Hi, give to gay cancer? There's a cancer in the gay community. 245 00:18:07,588 --> 00:18:08,668 Can you give to gay cancer? 246 00:18:08,672 --> 00:18:11,758 There's a crisis in our community right now. We could really... 247 00:18:11,842 --> 00:18:13,385 We could use a little help. 248 00:18:13,468 --> 00:18:15,588 - No? - I think you could be a little less aggressive. 249 00:18:15,612 --> 00:18:17,431 Less... We've tried that. 250 00:18:17,514 --> 00:18:20,267 Can you give to cancer in our community? 251 00:18:21,226 --> 00:18:22,686 Hi, give to gay..- 252 00:18:23,353 --> 00:18:25,355 Hi, give to gay cancer? 253 00:19:28,794 --> 00:19:31,838 It's funny. My mother sent flowers 254 00:19:33,256 --> 00:19:35,717 and I had never told her I was gay. 255 00:19:35,801 --> 00:19:38,345 I just told her that Craig had died. 256 00:19:39,930 --> 00:19:41,264 I think she knew. 257 00:19:43,225 --> 00:19:45,227 I think somehow mothers always know. 258 00:19:57,698 --> 00:20:00,617 Doesn't spending $5 million on a house frighten you? 259 00:20:01,535 --> 00:20:04,913 It scared the shit out of me even having you handling my finances. 260 00:20:04,996 --> 00:20:06,790 You can have a house anytime you want, 261 00:20:06,873 --> 00:20:08,753 which reminds me, your account needs more money. 262 00:20:09,543 --> 00:20:11,628 You're not doing too badly. 263 00:20:12,337 --> 00:20:15,132 I miss you being in the movie business. I like movies. 264 00:20:15,215 --> 00:20:18,969 Do I detect a note of approval from the big brother that called me Lemon? 265 00:20:20,387 --> 00:20:21,596 I don't want a house. 266 00:20:21,680 --> 00:20:24,200 Then why have you been searching in the country for so long for? 267 00:20:24,224 --> 00:20:25,767 No fun living in it alone. 268 00:20:26,143 --> 00:20:27,477 This Bruce, 269 00:20:28,478 --> 00:20:29,598 is he someone you're seeing? 270 00:20:29,622 --> 00:20:32,124 I see him. He doesn't see me. 271 00:20:34,609 --> 00:20:38,405 Ben, could your law firm take this on for free? 272 00:20:38,488 --> 00:20:40,240 What's it called? Pro bono? 273 00:20:40,323 --> 00:20:43,118 We started an organization. I told you. There's this new disease... 274 00:20:43,201 --> 00:20:45,996 Now this sounds like just another excuse to keep from writing. 275 00:20:46,079 --> 00:20:47,581 Why Can't you just say yes? 276 00:20:47,664 --> 00:20:51,084 I told you, because we have a committee that decides that kind of a thing. 277 00:20:51,168 --> 00:20:54,463 But you're the senior partner and I'm your brother. 278 00:20:54,838 --> 00:20:57,007 Hey, Mario. How's Homer? 279 00:21:01,887 --> 00:21:04,431 If you're not gonna help, I'm gonna have to find somebody else. 280 00:21:04,514 --> 00:21:07,194 - Well, you're more than free to do that. - I don't want to do that. 281 00:21:07,218 --> 00:21:10,937 I want my big brother's fancy, famous, big-time major law firm 282 00:21:11,021 --> 00:21:14,775 to be the first straight New York law firm to do pro bono work for a gay cause. 283 00:21:14,858 --> 00:21:16,902 I would be real proud of that, and you. 284 00:21:18,945 --> 00:21:20,945 I'll ask my partners' approval at the next meeting. 285 00:21:21,072 --> 00:21:23,575 I'll lobby them. You don't sound like a very sure vote. 286 00:21:32,709 --> 00:21:33,794 Okay? 287 00:21:39,382 --> 00:21:40,502 You're getting better at it. 288 00:21:44,346 --> 00:21:46,598 I'm seeing three to four new patients a week. 289 00:21:46,681 --> 00:21:49,851 I've got seven in ICU. The whole hospital only has room for 30. 290 00:21:50,393 --> 00:21:53,647 I've had to admit some of them under other illnesses. That's a no-no. 291 00:21:53,730 --> 00:21:56,358 I've got 20 in private rooms they can't afford. 292 00:21:56,441 --> 00:21:59,861 Okay, what about the guys who don't have health insurance? Artists, actors? 293 00:21:59,945 --> 00:22:02,545 I've got eight of them in another ward where I shouldn't put them. 294 00:22:12,874 --> 00:22:15,252 Why don't you wear gloves and a face mask? 295 00:22:15,335 --> 00:22:18,839 I never have and I never will, and I'm still here. 296 00:22:21,007 --> 00:22:24,047 Why is all the food sitting outside their rooms like this? It's getting cold. 297 00:22:24,094 --> 00:22:27,931 It's always cold because the appropriate staff won't bring it into the rooms, 298 00:22:28,014 --> 00:22:30,642 so it sits and rots until one of my staff can. 299 00:22:30,725 --> 00:22:31,768 Park right there. 300 00:22:32,435 --> 00:22:36,773 Right there. Yeah. Park there. Yeah. Right through the tunnel. 301 00:22:37,065 --> 00:22:39,442 Take the tunnel. We'll take the book back. 302 00:22:40,485 --> 00:22:42,612 I know him. Can I go inside with you? 303 00:22:45,323 --> 00:22:46,963 Only if you wear all the protective shit. 304 00:22:47,993 --> 00:22:49,870 If you don't, I don't. 305 00:22:52,747 --> 00:22:54,165 No, no, no. Over there. 306 00:22:55,083 --> 00:22:56,376 Go the other way. 307 00:22:56,459 --> 00:23:00,046 No, are you listening to me? Are you listening to me? Go back. 308 00:23:00,130 --> 00:23:01,130 Hi, Sanford. 309 00:23:01,172 --> 00:23:04,467 You see it? Take the tunnel. Go ahead. Ride straight through. 310 00:23:04,551 --> 00:23:05,591 How are we doing, soldier? 311 00:23:05,635 --> 00:23:08,096 I want my dog. Can you please bring me my dog? 312 00:23:08,597 --> 00:23:10,807 He won't be able to live without me. 313 00:23:10,891 --> 00:23:11,892 I want my dog. 314 00:23:12,267 --> 00:23:13,310 I want my dog. 315 00:23:14,144 --> 00:23:16,897 Go ahead. That's right. Good, good. 316 00:23:16,980 --> 00:23:18,189 No, take the book back. 317 00:23:18,648 --> 00:23:21,401 Right there. Go park. Park right there. 318 00:23:22,110 --> 00:23:26,323 Can you please bring me my dog? He won't know how to live without me. 319 00:23:30,827 --> 00:23:32,329 Don't bother. 320 00:23:32,621 --> 00:23:34,915 Who's going to bring me my dog? 321 00:23:36,374 --> 00:23:39,461 His name is Skip. He'll come when you call him. 322 00:23:40,211 --> 00:23:41,838 Please. 323 00:23:44,507 --> 00:23:45,842 I miss him. 324 00:23:53,016 --> 00:23:54,392 I miss him. 325 00:23:57,312 --> 00:23:59,022 Can you imagine this at 19? 326 00:23:59,481 --> 00:24:03,360 Your first boyfriend you were gonna spend your whole life with. 327 00:24:10,492 --> 00:24:11,826 - Excuse me. - Yeah? 328 00:24:11,910 --> 00:24:13,703 You're the TV guy. 329 00:24:13,995 --> 00:24:15,789 Please go to room 407 and fix it. 330 00:24:15,872 --> 00:24:16,915 No, I'm not gonna do that. 331 00:24:16,998 --> 00:24:18,792 Fix the TV! It's your fucking job. 332 00:24:19,042 --> 00:24:22,629 My union says I don't gotta risk my life for some contagious fairy. 333 00:24:23,630 --> 00:24:26,716 If I have to go in there, then I fucking quit. 334 00:24:35,725 --> 00:24:38,561 So what exactly has your side been doing? 335 00:25:03,670 --> 00:25:04,921 - Hi. - Hey. 336 00:25:06,297 --> 00:25:07,507 Thanks. 337 00:25:08,383 --> 00:25:11,678 - You want some of this? Beer? - Oh, beer is fine. Thanks. 338 00:25:14,639 --> 00:25:16,474 Oh. Hey, pooch. 339 00:25:16,558 --> 00:25:18,560 - Her name's Sam. - Hi, Sam. 340 00:25:20,395 --> 00:25:22,564 You know, I really used to like high tech. 341 00:25:22,647 --> 00:25:24,441 I'm tired of it now. 342 00:25:24,858 --> 00:25:27,277 I think I want chintz back again. 343 00:25:27,444 --> 00:25:29,112 - Don't be insulted. - Uh... 344 00:25:29,487 --> 00:25:30,739 I'm not. 345 00:25:31,072 --> 00:25:33,283 I want chintz back again, too. 346 00:25:35,118 --> 00:25:37,662 - So, here we are. - Mmm-hmm. 347 00:25:38,079 --> 00:25:39,706 Two fellas who want chintz back again. 348 00:25:39,789 --> 00:25:41,166 I guess this really is a date. 349 00:25:44,794 --> 00:25:46,254 I'm starving. 350 00:25:47,881 --> 00:25:49,257 Are you glad I'm here? 351 00:25:49,340 --> 00:25:52,427 Oh, I'm pleased as punch you're here. You're very good-looking. 352 00:25:52,510 --> 00:25:53,553 What are you doing here? 353 00:25:53,636 --> 00:25:55,847 - You think you're bad-looking or something? - Mmm. 354 00:25:55,930 --> 00:25:58,516 - Where you from? - I'm from Oklahoma. 355 00:25:59,851 --> 00:26:02,604 I left home at 18, put myself through... 356 00:26:03,229 --> 00:26:05,190 What, you want to dance? 357 00:26:05,315 --> 00:26:07,400 Put myself through college. 358 00:26:08,568 --> 00:26:11,446 My dad worked at the refinery in West Tulsa, 359 00:26:11,529 --> 00:26:15,116 and my mom was a waitress in a luncheonette in Walgreens. 360 00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:21,956 It's amazing, isn't it, how a kid comes out of all that to wind up on The Times 361 00:26:22,040 --> 00:26:25,126 dictating taste and style to the entire world. 362 00:26:25,210 --> 00:26:27,337 And we were just starting to talk so nicely. 363 00:26:28,004 --> 00:26:30,423 Talking's not my problem. Shutting up's my problem. 364 00:26:31,591 --> 00:26:33,676 Why do you write all that fancy ball-gown bullshit? 365 00:26:33,760 --> 00:26:35,720 I bet you gobble it up every day. 366 00:26:37,847 --> 00:26:39,265 I know 10 people who have died. 367 00:26:40,475 --> 00:26:41,976 When I came to you, it was only one. 368 00:26:43,520 --> 00:26:44,854 I'm sorry. 369 00:26:46,856 --> 00:26:48,296 Is that why you agreed to this date? 370 00:26:55,949 --> 00:26:57,575 Fork on the left, 371 00:26:59,035 --> 00:27:00,787 knife on the right. 372 00:27:03,665 --> 00:27:06,793 Did you know that Hitler's final solution to eliminate the Polish Jews 373 00:27:06,876 --> 00:27:08,211 was first mentioned in The Times? 374 00:27:08,294 --> 00:27:11,297 It was on page 28, on page six of The Washington Post. 375 00:27:11,381 --> 00:27:13,421 They were both owned by Jews, their very own people. 376 00:27:14,342 --> 00:27:17,382 Scholars are finally writing honestly about it, and it's damning to everyone. 377 00:27:17,428 --> 00:27:20,640 Where was the Christian churches? The Pope? Churchill? Roosevelt? 378 00:27:20,723 --> 00:27:23,123 A few words from any of them would have put Hitler on notice. 379 00:27:23,147 --> 00:27:26,817 Dachau was open in 1933. Where the fuck was everybody? 380 00:27:28,064 --> 00:27:30,066 This is turning out to be a very romantic evening. 381 00:27:32,235 --> 00:27:33,635 You've never had a lover, have you? 382 00:27:33,778 --> 00:27:35,780 I suppose you've had quite a few? 383 00:27:35,864 --> 00:27:38,908 I had a very good one for a number of years, thank you. 384 00:27:41,244 --> 00:27:44,080 He was older than I was and he found someone younger. 385 00:27:44,914 --> 00:27:47,917 - You're looking for a father? - No. I'm not looking for a father. 386 00:27:48,001 --> 00:27:50,044 God. You're relentless. 387 00:27:59,512 --> 00:28:00,597 Okay. 388 00:28:01,222 --> 00:28:02,849 That's yours. 389 00:28:03,308 --> 00:28:05,685 Everybody had a million reasons for not getting involved. 390 00:28:05,768 --> 00:28:07,145 The American Jews knew 391 00:28:07,228 --> 00:28:08,748 exactly what was going on. 392 00:28:08,772 --> 00:28:11,817 Can you imagine if every Jew had marched on Washington proudly, huh? 393 00:28:11,941 --> 00:28:12,942 Ned. 394 00:28:15,278 --> 00:28:17,488 You don't remember me, do you? 395 00:28:18,448 --> 00:28:20,867 It was at the baths a few years ago. 396 00:28:22,952 --> 00:28:24,537 Come to Man's Country. 397 00:28:24,621 --> 00:28:27,749 See what we're all about and what we have to offer. 398 00:28:27,832 --> 00:28:30,710 Man's Country is a full facility, multi-level complex 399 00:28:30,793 --> 00:28:33,630 that's designed to feature something for everyone. 400 00:28:34,130 --> 00:28:38,968 Come to Man's Country to develop your body or a friendship with somebody else 's. 401 00:28:39,260 --> 00:28:42,263 Visit us once and you'll come again and again. 402 00:28:57,862 --> 00:29:00,949 You would have thought I was applying for the CIA the way you looked at me. 403 00:29:03,159 --> 00:29:05,119 And then what happened? 404 00:29:11,167 --> 00:29:12,647 I followed you into your room. 405 00:29:24,347 --> 00:29:27,100 You couldn't even open your eyes. 406 00:29:28,142 --> 00:29:30,937 You told me your real name was Alexander. 407 00:29:36,359 --> 00:29:40,154 I asked what you did, and you said something like you tried a number of things, 408 00:29:41,698 --> 00:29:44,158 and I asked if that included love. 409 00:29:46,077 --> 00:29:50,331 That's when you said, I have to get up early in the morning." Yeah. 410 00:29:54,669 --> 00:29:56,879 Men do not naturally not love. 411 00:30:00,049 --> 00:30:01,718 They learn not to. 412 00:30:05,346 --> 00:30:06,431 I think you're a bluffer. 413 00:30:09,559 --> 00:30:10,719 How could I not remember you? 414 00:30:11,102 --> 00:30:12,895 I don't know. 415 00:30:12,979 --> 00:30:14,230 It was very dark. 416 00:30:18,109 --> 00:30:19,429 Do you think we could start over? 417 00:30:22,405 --> 00:30:23,406 Yeah. 418 00:31:17,960 --> 00:31:20,721 When I was going to Yale, I thought I was the only gay guy there. 419 00:31:20,797 --> 00:31:21,798 I swear to God. 420 00:31:23,466 --> 00:31:26,469 I went to this shrink who tried to change me. 421 00:31:26,719 --> 00:31:30,765 Now they have Gay Weeks there, and they throw the best dances of anyone. 422 00:31:32,558 --> 00:31:35,395 Imagine being able to dance cheek to cheek with your boyfriend 423 00:31:35,478 --> 00:31:37,814 during your bright college days. 424 00:31:43,319 --> 00:31:45,655 Did you ever sleep with a woman? 425 00:31:50,993 --> 00:31:52,745 - Hey. - Her name was 426 00:31:54,539 --> 00:31:56,249 - Delilah. - Delilah? 427 00:31:58,042 --> 00:32:01,337 She was a stand-in on this movie I wrote. 428 00:32:02,505 --> 00:32:07,760 She was very nice, pretty, always smiling at me. 429 00:32:09,345 --> 00:32:12,640 So I asked a straight friend to explain it to me. 430 00:32:13,349 --> 00:32:15,351 I thought I knew, but I just wanted to make sure. 431 00:32:16,894 --> 00:32:18,813 And I had her to dinner 432 00:32:19,814 --> 00:32:22,733 and afterwards, what I deemed to be a suitable moment, 433 00:32:22,817 --> 00:32:24,777 because I'd been communicating with it down there, 434 00:32:24,819 --> 00:32:27,947 "Are you ready? Are you absolutely certain you're ready?" 435 00:32:28,030 --> 00:32:31,742 And when it appeared, Abercrombie was ready, 436 00:32:31,826 --> 00:32:35,705 I picked her up, very Rhett Butler, and carried her to my bed. 437 00:32:36,581 --> 00:32:38,708 - Where I couldn't get it up. - Oh! 438 00:32:38,958 --> 00:32:40,960 - But“ - I can certainly relate to that. 439 00:32:41,043 --> 00:32:44,547 In the middle of the night, I woke up with this gigantic erection. 440 00:32:44,630 --> 00:32:47,175 God knows how. 441 00:32:47,258 --> 00:32:51,554 So I shake her shouting, "Please, stick it in for me, Delilah." I was... 442 00:32:51,637 --> 00:32:54,307 I was afraid it would go away before I could, 443 00:32:54,390 --> 00:32:57,560 while I was hunting for the right place to put it. 444 00:32:58,060 --> 00:33:02,315 And she did and I did and Abercrombie did. 445 00:33:03,858 --> 00:33:04,859 Ugh... 446 00:33:07,111 --> 00:33:09,238 The next morning, I woke up 447 00:33:10,323 --> 00:33:15,828 and I, who had been under the spell of this shrink who was determined to change me, 448 00:33:15,912 --> 00:33:17,663 rushed into his office, 449 00:33:17,747 --> 00:33:22,001 and I, who had been fucking with fellows since the seventh grade, 450 00:33:22,084 --> 00:33:27,548 hysterically, at the age of 32 proclaimed, "Dr. Gillespie, I am no longer a virgin!" 451 00:33:29,175 --> 00:33:30,176 Aw. 452 00:33:42,230 --> 00:33:44,732 Here's in here. I think we'll catch him. 453 00:33:45,525 --> 00:33:47,902 - Go ahead. - So I just go over and say hello? 454 00:33:47,985 --> 00:33:51,364 I told him I invited you and we went to Yale together. 455 00:33:51,447 --> 00:33:54,367 It's my farewell party. What's he gonna do? 456 00:33:54,951 --> 00:33:56,619 Let's go. 457 00:33:58,371 --> 00:33:59,956 His honor would like you to get lost. 458 00:34:00,039 --> 00:34:02,320 - This is my friend, Ned Weeks. - Yeah, we know who he is. 459 00:34:03,960 --> 00:34:07,380 Mr. Mayor! We need your help! There's this new disease. 460 00:34:07,463 --> 00:34:08,623 You must have heard about it. 461 00:34:08,631 --> 00:34:09,966 We need your help badly! 462 00:34:10,049 --> 00:34:12,260 Get off me, you pigs! This is America! 463 00:34:12,802 --> 00:34:15,221 Mr. Mayor! We're dying! 464 00:34:17,974 --> 00:34:21,519 Okay, this is what Ned wrote for us to send out. 465 00:34:22,478 --> 00:34:25,898 "I am sick of guys moaning that giving up careless sex until this blows over..." 466 00:34:25,982 --> 00:34:27,441 NED ". "...is worse than death. 467 00:34:27,525 --> 00:34:30,403 "I am sick of guys that can only think with their cocks. 468 00:34:30,486 --> 00:34:32,238 "I am sick of closeted gays. 469 00:34:32,321 --> 00:34:34,740 "It's 1982 now, guys. When you gonna come out? 470 00:34:34,824 --> 00:34:36,993 "By 1983, you could be dead." 471 00:34:39,287 --> 00:34:41,080 - That's nice. - You're crazy. 472 00:34:41,163 --> 00:34:42,915 Am I, Bruce? Do you really think so? 473 00:34:42,999 --> 00:34:44,879 Aren't we supposed to elect a president tonight? 474 00:34:44,903 --> 00:34:45,418 Yes. 475 00:34:45,501 --> 00:34:47,670 We can't tell people how to live their lives, Ned. 476 00:34:47,753 --> 00:34:50,756 The entire gay political movement is fucking. 477 00:34:51,048 --> 00:34:52,216 - Hi. - Hi. 478 00:34:52,300 --> 00:34:54,885 I'm very interested in starting up some sort of services for the patients. 479 00:34:54,969 --> 00:34:56,596 We've gotta start talking about them. 480 00:34:56,679 --> 00:34:59,223 Also, there are a lot of very scared people out there 481 00:34:59,307 --> 00:35:00,827 and they're desperate for information. 482 00:35:01,017 --> 00:35:03,102 - I'd like to start a hotline. - Oh. 483 00:35:03,185 --> 00:35:06,606 - Who's he? - Ooh, he does not know who I am yet. 484 00:35:06,731 --> 00:35:08,608 His name is Tommy Boatwright. 485 00:35:08,691 --> 00:35:12,528 In real life, he is a hospital administrator. Uh, he's here to help, 486 00:35:12,653 --> 00:35:14,572 and he's a Southern bitch. 487 00:35:14,655 --> 00:35:16,032 Mr. Boatwright, Bruce Niles. 488 00:35:16,532 --> 00:35:17,852 - Nice to meet you. - My pleasure. 489 00:35:17,876 --> 00:35:20,212 - You're very handsome. - He knows. 490 00:35:22,788 --> 00:35:26,542 What the fuck is this? Was this your idea, Ned? 491 00:35:27,209 --> 00:35:29,249 - I'm looking. What am I not seeing? - Keep looking. 492 00:35:29,273 --> 00:35:30,692 What we put for our return address. 493 00:35:31,714 --> 00:35:33,966 Do you mean because the word "gay" is on the envelope? 494 00:35:34,050 --> 00:35:36,636 Fucking-A, yes, instead of just our initials. 495 00:35:36,719 --> 00:35:37,720 We can't send these out. 496 00:35:37,803 --> 00:35:40,556 Excuse me, if we want anybody to show up for this dance, 497 00:35:40,640 --> 00:35:42,058 we have to get these out tonight. 498 00:35:42,141 --> 00:35:44,518 We could go through and scratch out the word "gay" with a magic marker. 499 00:35:44,602 --> 00:35:46,042 - Oh, honey, 10,000 times? - Why not? 500 00:35:46,066 --> 00:35:49,398 Bruce, I have sympathy for kids living at home on Long Island with their parents, 501 00:35:49,482 --> 00:35:51,776 but the guys who are getting these, I mean... 502 00:35:51,859 --> 00:35:55,363 Look at you. You live at home. You live alone. You own your own apartment. 503 00:35:55,446 --> 00:35:56,846 Your mother lives in another state. 504 00:35:56,906 --> 00:35:58,026 Okay, what about my mailman? 505 00:35:58,074 --> 00:36:01,035 Oh, you don't expect me to take you seriously. 506 00:36:01,118 --> 00:36:03,079 - Yes, I do. - Okay, ladies, behave. 507 00:36:03,162 --> 00:36:06,832 Look, it's getting late and we still haven't elected a president. 508 00:36:06,916 --> 00:36:10,127 Neddy, I think that it should be Bruce. 509 00:36:11,045 --> 00:36:13,673 Everybody knows him, everybody likes him and everybody... 510 00:36:13,756 --> 00:36:15,716 Because he's popular and everybody's afraid of me? 511 00:36:15,758 --> 00:36:16,759 Yes! 512 00:36:16,842 --> 00:36:19,011 I mean, look at him. He's gorgeous. 513 00:36:19,095 --> 00:36:21,255 And all the kids on Christopher Street and Fire Island, 514 00:36:21,263 --> 00:36:23,683 they'll feel a little bit more comfortable following him. 515 00:36:23,766 --> 00:36:25,643 - Just like high school. - Yes! 516 00:36:25,726 --> 00:36:29,939 All right. All those in favor of Bruce Niles as our first president, raise their hand. 517 00:36:32,566 --> 00:36:33,606 I don't think I want this. 518 00:36:33,651 --> 00:36:37,196 Oh, come on. You're gorgeous and we're all gonna follow you. 519 00:36:38,447 --> 00:36:39,657 Fuck you. I accept. 520 00:36:39,740 --> 00:36:42,076 Well, fuck you. Congratulations. 521 00:37:09,562 --> 00:37:14,650 Felix, let's move somewhere far away, just the two of us together on a desert island. 522 00:37:14,984 --> 00:37:18,446 Don't you dare stop for one single second what you're doing. 523 00:37:20,156 --> 00:37:23,325 I appreciate you not yelling at me about what The Times isn't doing 524 00:37:23,409 --> 00:37:25,077 and my not being more political. 525 00:37:26,078 --> 00:37:27,121 Why don't you? 526 00:37:27,204 --> 00:37:30,291 It's a relief not having to have to talk politics to someone. 527 00:37:30,374 --> 00:37:32,501 - That's not the reason. - No? 528 00:37:34,420 --> 00:37:37,173 It's because you're too good to be true. 529 00:37:37,339 --> 00:37:39,739 Because I've been waiting for a lover like you my whole life, 530 00:37:39,763 --> 00:37:41,343 and you haven't showed up until now, 531 00:37:41,427 --> 00:37:44,513 and I'm scared shitless that I'm gonna do something to fuck it up. 532 00:37:44,597 --> 00:37:46,182 - Am I crazy? - Of course. 533 00:37:48,517 --> 00:37:50,311 That's why I'm here. 534 00:37:56,484 --> 00:37:58,152 Now we're getting warm. 535 00:38:55,626 --> 00:38:57,253 Did I look okay? 536 00:38:58,587 --> 00:39:00,840 Could you tell that I was wearing all this makeup? 537 00:39:00,923 --> 00:39:02,800 You looked great. 538 00:39:05,469 --> 00:39:07,513 You have got to go see Emma. 539 00:39:07,596 --> 00:39:10,099 Can we just forget about this? 540 00:39:10,182 --> 00:39:11,684 I'm all right. 541 00:39:12,142 --> 00:39:14,742 And if I'm not, I don't want to know, because no one will hire me, 542 00:39:14,766 --> 00:39:17,686 and if I can't work, I just as soon be dead. 543 00:39:20,401 --> 00:39:22,444 I haven't lost any weight. 544 00:39:23,696 --> 00:39:25,656 I can still cover it up. 545 00:39:30,286 --> 00:39:32,788 - I told you not to tell him. - Sorry. 546 00:39:38,043 --> 00:39:39,363 You're already afraid to kiss me? 547 00:39:40,296 --> 00:39:41,338 That's not true. 548 00:39:43,966 --> 00:39:46,385 It's okay. I'm afraid to let you. 549 00:40:00,941 --> 00:40:02,109 I love you. 550 00:40:08,908 --> 00:40:10,868 I'll walk him down. 551 00:40:18,042 --> 00:40:20,794 Okay, he's the third guy I've been with. 552 00:40:21,503 --> 00:40:26,717 Reinhardt, Craig, and I don't know what I'll do if Albert has this. 553 00:40:26,842 --> 00:40:27,885 You're gonna fight. 554 00:40:29,011 --> 00:40:30,804 We'll fight together. 555 00:40:32,598 --> 00:40:34,934 You're my best friend, Ned Weeks. 556 00:40:35,017 --> 00:40:38,187 You're my best friend and I've never met anyone like you before. 557 00:40:39,063 --> 00:40:42,232 - What do you mean "like me"? - Like you meaning... 558 00:40:44,443 --> 00:40:48,822 Where I'm from, I mean, I didn't even see a Jew until I was in the army, 559 00:40:50,032 --> 00:40:55,245 let alone a man that was smart, funny. 560 00:41:01,377 --> 00:41:03,253 Decently good-looking. 561 00:41:05,631 --> 00:41:09,969 My friends stopped hanging out with me because they say I depress them. 562 00:41:11,220 --> 00:41:12,513 So be it. 563 00:41:18,769 --> 00:41:20,020 And you, 564 00:41:21,897 --> 00:41:23,440 you don't look that Jewish. 565 00:41:23,649 --> 00:41:26,529 Well, you don't look gay, so I guess we could both pass for white people. 566 00:41:35,869 --> 00:41:37,371 I love Albert. 567 00:41:39,081 --> 00:41:40,666 Bruce, look at me. 568 00:41:40,749 --> 00:41:42,126 I love him. 569 00:41:42,710 --> 00:41:44,586 Albert's gonna make it. 570 00:41:48,215 --> 00:41:50,092 And what if he doesn't? 571 00:41:54,138 --> 00:41:55,889 Let's get you home. 572 00:42:10,029 --> 00:42:11,780 - I'm a mess. - Yeah. 573 00:42:27,087 --> 00:42:28,464 - Classy moment. - Yeah. 574 00:42:50,652 --> 00:42:51,779 Okay. 575 00:43:04,500 --> 00:43:07,252 When I finally get you where I want you, I don't want you anymore. 576 00:43:10,631 --> 00:43:12,758 Hey, Bruce, I'm in love, too. 577 00:43:26,647 --> 00:43:27,689 Holy shit! 578 00:43:30,109 --> 00:43:33,195 Queen control. It really works when it wants to. 579 00:43:43,247 --> 00:43:45,749 Oh, hey, Felix, this is Dick Lombardo. 580 00:43:45,833 --> 00:43:46,833 Hi. 581 00:43:46,875 --> 00:43:49,315 I finally got us someone on our board who isn't a disco dummy. 582 00:43:49,339 --> 00:43:50,924 Well, maybe tonight. 583 00:43:51,463 --> 00:43:52,823 - I'll see you. - Nice to meet you. 584 00:43:52,847 --> 00:43:54,348 Come on, babe. 585 00:44:37,259 --> 00:44:40,179 We are all so happy you joined us tonight! 586 00:44:42,389 --> 00:44:46,476 We are proving that we are more than just looks, brains, talent and heart! 587 00:44:47,853 --> 00:44:51,273 Together, we raised more than any gay group ever in this city! 588 00:44:54,151 --> 00:44:58,197 And I want to call over Mr. Ned Weeks. 589 00:45:00,449 --> 00:45:01,909 Don't be shy! 590 00:45:09,416 --> 00:45:10,542 We did it! 591 00:45:10,626 --> 00:45:12,920 We will now reveal just how much we raised together. 592 00:45:13,962 --> 00:45:16,048 In three, two, one. 593 00:45:16,548 --> 00:45:19,051 $53,000! 594 00:45:28,143 --> 00:45:29,603 MANI $53,000! 595 00:45:35,901 --> 00:45:38,320 Gay Men's Health Crisis, come on up! 596 00:45:38,403 --> 00:45:41,073 Felix, honey, come up please. Come up. 597 00:45:41,156 --> 00:45:42,532 I love you. 598 00:45:45,911 --> 00:45:47,037 Let's dance! 599 00:46:15,607 --> 00:46:19,236 Someday he'll come along 600 00:46:19,319 --> 00:46:22,322 The man I love 601 00:46:22,906 --> 00:46:26,535 And he'll be big and strong 602 00:46:26,618 --> 00:46:29,746 The man I love 603 00:46:30,414 --> 00:46:33,834 And when he comes my way 604 00:46:34,042 --> 00:46:36,295 I'll do my best 605 00:46:36,378 --> 00:46:43,385 To make him stay 606 00:46:45,887 --> 00:46:48,890 He'll look at me and smile 607 00:46:49,266 --> 00:46:51,893 I'll understand 608 00:46:52,686 --> 00:46:55,605 And in a little while 609 00:46:56,106 --> 00:46:59,192 He'll take my hand 610 00:46:59,901 --> 00:47:03,655 And though it seems absurd 611 00:47:03,739 --> 00:47:05,907 I know we both 612 00:47:05,991 --> 00:47:12,289 Won't say a word 613 00:47:14,249 --> 00:47:18,920 Maybe I shall meet him someday 614 00:47:19,588 --> 00:47:23,008 Maybe Monday 615 00:47:23,550 --> 00:47:28,180 Maybe not 616 00:47:28,764 --> 00:47:31,933 Still I'm sure to meet him one day 617 00:47:32,017 --> 00:47:33,769 Imagine if we had this when we were young. 618 00:47:35,437 --> 00:47:36,938 No fear, no shame. 619 00:47:37,022 --> 00:47:41,109 Maybe Tuesday will be my... 620 00:47:41,193 --> 00:47:43,945 I was imagining all those years with you. 621 00:47:47,741 --> 00:47:50,911 He'll build a little home 622 00:47:51,119 --> 00:47:54,122 Just meant for two 623 00:47:54,790 --> 00:47:57,918 From which I'll never roam 624 00:47:58,418 --> 00:48:01,213 Who would, would you? 625 00:48:02,214 --> 00:48:05,759 And so all else above 626 00:48:06,468 --> 00:48:09,805 I'm waiting for the man I love 627 00:48:09,888 --> 00:48:13,141 Felix Turner, would you like to move in with me? 628 00:48:13,308 --> 00:48:14,309 Yes. 629 00:48:14,768 --> 00:48:16,144 - Yes? - Yesterday. 630 00:48:16,228 --> 00:48:18,814 Yes! Yes! Yes! 631 00:48:19,564 --> 00:48:21,733 Yes! Yes! 632 00:48:25,987 --> 00:48:32,869 I'm waiting for the man 633 00:48:33,495 --> 00:48:40,377 I love 634 00:48:46,716 --> 00:48:51,346 We are all walking time bombs waiting for whatever it is to set us off. 635 00:48:58,145 --> 00:48:59,265 Come on. We're almost there. 636 00:48:59,348 --> 00:49:01,508 If this article doesn't scare the shit out of you, 637 00:49:01,532 --> 00:49:04,151 gay men may have no future here on Earth. 638 00:49:04,234 --> 00:49:08,071 Our continued existence depends on just how angry you can get. 639 00:49:11,867 --> 00:49:13,667 They turned us away from four emergency rooms. 640 00:49:13,691 --> 00:49:15,620 - Come in! - I think he's lost his mind! 641 00:49:15,704 --> 00:49:18,624 - Ned, where can I take him? - Put him on the couch there. I'll call Emma! 642 00:49:18,648 --> 00:49:20,525 - God damn it! - I'll get some water. 643 00:49:21,877 --> 00:49:24,171 - How long has he been like this? - A couple hours. 644 00:49:28,049 --> 00:49:30,886 Well, I'm glad you asked me that question. 645 00:49:31,178 --> 00:49:32,429 What do I think? 646 00:49:32,512 --> 00:49:36,683 I know that the government is intentionally ignoring this epidemic. 647 00:49:37,434 --> 00:49:40,270 You're accusing the government of the United States 648 00:49:40,353 --> 00:49:42,856 of a conspiracy to murder all gay men? 649 00:49:48,653 --> 00:49:49,654 Yes. 650 00:49:50,363 --> 00:49:53,408 Yes, you can say that. Yes, Sarabeth, I am. Yes. 651 00:49:53,492 --> 00:49:56,286 That is a powerful accusation. 652 00:49:56,411 --> 00:50:00,290 This is an epidemic and it's being ignored by the United States government. 653 00:50:00,373 --> 00:50:02,542 - Intentionally? - Intentionally being ignored. 654 00:50:02,626 --> 00:50:06,254 This is a national emergency. This is an epidemic. It's a plague! 655 00:50:06,338 --> 00:50:09,341 You can't go on national TV and accuse the government of murder, Ned. 656 00:50:09,424 --> 00:50:10,424 Why not? 657 00:50:10,467 --> 00:50:13,345 Because one day, we're gonna get money, research, grants. 658 00:50:13,428 --> 00:50:16,973 Congress still hasn't appropriated a dime. The Mayor's still... On and on! 659 00:50:17,057 --> 00:50:20,519 Ned, when you go public, you have no right to speak for this organization 660 00:50:20,602 --> 00:50:23,897 unless we have approved what you have to say in advance. 661 00:50:23,980 --> 00:50:25,106 You know, in point of fact, 662 00:50:25,190 --> 00:50:29,402 you aren't even an officer of this organization, and you shouldn't be speaking for us at all! 663 00:50:29,903 --> 00:50:31,947 Thank you for sharing that with me, Dick. 664 00:50:46,002 --> 00:50:49,442 Why do you think the city has been so slow to acknowledge and deal with this emergency? 665 00:50:50,715 --> 00:50:54,344 You're implying that the city's recognized and acknowledged this emergency, Malcom. 666 00:50:54,427 --> 00:50:55,907 - It has not. - Why not, do you think? 667 00:50:57,430 --> 00:51:01,059 'Cause the Mayor is gay and he's scared shitless out of his panties it'll blow his cover. 668 00:51:02,185 --> 00:51:04,865 - What did he say? Get off! Commercial. - Are we still rolling? 669 00:51:05,564 --> 00:51:07,899 You can't tell me what to say when I'm speaking for myself. 670 00:51:07,983 --> 00:51:09,359 Bullshit. They all know you're one of us. 671 00:51:09,442 --> 00:51:11,820 It is totally and politically incorrect to call someone gay 672 00:51:11,903 --> 00:51:13,572 who does not self-identify as being gay. 673 00:51:13,655 --> 00:51:16,815 I know it's been that way forever, but something different is going on here now. 674 00:51:16,839 --> 00:51:17,742 We're dying. 675 00:51:17,826 --> 00:51:19,546 The Mayor, he's a personal friend of yours. 676 00:51:19,703 --> 00:51:21,329 You want him to appoint you a judge. 677 00:51:21,413 --> 00:51:23,206 Do you have a little conflict of interest going on here? 678 00:51:23,290 --> 00:51:24,666 I told you. I sent him a memo. 679 00:51:24,749 --> 00:51:25,789 - When? - Through channels. 680 00:51:25,834 --> 00:51:27,002 - When? - He'll answer me. 681 00:51:27,085 --> 00:51:30,880 When? There's 110 new cases this month! 682 00:51:31,047 --> 00:51:33,216 Still, no meeting with our gay mayor. 683 00:51:33,300 --> 00:51:35,218 No meeting with his gay assistant! 684 00:51:38,680 --> 00:51:41,016 What, do I embarrass you, Bruce? 685 00:51:41,474 --> 00:51:43,018 Yes. You do. 686 00:51:43,101 --> 00:51:45,221 Yeah, you get more with honey than with vinegar, babe. 687 00:51:45,305 --> 00:51:46,825 God, no one's told me that one, Tommy. 688 00:51:46,849 --> 00:51:48,481 No, obviously they haven't. 689 00:51:48,565 --> 00:51:50,045 I don't believe that bullshit anyway. 690 00:51:50,129 --> 00:51:52,649 We are in over our heads with the patients we're trying to help. 691 00:51:52,673 --> 00:51:55,363 Tommy, will you please read this report out loud for Ned? 692 00:51:55,447 --> 00:51:58,867 "We have trained 25 crisis counselors 693 00:51:58,950 --> 00:52:02,120 "to help the newly diagnosed in whatever needs that they might have. 694 00:52:02,412 --> 00:52:04,039 "We have 12 group leaders 695 00:52:04,122 --> 00:52:07,375 "who meet with these counselors at least once a week to go over their clients. 696 00:52:07,876 --> 00:52:12,005 "There are now 17 volunteer social workers, psychologists and/or psychiatrists. 697 00:52:12,088 --> 00:52:14,341 "We helped draw up 75 wills last..." 698 00:52:14,424 --> 00:52:16,217 Seventy-five, Bruce. 699 00:52:16,676 --> 00:52:18,136 You used to be a fighter once. 700 00:52:18,219 --> 00:52:21,306 - Did you like being in the Green Berets? - Yes. I loved it. 701 00:52:21,389 --> 00:52:23,350 Have you completely forgotten how to fight? 702 00:52:23,433 --> 00:52:25,993 Don't tell me how to fight. I just fight differently than you do. 703 00:52:26,017 --> 00:52:27,604 - I haven't seen your way yet. - No? 704 00:52:27,687 --> 00:52:30,315 Bruce, Albert may be dying. 705 00:52:30,398 --> 00:52:31,650 You son of a bitch! 706 00:52:31,733 --> 00:52:33,693 You say another word about him... 707 00:52:33,777 --> 00:52:34,944 Relax. 708 00:52:36,071 --> 00:52:37,322 And you, 709 00:52:38,365 --> 00:52:42,827 you have no right being on this board unless you put pressure on your friend, the Mayor. 710 00:52:42,911 --> 00:52:45,789 That's why I asked you to join us in the first place and you know it. 711 00:52:57,592 --> 00:52:59,472 - No. No, I'm not gonna do that. - Why not? 712 00:52:59,555 --> 00:53:03,155 No, you get your free legal work from my firm. I'm not gonna be on your board of directors. 713 00:53:03,179 --> 00:53:05,892 It's only for the stationery. You don't have to do a thing. 714 00:53:05,975 --> 00:53:08,353 That is just an evasion. If you thought this was a straight disease... 715 00:53:08,436 --> 00:53:10,276 It's got nothing to do with you being gay. 716 00:53:10,300 --> 00:53:11,981 What else does it have to do with? 717 00:53:12,065 --> 00:53:13,825 One of these days I'm gonna get you to agree 718 00:53:13,849 --> 00:53:15,860 that over 20 million men and women in this country 719 00:53:15,944 --> 00:53:18,363 don't require the services of a psychiatrist. 720 00:53:18,446 --> 00:53:20,115 Look, try to understand. 721 00:53:20,198 --> 00:53:21,991 You know, I read stuff. I see TV. 722 00:53:22,075 --> 00:53:25,620 Guys in leather, chains, dresses, high heels. 723 00:53:25,870 --> 00:53:27,630 You know, I say to myself, "This isn't Ned." 724 00:53:27,654 --> 00:53:30,291 You know the media always dramatizes the most extreme. 725 00:53:30,375 --> 00:53:32,544 You guys have a dreadful image problem. 726 00:53:32,627 --> 00:53:35,507 Well, that's why it's so important to have people like you supporting us. 727 00:53:35,531 --> 00:53:37,298 You already have your dignity. 728 00:53:37,382 --> 00:53:39,718 We better get to lunch. I've got an important meeting. 729 00:53:39,801 --> 00:53:41,636 Do you? How important? 730 00:53:42,262 --> 00:53:43,388 I'm asking for your support. 731 00:53:43,471 --> 00:53:46,891 In every area I consider important, you have my support. 732 00:53:46,975 --> 00:53:50,854 And the only area that I consider important, I don't have your support at all. 733 00:53:52,313 --> 00:53:55,525 In some place deep down inside you, you still think I'm sick, don't you? 734 00:53:55,608 --> 00:53:57,444 I think you've adjusted to life pretty well. 735 00:53:57,527 --> 00:53:58,570 All things considered. 736 00:53:58,653 --> 00:54:00,739 I saw how unhappy you were. 737 00:54:00,822 --> 00:54:03,908 So were you! You wound up going to shrinks, too. 738 00:54:03,992 --> 00:54:05,994 We grew up side by side. 739 00:54:06,161 --> 00:54:08,705 We both felt the same about Mom and Pop. 740 00:54:08,788 --> 00:54:13,042 I'll agree to the fact that I have any number of awful character traits, 741 00:54:13,126 --> 00:54:18,465 but not to the fact that whatever awful things they did to us made me sick and gay 742 00:54:18,548 --> 00:54:20,759 while you stayed straight and healthy. 743 00:54:20,842 --> 00:54:23,094 We don't all react the same way to the thing. 744 00:54:23,178 --> 00:54:25,430 So you became a lawyer and I became a writer. 745 00:54:25,513 --> 00:54:27,640 Well, we have a difference of opinion over theory. 746 00:54:27,724 --> 00:54:30,101 But your theory turns me into a man from Mars. 747 00:54:30,185 --> 00:54:31,505 My theory doesn't do that to you. 748 00:54:32,771 --> 00:54:36,191 Are you suggesting I did something wrong in sending you into therapy so young? 749 00:54:37,150 --> 00:54:39,030 I didn't know you were gonna stay there forever. 750 00:54:39,054 --> 00:54:41,815 I didn't think that I had done anything wrong until you sent me there. 751 00:54:42,363 --> 00:54:45,909 Ben, you mean more to me than anyone in the whole world. 752 00:54:46,409 --> 00:54:48,036 You always have. 753 00:54:48,119 --> 00:54:49,454 Ben, you've gotta say it. 754 00:54:49,537 --> 00:54:51,206 - Say what? - I am the same as you. 755 00:54:51,289 --> 00:54:52,749 Just say it. Say it. 756 00:55:00,215 --> 00:55:01,216 No. 757 00:55:03,843 --> 00:55:05,220 You're not. 758 00:55:07,138 --> 00:55:08,932 I'm not gonna say it. 759 00:55:11,059 --> 00:55:14,771 Every time I lose this fight, it hurts more. I'm going home. 760 00:55:15,396 --> 00:55:16,648 Oh, come on, Lemon. 761 00:55:16,731 --> 00:55:18,149 I still love you. 762 00:55:18,233 --> 00:55:20,652 Sarah still loves you. The cat still loves you. 763 00:55:20,735 --> 00:55:21,861 This is not a joke! 764 00:55:22,153 --> 00:55:25,698 You have my love, my legal advice, my financial supervision. 765 00:55:25,949 --> 00:55:28,326 I can't give you the courage to stand up to me and say 766 00:55:28,409 --> 00:55:30,289 you don't give a flying fuck about what I think! 767 00:55:30,703 --> 00:55:34,582 Everybody's oppressed by somebody else in some form or another. 768 00:55:35,667 --> 00:55:40,755 Most of us learn to fight against it despite people's opinions without the help of others. 769 00:55:40,839 --> 00:55:44,551 Now stop trying to wring some kind of admission of guilt out of me! 770 00:55:44,634 --> 00:55:47,220 Agreeing that you were born just the same as I was born 771 00:55:47,303 --> 00:55:48,930 isn't gonna save your dying friends. 772 00:55:49,013 --> 00:55:52,517 That is exactly what is going to save my dying friends! 773 00:55:52,600 --> 00:55:54,352 You make it sound like I'm the enemy! 774 00:55:54,435 --> 00:55:57,605 I am beginning to think that you and your straight world are our enemy! 775 00:55:57,689 --> 00:55:59,941 I am furious with you 776 00:56:00,024 --> 00:56:04,320 and every goddamn doctor who made me feel it was sick to love a man! 777 00:56:04,404 --> 00:56:09,701 I am trying to understand why nobody gives a shit that we're dying! 778 00:56:11,494 --> 00:56:15,874 $5 million for a house? We can't even get 27 cents from the city. 779 00:56:15,957 --> 00:56:20,044 I know 43 guys who have died and you say it's my cause, not yours? 780 00:56:20,712 --> 00:56:22,755 You still think I'm sick! 781 00:56:23,590 --> 00:56:27,343 I simply cannot allow it for one single second longer. 782 00:56:27,427 --> 00:56:32,390 I will not speak to you again until you accept me as your equal! 783 00:56:32,473 --> 00:56:35,310 Your healthy equal! Your brother! 784 00:56:43,985 --> 00:56:47,322 Yeah, be careful with that, boys. That is a precious antique. 785 00:56:47,405 --> 00:56:48,615 - Easy. - Mmm-hmm. 786 00:56:48,740 --> 00:56:50,575 Don't you think we should put that in the grand salon? 787 00:56:50,658 --> 00:56:52,410 Do we have a basement? That's where it should go. 788 00:56:52,493 --> 00:56:55,053 Bella, I think it's time we moved your filthy mouth above ground. 789 00:56:55,121 --> 00:56:56,761 I'll decorate tomorrow. 790 00:56:56,785 --> 00:56:58,917 Just shove it all in there the best you can. 791 00:57:00,168 --> 00:57:02,712 Yeah, okay. Knock it off, both of you. 792 00:57:04,297 --> 00:57:05,673 Excuse me. 793 00:57:05,757 --> 00:57:07,008 Yes? Hi. 794 00:57:07,216 --> 00:57:08,259 Hi. 795 00:57:08,635 --> 00:57:13,264 My name is Estelle, and my best friend Harvey died last night. 796 00:57:17,018 --> 00:57:19,646 We went everywhere together, you know? 797 00:57:20,855 --> 00:57:24,442 Like Broadway and the Rockettes and the ice skating. 798 00:57:27,195 --> 00:57:29,238 He was a beautiful skater. 799 00:57:30,281 --> 00:57:33,284 I'm a klutz, but he didn't care. 800 00:57:35,286 --> 00:57:37,038 We had so much fun. 801 00:57:39,040 --> 00:57:41,459 Damn it, I want to do something, 802 00:57:41,542 --> 00:57:45,838 even though all my lesbian friends say, "What have you guys ever done for us?" 803 00:57:45,922 --> 00:57:47,548 But I don't care. 804 00:57:49,384 --> 00:57:51,135 This is for Harvey. 805 00:57:51,719 --> 00:57:55,056 Please. Tell me you can use me for something. 806 00:57:59,310 --> 00:58:00,853 Oh. 807 00:58:03,898 --> 00:58:07,235 I need a hotline director. Do you think you can do that? 808 00:58:07,318 --> 00:58:09,737 - I don't know how. - I don't either. 809 00:58:13,116 --> 00:58:14,200 Hey. 810 00:58:15,451 --> 00:58:19,330 Let me buy you a cup of coffee and we'll figure this out, okay? 811 00:58:19,414 --> 00:58:20,540 Okay. 812 00:58:30,550 --> 00:58:33,803 - So, you want to set up here? - Yeah, this is good, let's do it. 813 00:58:34,345 --> 00:58:35,388 What are you doing? 814 00:58:35,471 --> 00:58:37,974 - We're from the NBC affiliate. - So? 815 00:58:38,057 --> 00:58:40,226 This is the new Gay Men's Health Crisis office? 816 00:58:40,309 --> 00:58:42,603 - Who are you? - I'm Bruce Niles. I'm the president. 817 00:58:42,687 --> 00:58:45,527 I didn't sign any consent form for you to film me or this establishment. 818 00:58:45,606 --> 00:58:46,846 Please turn it off immediately. 819 00:58:46,929 --> 00:58:48,689 - Right now. - Don't touch my camera. 820 00:58:48,713 --> 00:58:51,394 - Who sent you here? - Somebody named Ned. 821 00:58:52,447 --> 00:58:53,614 Weeks. 822 00:58:53,698 --> 00:58:54,782 Oh, great, you're here. 823 00:58:54,866 --> 00:58:56,451 - Anybody homo? - Son of a bitch. 824 00:58:56,534 --> 00:58:58,161 Hello, is this thing rolling? 825 00:58:58,244 --> 00:59:01,539 Look at this! We're in both of them the same week! 826 00:59:01,622 --> 00:59:06,169 Every major network, and now finally, our very first office. 827 00:59:06,294 --> 00:59:09,464 I want to introduce you to our gay president who's in the closet, 828 00:59:09,547 --> 00:59:11,466 and he's so handsome, don't you think? 829 00:59:11,549 --> 00:59:15,094 Such a very handsome cover boy going to waste. 830 00:59:17,221 --> 00:59:20,099 Oh, great. Now you fight. Great! Fight, Bruce! 831 00:59:20,183 --> 00:59:22,602 You make me sound like a coward and I'm not a coward. 832 00:59:22,685 --> 00:59:24,285 You know what? You have nothing to lose. 833 00:59:24,309 --> 00:59:26,230 Your brother invested for you so you have income. 834 00:59:26,314 --> 00:59:30,693 You can be gay 24/7, Ned, but I can't. I can't. So fuck you! 835 00:59:30,777 --> 00:59:32,236 No, fuck you, Bruce. 836 00:59:33,446 --> 00:59:35,239 - Man! - Oh, oh, oh! Jesus! 837 00:59:37,075 --> 00:59:40,578 When I look at you, I am filled with despair. 838 00:59:40,661 --> 00:59:43,164 When I look at you, I worry we're not gonna win. 839 00:59:43,247 --> 00:59:44,957 How do you think this country was founded? 840 00:59:45,041 --> 00:59:48,544 I thought I was getting started with Paul Revere, not some coward. 841 00:59:51,881 --> 00:59:55,259 Ned, look at me! Look at me! Look at me! 842 00:59:56,469 --> 00:59:59,639 We are doomed if we do it your way. Doomed! 843 01:00:00,139 --> 01:00:02,379 How are they gonna help us if they don't know who we are? 844 01:00:02,403 --> 01:00:04,852 They won't help us, Ned, if they do. 845 01:00:11,692 --> 01:00:13,277 Hey, hey, hey. Hey, wait. 846 01:00:13,361 --> 01:00:15,029 Come on! Come on! 847 01:00:15,530 --> 01:00:16,656 Shit. 848 01:00:18,366 --> 01:00:19,450 Shit! 849 01:00:35,007 --> 01:00:36,676 Okay, I'll get it. Sure. 850 01:00:37,385 --> 01:00:41,222 Hello? Yeah, you are our very first call. How can I help you? 851 01:00:43,724 --> 01:00:46,352 I'm sorry. You have the wrong number. 852 01:00:51,190 --> 01:00:53,568 You two gotta pull your shit together now, okay? 853 01:00:55,528 --> 01:00:57,648 And you need to stop being such a fucking drama queen. 854 01:00:57,672 --> 01:00:58,965 God damn. 855 01:01:00,575 --> 01:01:02,160 This is Estelle. 856 01:01:03,244 --> 01:01:04,328 Hey. 857 01:01:04,912 --> 01:01:06,455 How's it going? 858 01:01:06,747 --> 01:01:07,957 Welcome. 859 01:01:59,217 --> 01:02:03,054 Well, we have four hands and two incomes. You're not getting any younger, you know. 860 01:02:03,137 --> 01:02:05,973 All right. Let's leave my age out of this. 861 01:02:14,065 --> 01:02:16,651 - Very beautiful in the country. - Very quiet in the country. 862 01:02:20,571 --> 01:02:23,074 - No, no. Don't you dare. - I have to. 863 01:02:25,117 --> 01:02:26,957 You didn't leave this number on your machine... 864 01:02:28,496 --> 01:02:29,664 - You promised. - Hello? 865 01:02:30,665 --> 01:02:33,334 I do think we should picket the Mayor. 866 01:02:34,252 --> 01:02:37,421 Yes, I said that and I stand by that. Thank you. 867 01:02:38,756 --> 01:02:40,116 You promised. 868 01:02:40,341 --> 01:02:41,759 No, no, no, no, no, no. 869 01:02:41,842 --> 01:02:42,927 Wait. 870 01:02:49,725 --> 01:02:53,312 "And every gay man who is unable to come forward and fight to save his own life 871 01:02:53,604 --> 01:02:55,481 "is truly helping to kill the rest of us." 872 01:02:55,940 --> 01:02:59,020 How many of us have to die before you get scared off your ass and into action? 873 01:02:59,044 --> 01:03:00,045 Thank you. 874 01:03:02,947 --> 01:03:03,990 Who was that? 875 01:03:05,700 --> 01:03:09,287 I hear it's being called the Ned Weeks School of Outrage. 876 01:03:11,372 --> 01:03:14,041 I did speak to one of our science reporters. 877 01:03:14,125 --> 01:03:16,377 - What'd he say? - It turns out he's gay and he won't... 878 01:03:18,587 --> 01:03:19,964 Don't yell at me. 879 01:03:22,967 --> 01:03:25,127 All those shrinks, they must have done something right. 880 01:03:27,179 --> 01:03:29,849 - Dr. Ritvo, Dr. Malev. - Malev. 881 01:03:31,017 --> 01:03:32,393 Dr. Gillespie. 882 01:03:33,519 --> 01:03:36,564 Dr. Patti, Dr. Maxine, Dr. Laverne. 883 01:03:39,233 --> 01:03:41,152 Why does it have to take so long? 884 01:03:41,235 --> 01:03:43,404 All you ever eat is desserts. 885 01:03:43,487 --> 01:03:46,567 Sugar is the most important thing in life. All the rest is just to stay alive. 886 01:03:48,409 --> 01:03:49,410 Mmm. 887 01:03:54,123 --> 01:03:55,124 Argh! 888 01:03:57,084 --> 01:03:59,170 - Shit. - What? 889 01:03:59,253 --> 01:04:03,174 The fucking board! They say I'm causing a panic, that I'm making myself a celebrity. 890 01:04:03,257 --> 01:04:08,012 Not one of them will be interviewed or appear on TV, so I do it all by default. 891 01:04:08,095 --> 01:04:11,474 And you're becoming a leader. And you love to fight. 892 01:04:11,557 --> 01:04:14,685 - I like to fight? Moi? - Who, you? Yeah. 893 01:04:14,769 --> 01:04:16,687 And you're having a great time. 894 01:04:16,771 --> 01:04:18,272 I am. 895 01:04:20,441 --> 01:04:24,612 It's funny, I never wanted to be a leader. I'm not doing very well. 896 01:04:25,988 --> 01:04:27,365 It's sad how much time we lost. 897 01:04:27,698 --> 01:04:29,784 We just weren't ready then. 898 01:04:36,749 --> 01:04:40,252 If I had it, would you leave me? 899 01:04:44,215 --> 01:04:46,384 I don't know. 900 01:04:48,302 --> 01:04:50,721 Would you if I did? 901 01:04:50,805 --> 01:04:51,806 No. 902 01:04:53,307 --> 01:04:54,809 How do you know? 903 01:04:54,892 --> 01:04:58,354 Because my mother ran the local chapter of the Red Cross, and she put me to work 904 01:04:58,479 --> 01:05:01,732 in the blood mobile when I was eight. 905 01:05:01,816 --> 01:05:03,442 I'm not programmed for anything else. 906 01:05:06,737 --> 01:05:08,097 Ned, I have something to tell you. 907 01:05:10,366 --> 01:05:11,450 You're finally pregnant? 908 01:05:15,955 --> 01:05:16,997 I was married once. 909 01:05:21,919 --> 01:05:22,962 You never told me that. 910 01:05:23,337 --> 01:05:24,630 Yeah, I... 911 01:05:25,589 --> 01:05:29,093 She said I had been unfair to her, which I had been. 912 01:05:31,846 --> 01:05:32,888 I have a son. 913 01:05:33,431 --> 01:05:34,515 You have a son? 914 01:05:35,516 --> 01:05:36,559 She won't let me see him. 915 01:05:36,642 --> 01:05:37,935 You can't see your own son? 916 01:05:39,145 --> 01:05:40,771 But didn't you fight? 917 01:05:41,856 --> 01:05:44,066 That means you're ashamed, so he will be, too. 918 01:05:45,693 --> 01:05:49,530 This is why I didn't tell you. Who says I didn't fight, Ned? 919 01:05:49,613 --> 01:05:52,658 Well, what happens to people who can't be as strong as you want them to be? 920 01:05:52,741 --> 01:05:55,119 Weakness scares the shit out of me. 921 01:05:55,202 --> 01:05:58,372 My father was weak and I'm afraid I'll be like him. 922 01:05:58,456 --> 01:06:01,500 His life didn't stand for anything and then it was over! 923 01:06:01,584 --> 01:06:03,836 So I fight constantly, and if I can do it, 924 01:06:03,919 --> 01:06:07,798 I can't understand why everybody else can't do it too, okay? 925 01:06:07,882 --> 01:06:11,385 Where are you going? Felix, where are you going? 926 01:06:15,848 --> 01:06:21,395 Felix, I didn't mean anything by that, Felix. I'm scared of lots of things, really. 927 01:06:21,479 --> 01:06:24,607 Heights. I never told you I'm terrified of... 928 01:06:24,982 --> 01:06:26,025 What? 929 01:06:41,957 --> 01:06:46,128 It's... it keeps getting bigger and bigger. It doesn't go away. 930 01:06:59,308 --> 01:07:00,309 Felix. 931 01:07:03,979 --> 01:07:06,232 Who, may I ask, is Felix? 932 01:07:07,441 --> 01:07:10,694 I've never been so in love in my life. 933 01:07:10,778 --> 01:07:12,947 I've never been in love in my life. 934 01:07:14,949 --> 01:07:18,452 Tell him to come see me first thing tomorrow, 7:30. 935 01:07:19,119 --> 01:07:20,162 Ned, God damn it. 936 01:07:20,371 --> 01:07:23,415 What am I supposed to do, not be with anybody ever? 937 01:07:23,499 --> 01:07:25,584 It's not as easy as you might think. 938 01:07:26,544 --> 01:07:29,129 - Oh, Emma, I'm sorry. - Don't be. 939 01:07:32,299 --> 01:07:33,801 How'd you get it? 940 01:07:34,218 --> 01:07:36,929 I was five years old. 941 01:07:37,012 --> 01:07:40,516 A woman from the Bahamas came to our town carrying the polio virus. 942 01:07:41,600 --> 01:07:46,063 She stayed with friends. Their kid was in my kindergarten class. 943 01:07:46,146 --> 01:07:49,650 Four of us in that class got polio. 944 01:07:50,985 --> 01:07:56,073 I was all dressed up in my Halloween costume to go trick or treating, 945 01:07:56,156 --> 01:07:59,660 and my mother felt my forehead, put me to bed. 946 01:07:59,785 --> 01:08:02,788 In the middle of the night, I realized my whole body 947 01:08:02,871 --> 01:08:05,541 except my arms and my hands were paralyzed. 948 01:08:05,624 --> 01:08:10,462 I was crying out for my mother, "I can't move. I can't move." 949 01:08:10,546 --> 01:08:16,260 They rushed me to the hospital, were told I'd be dead in 24 hours. 950 01:08:16,343 --> 01:08:17,386 I fought. I lived. 951 01:08:17,845 --> 01:08:19,138 Were you in an iron lung? 952 01:08:20,347 --> 01:08:21,599 I was. 953 01:08:22,308 --> 01:08:24,226 Then I was in bed at home. 954 01:08:26,437 --> 01:08:29,440 I was connected to my class with this little, 955 01:08:31,191 --> 01:08:33,319 little loud speaker. 956 01:08:33,402 --> 01:08:36,238 All the children were required to visit me. 957 01:08:37,740 --> 01:08:42,453 We would say, "Hello," and then not know what to say next. 958 01:08:43,537 --> 01:08:49,293 They were all terrified of me. Still are. I scare the shit out of people. 959 01:08:49,376 --> 01:08:52,880 The holy terror in a wheelchair. 960 01:08:53,839 --> 01:08:55,174 I'm scaring people, too. 961 01:08:55,466 --> 01:08:59,970 Learn how to use it. Don't need everybody's love and approval. 962 01:09:01,972 --> 01:09:05,017 Ned, your organization is worthless. 963 01:09:05,142 --> 01:09:07,186 I can't get anyone important on the board. 964 01:09:07,269 --> 01:09:09,938 I've seen over 300 patients, me, one doctor. 965 01:09:10,022 --> 01:09:15,778 All these guys who made millions off of us, fashion, rock, movies, real estate, forget it. 966 01:09:16,403 --> 01:09:20,074 And anytime Bruce doesn't agree with me, he puts it to a board vote. 967 01:09:20,199 --> 01:09:21,200 And you lose. 968 01:09:21,283 --> 01:09:25,579 I can't pass along sex recommendations or any information that isn't 100% certain. 969 01:09:25,663 --> 01:09:30,125 Nothing is 100% certain in science. It wouldn't matter what you say anyway. 970 01:09:30,250 --> 01:09:33,170 Don't yell at me for what I'm not doing. What the fuck is your side doing? 971 01:09:33,194 --> 01:09:34,794 - I don't know! - Well, where's your AMA? 972 01:09:37,883 --> 01:09:40,427 Does being Jewish always make you hungry? 973 01:09:40,511 --> 01:09:41,804 I don't know. I'm not Jewish. 974 01:09:43,806 --> 01:09:44,807 I'm German. 975 01:09:46,517 --> 01:09:49,812 - Everybody thinks you're Jewish. - I know. 976 01:09:49,895 --> 01:09:50,896 In medicine, it helps. 977 01:09:55,109 --> 01:09:57,027 You stayed in bed the whole way through school? 978 01:09:58,362 --> 01:10:03,325 By college I had my first braces and I could walk a little. 979 01:10:04,076 --> 01:10:07,204 I don't walk so good anymore, probably because I'm too busy to practice. 980 01:10:08,706 --> 01:10:12,418 You must practice. Right now. I mean it. 981 01:10:12,876 --> 01:10:14,920 Right now. Come on. 982 01:10:15,003 --> 01:10:16,922 Don't scratch my Mathis. 983 01:10:26,348 --> 01:10:27,474 May I have this dance? 984 01:10:32,146 --> 01:10:34,231 Okay. You asked for it. 985 01:10:39,403 --> 01:10:40,779 Give me crutches. 986 01:10:46,493 --> 01:10:47,745 Mmm. Thank you. 987 01:11:04,428 --> 01:11:06,346 Mmm-mmm. I got it. 988 01:11:11,393 --> 01:11:12,770 Oh! Okay. Okay. 989 01:11:12,853 --> 01:11:14,021 Mmm-mmm. 990 01:11:36,210 --> 01:11:37,586 I'm afraid to leave him alone now. 991 01:11:39,046 --> 01:11:41,673 I'm afraid a cure won't come in time. 992 01:11:42,716 --> 01:11:45,302 I'm afraid of my anger. 993 01:11:46,678 --> 01:11:47,971 I'm a terrible leader and... 994 01:11:48,055 --> 01:11:49,640 A lousy dancer. Put me back. 995 01:12:09,868 --> 01:12:11,245 Polio was a virus, too. 996 01:12:16,416 --> 01:12:18,252 Nobody gets polio anymore. 997 01:12:46,029 --> 01:12:48,615 Where is he? I mean, we've been here for an hour and a half. 998 01:12:49,491 --> 01:12:51,611 Who are these people? We're in a fucking dungeon here! 999 01:12:53,495 --> 01:12:56,999 He can't do this to us. He cannot do this to us and get away with it. 1000 01:12:59,126 --> 01:13:01,753 - Did you start? No? Thank God. Hi. - Hi. 1001 01:13:01,837 --> 01:13:03,547 Jesus Christ, what a tomb. 1002 01:13:03,964 --> 01:13:06,174 What, do they not want us to be seen above ground? 1003 01:13:06,258 --> 01:13:08,051 Where is he? I'm an hour late. 1004 01:13:08,135 --> 01:13:10,721 - An hour and a half. - Yeah, don't start on me, lamb chop. 1005 01:13:10,804 --> 01:13:13,807 - Tommy, where were you? - I was up at Bellevue. 1006 01:13:13,891 --> 01:13:17,394 I had to put a sweet, dying child together with his momma. 1007 01:13:17,644 --> 01:13:21,106 They hadn't seen each other for 15 years. 1008 01:13:21,189 --> 01:13:24,192 He never told her he was gay. He didn't want to see her. 1009 01:13:24,276 --> 01:13:28,947 He refused to see her for weeks. Oh, he was angry when I waltzed in with her. 1010 01:13:31,199 --> 01:13:35,746 That was a real weeper, momma holding her son. He's dead now. 1011 01:13:38,498 --> 01:13:42,127 I'm truly sorry I'm late. I'm Hiram Keebler. 1012 01:13:42,210 --> 01:13:43,253 - Hello. - Hi. 1013 01:13:43,337 --> 01:13:46,089 Are you related to the folks who make the crackers? I'm kidding. 1014 01:13:46,173 --> 01:13:48,425 - I'm Tommy Boatwright. - Ned Weeks. 1015 01:13:50,177 --> 01:13:52,262 Bruce Niles. I'm the president. 1016 01:13:52,346 --> 01:13:55,066 The Mayor wants you to know how much he cares and how impressed he is 1017 01:13:55,090 --> 01:13:58,260 with how you've been shouldering your own responsibilities. 1018 01:13:59,186 --> 01:14:01,605 - Thank you. - Thank you? Responsibilities? 1019 01:14:01,688 --> 01:14:04,808 Everything we're doing is the stuff you guys should be doing, and we need help. 1020 01:14:04,832 --> 01:14:07,611 What Mr. Weeks is trying to say, sir, is that we're swamped, 1021 01:14:07,694 --> 01:14:11,823 and we're fielding over 500 calls a day on our emergency hotline, 1022 01:14:11,907 --> 01:14:15,953 and we're providing information that quite frankly the city should be providing and isn't. 1023 01:14:16,036 --> 01:14:18,246 Sir, we need office space. We have one small room. 1024 01:14:18,372 --> 01:14:20,892 We have over 100 people calling or walking in and out every day, 1025 01:14:20,916 --> 01:14:23,627 and plus, it's real hard when people don't want to rent to us because... 1026 01:14:23,710 --> 01:14:26,296 - Oh, that's illegal discrimination. - Yeah, we know that to be true, sir. 1027 01:14:26,380 --> 01:14:29,020 Mr. Keebler, it is not illegal to discriminate against homosexuals. 1028 01:14:29,049 --> 01:14:31,593 We've been waiting for 14 months to see the Mayor. 1029 01:14:31,677 --> 01:14:33,220 It's taken us a year to get this meeting with you. 1030 01:14:33,303 --> 01:14:34,721 You're an hour and a half late. 1031 01:14:34,805 --> 01:14:36,974 Have you told the Mayor there's an epidemic going on? 1032 01:14:37,057 --> 01:14:38,517 - Says who? - The government. 1033 01:14:38,600 --> 01:14:40,686 Which government? What, our government? An epidemic? 1034 01:14:40,769 --> 01:14:43,489 - The Centers for Disease Control declared... - Seventeen months ago. 1035 01:14:43,513 --> 01:14:44,564 You can't not know this! 1036 01:14:44,648 --> 01:14:46,488 Will you please reduce your level of hysteria? 1037 01:14:46,512 --> 01:14:47,931 Certainly. 1038 01:14:49,152 --> 01:14:54,116 New York City, San Francisco, Los Angeles, Chicago, Boston, Denver, 1039 01:14:54,199 --> 01:14:57,828 every single major American city is now showing cases. 1040 01:14:57,911 --> 01:15:01,415 At least 25 foreign countries, but New York City, our home, 1041 01:15:01,498 --> 01:15:04,710 the city that you have pledged to protect has more than half of everything. 1042 01:15:04,793 --> 01:15:06,503 Half the cases, half the dead. 1043 01:15:06,586 --> 01:15:09,256 I know 57 of the dead ones. I don't want to know any more. 1044 01:15:09,339 --> 01:15:11,258 Now, when do we get to see the Mayor? 1045 01:15:11,341 --> 01:15:13,593 Fourteen months is a long time to be out to lunch. 1046 01:15:13,802 --> 01:15:16,430 - You wait a minute. - No, you wait a minute. We can't. 1047 01:15:16,513 --> 01:15:20,600 Time is not on our side. Now if you won't take word to the man, what are we gonna do? 1048 01:15:20,726 --> 01:15:23,520 Hire a hunky hustler and send him up to Gracie Mansion 1049 01:15:23,603 --> 01:15:24,938 with a plea tattooed to his cock? 1050 01:15:25,022 --> 01:15:26,773 Mayor Koch is not gay! 1051 01:15:26,857 --> 01:15:29,985 Oh, come on, Blanche! 1052 01:15:31,778 --> 01:15:34,823 Listen, don't you think I want to help you? 1053 01:15:36,116 --> 01:15:40,704 I have a friend who is dying of this shit right now in the VA hospital. 1054 01:15:41,288 --> 01:15:42,289 But it's very tricky. 1055 01:15:43,331 --> 01:15:45,083 You can see that. It is very tricky. 1056 01:15:45,167 --> 01:15:49,046 Tricky, shit. There are a million gay people in New York, a million and one counting you! 1057 01:15:49,129 --> 01:15:52,716 You know what? A fire goes out in a school furnace on the West Side, 1058 01:15:52,799 --> 01:15:56,970 I get 3,000 calls in one day. You know what I mean? 1059 01:15:58,096 --> 01:16:01,266 If so many of you are so upset, why am I only hearing from this loud mouth? 1060 01:16:01,349 --> 01:16:02,726 That's a very good question. 1061 01:16:02,809 --> 01:16:05,937 Okay, so there are half a million gay men in our area. 1062 01:16:06,021 --> 01:16:11,234 315 cases doesn't seem too high considering how many of us, of you, there are. 1063 01:16:11,318 --> 01:16:12,861 - This is bullshit! - Ned, please. 1064 01:16:13,612 --> 01:16:16,052 Look, I understand this is tricky, sir, but we need your help. 1065 01:16:16,076 --> 01:16:18,575 I think, that is, the Mayor thinks, you guys are overreacting. 1066 01:16:18,658 --> 01:16:24,331 You tell that cocksucker he is a selfish, heartless son of a bitch. 1067 01:16:30,587 --> 01:16:32,214 You are Michael R. Marcus. 1068 01:16:32,297 --> 01:16:34,758 You hold an unsecure job with the city's Department of Health. 1069 01:16:34,841 --> 01:16:36,641 I'd watch out for your friends if I were you. 1070 01:16:48,688 --> 01:16:50,565 I don't believe that just happened. 1071 01:16:50,649 --> 01:16:54,653 Mickey, I am going on The Today Show tomorrow and I am telling them 1072 01:16:54,736 --> 01:16:57,823 that the Mayor just threatened your job to shut us up! 1073 01:16:57,906 --> 01:16:59,658 The Today Show? You're gonna what? 1074 01:16:59,741 --> 01:17:02,869 They are treating us like shit and we're allowing them! 1075 01:17:02,953 --> 01:17:06,498 No politicians... The only thing they really respond to is pressure! 1076 01:17:06,581 --> 01:17:11,002 You heard him with his 3,000 West Side calls! We're not yelling loud enough! 1077 01:17:16,299 --> 01:17:19,803 Get your stuff. Get your stuff. 1078 01:17:39,114 --> 01:17:43,118 - This is Tommy. Hey. - Tommy, it's Ned. Nick died. 1079 01:17:44,911 --> 01:17:48,415 Shit. God damn. 1080 01:17:49,416 --> 01:17:53,378 I'll call later when I know more about the memorial. 1081 01:18:00,302 --> 01:18:01,887 I have this tradition. 1082 01:18:03,889 --> 01:18:06,057 It's something I do now when a friend dies. 1083 01:18:09,311 --> 01:18:10,937 I save his Rolodex card. 1084 01:18:12,689 --> 01:18:17,235 What am I supposed to do? Throw it away in the trashcan? I won't do that. 1085 01:18:18,528 --> 01:18:22,032 No, I won't. It's too final. 1086 01:18:25,619 --> 01:18:27,495 Last year, I had five cards. 1087 01:18:29,122 --> 01:18:32,000 Now I have 50. 1088 01:18:32,083 --> 01:18:36,463 A collection of cardboard tombstones bound together with a rubber band. 1089 01:18:38,715 --> 01:18:42,552 I hate these fucking funerals. I really do. 1090 01:18:44,346 --> 01:18:48,391 And you know what else I hate? I hate the memorials. 1091 01:18:48,475 --> 01:18:51,978 That's our social life now, going to these things. 1092 01:18:58,902 --> 01:19:02,072 Nick was a choreographer. 1093 01:19:02,155 --> 01:19:04,950 I don't know if any of you knew that. 1094 01:19:05,242 --> 01:19:08,078 He was just starting out. He didn't tell a lot of people. 1095 01:19:09,663 --> 01:19:13,291 He was waiting to invite you to his big debut at Carnegie Hall 1096 01:19:13,375 --> 01:19:16,878 or some shit so we could all be proud of him. 1097 01:19:19,506 --> 01:19:22,717 But he was so good. 1098 01:19:22,801 --> 01:19:25,387 He had such promise. 1099 01:19:28,390 --> 01:19:31,893 We're losing an entire generation. 1100 01:19:32,852 --> 01:19:36,147 Young men at the beginning, just gone. 1101 01:19:37,691 --> 01:19:43,363 Choreographers, playwrights, dancers, actors, 1102 01:19:45,824 --> 01:19:48,910 all those plays that won't get written now, 1103 01:19:51,413 --> 01:19:54,916 all those dances never to be danced. 1104 01:19:59,546 --> 01:20:03,008 In closing, I'm just gonna say I'm mad. 1105 01:20:03,091 --> 01:20:06,303 I'm fucking mad. 1106 01:20:06,386 --> 01:20:10,181 I keep screaming inside, "Why are they letting us die? 1107 01:20:10,265 --> 01:20:12,392 "Why is no one helping us?" 1108 01:20:17,397 --> 01:20:20,900 And here's the truth. Here's the answer. 1109 01:20:24,863 --> 01:20:26,823 They just don't like us. 1110 01:21:41,314 --> 01:21:42,899 I'm going to beat this. 1111 01:21:45,110 --> 01:21:48,613 I've always been lucky. 1112 01:21:50,073 --> 01:21:52,033 Good. That's the right attitude. 1113 01:21:54,202 --> 01:21:57,705 I wanted a job on The Times, I got it. 1114 01:21:58,123 --> 01:21:59,833 I wanted Ned. 1115 01:22:05,046 --> 01:22:06,506 Have I given it to Ned? 1116 01:22:07,715 --> 01:22:08,716 I don't know. 1117 01:22:15,473 --> 01:22:20,603 One person has a cold, sometimes the partner catches it, sometimes not. 1118 01:22:21,187 --> 01:22:24,357 Some doctors are saying it's okay if we use condoms. 1119 01:22:24,482 --> 01:22:25,483 I know they are. 1120 01:22:40,623 --> 01:22:42,041 - Can we kiss? - Felix, 1121 01:22:42,625 --> 01:22:46,129 you have nothing to fight back with. You have no immune system to speak of. 1122 01:22:46,212 --> 01:22:49,174 Your body is now open to every conceivable type of infection. 1123 01:22:49,257 --> 01:22:52,177 You must be careful. I'm going to do my damnedest. So must you. 1124 01:22:54,888 --> 01:22:57,765 - I bet you say that to all the boys. - As a matter of fact, 1125 01:22:58,766 --> 01:22:59,767 I do. 1126 01:23:23,625 --> 01:23:25,502 Oh, God. 1127 01:23:30,548 --> 01:23:31,925 Oh. 1128 01:23:37,180 --> 01:23:42,393 Once upon a time, there was a little boy who always wanted to love another little boy. 1129 01:23:42,894 --> 01:23:45,939 One day, he finally found that love, and it was wonderful. 1130 01:23:48,399 --> 01:23:52,362 I'm supposed to use gloves. I'm supposed to do this. I'm supposed to do that. 1131 01:23:52,445 --> 01:23:54,197 I'm supposed to not kiss him. 1132 01:23:54,280 --> 01:23:55,280 I'm so sorry. 1133 01:23:55,323 --> 01:23:57,617 I'm not supposed to be only 45 years old 1134 01:23:57,700 --> 01:24:02,497 and taking care of a 35-year-old young man who's 100 years old and dying. 1135 01:24:07,293 --> 01:24:08,920 Emma calls it a seesaw. 1136 01:24:10,338 --> 01:24:14,509 He's fine. He gets sick. He gets better. 1137 01:24:17,554 --> 01:24:19,472 He gets sicker. 1138 01:24:19,639 --> 01:24:22,809 God help me. 1139 01:24:35,613 --> 01:24:38,449 He's afraid I'll leave him. 1140 01:24:38,950 --> 01:24:40,660 I told him I wouldn't leave him, 1141 01:24:42,203 --> 01:24:45,290 that I never, for one second, would think of leaving him. 1142 01:24:45,498 --> 01:24:47,375 But he doesn't believe me. 1143 01:24:49,669 --> 01:24:53,006 It's hard to believe in much these days. 1144 01:24:53,089 --> 01:24:56,593 But we must never stop believing in each other. 1145 01:25:02,056 --> 01:25:05,560 I'm a mess. That's what I am. 1146 01:25:09,480 --> 01:25:13,109 You cry and you cry until you think you can't cry anymore. 1147 01:25:14,611 --> 01:25:17,488 And then you cry some more. 1148 01:25:23,036 --> 01:25:26,789 Not only for yourself and Felix, but for all the little boys 1149 01:25:26,873 --> 01:25:29,834 who finally found their other little boys they've wanted all their lives 1150 01:25:29,917 --> 01:25:32,253 now that we're men. 1151 01:25:37,050 --> 01:25:39,177 GMHC. 1152 01:25:39,260 --> 01:25:40,845 Estelle speaking. How may I assist you? 1153 01:25:41,346 --> 01:25:42,472 Someone needs a will. 1154 01:25:42,555 --> 01:25:43,995 Where's Ned? I want to speak to him. 1155 01:25:44,078 --> 01:25:45,998 - He's in the back. - Here, give him this number. 1156 01:25:46,022 --> 01:25:46,601 GMHC. 1157 01:25:46,726 --> 01:25:47,727 GMHC. 1158 01:25:47,852 --> 01:25:51,314 Tommy, I think I got us maybe four qualified social workers to volunteer. 1159 01:25:51,397 --> 01:25:53,191 They're all lesbians. 1160 01:25:53,274 --> 01:25:54,954 Thank God for the lesbians. 1161 01:25:54,978 --> 01:26:00,484 Your anus? Oh, Planet Uranus. Thank you for sharing. 1162 01:26:02,742 --> 01:26:03,942 Mickey, why aren't you in Rio? 1163 01:26:04,369 --> 01:26:06,996 I put the phones on service. You guys should get some rest. 1164 01:26:07,372 --> 01:26:09,791 We don't want any burn-out. 1165 01:26:09,874 --> 01:26:12,752 - Good night, Phil. Thank you. - Good night, honey. 1166 01:26:13,544 --> 01:26:15,380 - Night. Good night, sweetie. - Bye, baby. 1167 01:26:15,463 --> 01:26:17,590 - Good work today. - All right. 1168 01:26:21,803 --> 01:26:24,263 Phil got diagnosed today. 1169 01:26:29,477 --> 01:26:31,396 Mickey, why aren't you on vacation in Rio? 1170 01:26:31,938 --> 01:26:34,941 I was in Rio. Gregory and I were in Rio. 1171 01:26:36,359 --> 01:26:39,862 I get a call from Hiram's office saying I should be in his office 1172 01:26:39,946 --> 01:26:41,386 right away first thing this morning. 1173 01:26:41,410 --> 01:26:43,162 From Rio? What kind of meeting? 1174 01:26:44,617 --> 01:26:48,496 I get to City Hall. Hiram keeps me waiting forever, 1175 01:26:48,579 --> 01:26:51,332 and finally the commissioner comes out and he says 1176 01:26:51,416 --> 01:26:54,293 that Hiram doesn't want to see me anymore. 1177 01:26:55,837 --> 01:26:59,966 I wanted to scream, "I haven't slept in two days, you dumb fuck!" 1178 01:27:01,718 --> 01:27:07,640 But I didn't. Instead, I said, "Please, sir, then why did he make me come 1179 01:27:07,724 --> 01:27:10,643 "all the way back from Rio?" 1180 01:27:10,727 --> 01:27:14,230 And he says, "Oh, I'm afraid he didn't take me into his confidence," 1181 01:27:14,313 --> 01:27:16,023 and he walks off. 1182 01:27:18,359 --> 01:27:22,029 Ned's article attacking Hiram just came out. 1183 01:27:22,113 --> 01:27:25,116 I'm not gonna lose my job because Ned doesn't like himself. 1184 01:27:25,199 --> 01:27:26,200 What's that, Mick? 1185 01:27:28,369 --> 01:27:31,748 You keep trying to get us to say things that we don't want to say, 1186 01:27:31,831 --> 01:27:35,543 and I don't think we can afford to make so many enemies before we have enough friends. 1187 01:27:35,626 --> 01:27:40,757 Terry Spalding is calling all of his friends from under his oxygen tank to say goodbye. 1188 01:27:40,840 --> 01:27:45,928 Tibby Maurer took an overdose. Hal Schechter has got stumps for feet. 1189 01:27:46,012 --> 01:27:47,930 Frannie Santuzza has lost his mind. 1190 01:27:48,014 --> 01:27:49,599 Will you stop it? Just stop! 1191 01:27:51,058 --> 01:27:53,436 - Mickey, are you all right? - I don't think so. 1192 01:27:55,730 --> 01:27:57,273 Why can't they find the virus? 1193 01:27:58,024 --> 01:27:59,025 Baby, it takes time. 1194 01:27:59,942 --> 01:28:05,072 I work all day for this city writing stuff on breast feeding versus formula 1195 01:28:05,198 --> 01:28:06,878 and how to stay calm when you have herpes, 1196 01:28:06,902 --> 01:28:09,952 and at night, I work on our newsletter and our health column for The Native, 1197 01:28:10,036 --> 01:28:12,205 and I don't... I just... 1198 01:28:12,330 --> 01:28:17,251 I can't take it anymore. I have written about every single theory. 1199 01:28:17,335 --> 01:28:20,880 Repeated infection by a virus, new appearance by a dormant virus, 1200 01:28:20,963 --> 01:28:26,928 single virus, new virus, old virus, multi-virus, partial virus, latent virus, mutant virus... 1201 01:28:27,011 --> 01:28:29,138 Okay. Okay. Take it easy, honey. 1202 01:28:29,222 --> 01:28:31,942 No, we mustn't forget about fucking and sucking and kissing and blood 1203 01:28:31,974 --> 01:28:35,937 and voodoo and drugs and paupers and needles and Africa, Haiti, Cuba, 1204 01:28:36,020 --> 01:28:40,107 blacks, amoebas, pigs, fucking Uranus! 1205 01:28:44,153 --> 01:28:45,313 What if it isn't any of them? 1206 01:28:45,822 --> 01:28:46,906 I don't know. 1207 01:28:47,907 --> 01:28:50,952 The Great Plague of London was caused by drinking water from a pump 1208 01:28:51,035 --> 01:28:54,539 that just, nobody noticed it. 1209 01:28:55,790 --> 01:28:58,876 Maybe it's predisposition or there's just the theory of the herd. 1210 01:28:58,960 --> 01:29:03,214 Only so many of us are gonna get it and then the pool's used up. 1211 01:29:03,297 --> 01:29:07,510 What's if it's monogamy? Bruce, you and I could actually be worse off 1212 01:29:07,593 --> 01:29:11,389 because of constant bombardment from a single source, our lovers. 1213 01:29:12,390 --> 01:29:15,550 So maybe the guys who go to the baths, maybe they've built up the best immunity. 1214 01:29:15,574 --> 01:29:19,397 I don't know. I don't know what to tell anybody anymore, and everybody asks me. 1215 01:29:19,480 --> 01:29:22,942 Who's right? I don't know. Who's wrong? 1216 01:29:23,067 --> 01:29:28,072 I feel so fucking inadequate. How can we tell people, "Stop"? 1217 01:29:28,781 --> 01:29:32,285 It's just, I don't... it might be caused by... 1218 01:29:32,368 --> 01:29:33,828 I don't know. I don't know. 1219 01:29:34,245 --> 01:29:35,621 That's exactly how I feel. 1220 01:29:36,998 --> 01:29:40,084 And maybe he's right. And that scares me. 1221 01:29:40,960 --> 01:29:45,715 Neddy, you scare me. You really think the President, 1222 01:29:45,840 --> 01:29:47,174 that he wants this to happen? 1223 01:29:47,258 --> 01:29:50,469 You really think the CIA has unleashed germ warfare 1224 01:29:50,595 --> 01:29:53,139 to kill off all the queers that Jerry Falwell doesn't want? 1225 01:29:53,514 --> 01:29:55,516 - Mick, try to hold on. - To what? 1226 01:29:56,976 --> 01:29:58,853 I used to love my country. 1227 01:29:58,936 --> 01:30:01,336 The Native received an anonymous letter describing top secret 1228 01:30:01,397 --> 01:30:04,233 Defense Department experiments at Fort Detrick, Maryland, 1229 01:30:04,317 --> 01:30:07,820 that have produced a virus that can destroy the immune system. 1230 01:30:07,904 --> 01:30:09,739 Its code name was "Firm Hand." 1231 01:30:09,822 --> 01:30:12,742 They started testing it in 1978 on a group of gays. 1232 01:30:12,825 --> 01:30:14,535 I never used to believe shit like this. 1233 01:30:14,619 --> 01:30:17,914 They're gonna persecute us. They're gonna cancel our health insurance. 1234 01:30:17,997 --> 01:30:19,916 They're gonna put us into camps. They're gonna quarantine us. 1235 01:30:19,999 --> 01:30:21,667 And you think that I'm killing people? 1236 01:30:21,751 --> 01:30:22,919 That is not what I said. 1237 01:30:23,002 --> 01:30:25,671 It is! You know you said it. 1238 01:30:27,089 --> 01:30:31,677 I've spent 15 years of my life fighting for our right to be free and to make love 1239 01:30:31,761 --> 01:30:35,389 wherever, whenever, and you're telling me all those years of what being gay stood for 1240 01:30:35,473 --> 01:30:38,976 is wrong and that I'm a murderer! 1241 01:30:41,187 --> 01:30:45,483 We have been so oppressed. Don't you remember? 1242 01:30:45,608 --> 01:30:51,697 Can't you see how important it is for us to love openly without hiding, without guilt? 1243 01:30:53,032 --> 01:30:55,868 Why can't you see that? 1244 01:30:59,789 --> 01:31:01,749 I went to the top of the Empire State Building. 1245 01:31:01,874 --> 01:31:03,125 Okay, I'm taking you home. 1246 01:31:03,209 --> 01:31:05,169 You can jump off from there when nobody's looking. 1247 01:31:05,193 --> 01:31:08,029 All right, Mickey. Let's go home right now. 1248 01:31:13,219 --> 01:31:16,722 I'm not a murderer. I'm not. 1249 01:31:17,306 --> 01:31:23,020 All my life I've been hated for being gay, for being short, for being Jewish. 1250 01:31:23,980 --> 01:31:25,260 So go ahead. You tell everybody. 1251 01:31:25,314 --> 01:31:27,483 Tell everybody that we were wrong and I'm sorry. 1252 01:31:27,566 --> 01:31:31,570 Someday, somebody's gonna come along and they're gonna stick the knife in you 1253 01:31:31,654 --> 01:31:34,949 and tell you everything that you've fought for your whole life is shit! 1254 01:31:35,032 --> 01:31:39,245 Mickey! Mickey! Get up! Get up. Get up. 1255 01:31:39,370 --> 01:31:41,539 - It's okay. - Come on. 1256 01:31:42,581 --> 01:31:45,793 I'm gonna take you home now, okay? 1257 01:31:45,876 --> 01:31:49,380 I don't want to go home. Take me to St. Vincent's. 1258 01:31:50,047 --> 01:31:53,551 Okay. That's fine. Come. Let's go. 1259 01:31:55,011 --> 01:31:58,097 Look, we're all real tired, you hear me? 1260 01:31:58,264 --> 01:32:02,184 We got ourselves here a lot of bereavement overload. 1261 01:32:09,275 --> 01:32:12,737 We're the fighters. Aren't we? We're the... 1262 01:32:12,820 --> 01:32:16,532 You bet, sweetness. And you're a hero. 1263 01:32:16,615 --> 01:32:20,119 You hear me? You're a hero whether you know that or not. 1264 01:32:21,579 --> 01:32:24,790 You're our first hero. Let's go. 1265 01:32:34,967 --> 01:32:38,387 - You want to be president? - I just want Felix to live. 1266 01:32:50,191 --> 01:32:53,694 Gay Men's Health Crisis. 1267 01:32:53,778 --> 01:32:56,405 Hiram, old buddy, how's it hanging? 1268 01:33:04,455 --> 01:33:06,123 Mmm. 1269 01:33:10,836 --> 01:33:12,838 - Are you ready? - Yeah. 1270 01:33:13,714 --> 01:33:17,551 The Mayor's found a secret little fund for giving away money secretly. 1271 01:33:18,010 --> 01:33:21,222 We are not allowed to tell anyone where we got it, and if we do, 1272 01:33:21,305 --> 01:33:22,348 we'll never get any more. 1273 01:33:23,390 --> 01:33:25,684 - How much? - $9,000. 1274 01:33:27,353 --> 01:33:28,395 Ned. 1275 01:33:32,441 --> 01:33:33,692 Albert's dead. 1276 01:33:37,488 --> 01:33:41,742 His mother wanted to see him in Phoenix before he died, 1277 01:33:41,826 --> 01:33:45,204 and this was the last week when it was obvious, 1278 01:33:45,287 --> 01:33:48,958 so I got permission from Emma and took him to the airport. 1279 01:33:58,259 --> 01:33:59,499 And when we got to the airport, 1280 01:34:00,219 --> 01:34:03,556 the pilot refused to fly the plane, 1281 01:34:03,639 --> 01:34:07,309 so I refused to get off of it. 1282 01:34:07,393 --> 01:34:10,062 You would have been very proud of me, Ned. 1283 01:34:11,397 --> 01:34:13,899 So finally we get another pilot, 1284 01:34:15,901 --> 01:34:17,194 and when we take off, 1285 01:34:18,863 --> 01:34:20,906 Albert just loses his mind. 1286 01:34:22,324 --> 01:34:24,204 - I don't want to be in this plane. - It's okay. 1287 01:34:24,285 --> 01:34:25,661 I don't want to be in this... 1288 01:34:25,744 --> 01:34:27,288 I'm just gonna go. 1289 01:34:27,371 --> 01:34:30,875 - No. Albert. - I don't want to be here. 1290 01:34:30,958 --> 01:34:32,251 - I don't want to... - Tell him to sit down. 1291 01:34:33,919 --> 01:34:35,421 Sorry. Sorry. 1292 01:34:35,546 --> 01:34:37,965 Sir? Sir? You have to keep seated. 1293 01:34:38,924 --> 01:34:39,925 Sit down! 1294 01:34:40,009 --> 01:34:42,219 - Sir, I repeat. You have... - No! 1295 01:34:44,096 --> 01:34:45,598 - Sir! Sir! - Stop! 1296 01:34:46,265 --> 01:34:49,435 You have to sit down, okay? 1297 01:34:49,602 --> 01:34:52,354 - Get him back in his seat. - He doesn't recognize me. 1298 01:34:54,148 --> 01:34:55,608 it's me. 1299 01:34:55,691 --> 01:34:57,067 He doesn't know where we're going. 1300 01:34:57,151 --> 01:34:58,194 We're almost home. 1301 01:34:58,277 --> 01:35:00,446 That we're going to see his mother in Phoenix, nothing. 1302 01:35:03,324 --> 01:35:04,491 He just becomes... 1303 01:35:06,660 --> 01:35:09,330 Oh, shit. Can I get a goddamn towel, please? 1304 01:35:09,413 --> 01:35:12,708 When we land in Phoenix and when we get to the hospital 1305 01:35:13,792 --> 01:35:16,754 where his mother had fixed up the room real nice, 1306 01:35:20,466 --> 01:35:21,967 Albert's dead. 1307 01:35:27,348 --> 01:35:31,560 The hospital doctors refused to examine him and give him a cause of death 1308 01:35:31,644 --> 01:35:34,355 on his death certificate. Without the death certificate, 1309 01:35:34,438 --> 01:35:37,858 the undertakers will not take him and neither would the police. 1310 01:35:37,942 --> 01:35:39,568 Come on, man. Pull it down. 1311 01:35:40,653 --> 01:35:43,530 Finally, some orderly comes and then stuffs my Albert 1312 01:35:44,240 --> 01:35:47,743 in an oversized Glad garbage bag and puts him in the alley 1313 01:35:47,826 --> 01:35:49,328 with the rest of the garbage. 1314 01:35:51,121 --> 01:35:55,626 I did you a favor, man. I got him out. I want 50 bucks. 1315 01:36:19,775 --> 01:36:21,068 Is that all of him? 1316 01:36:21,151 --> 01:36:24,989 Yep. You want him? $3,000. 1317 01:36:33,330 --> 01:36:35,708 He's gone. He's gone. 1318 01:36:37,209 --> 01:36:38,544 Oh, my God. 1319 01:36:43,590 --> 01:36:44,591 Oh, God. 1320 01:36:47,344 --> 01:36:50,723 I am telling you, they are murdering us and we are letting them. 1321 01:36:51,056 --> 01:36:52,683 - We're gonna die. 1322 01:36:52,766 --> 01:36:54,310 We're gonna die very soon 1323 01:36:54,393 --> 01:36:57,146 unless you get off your fucking asses and fight back. 1324 01:37:13,829 --> 01:37:15,289 Emma's in there waiting. 1325 01:37:28,761 --> 01:37:30,721 Come on, two bites. Come on. 1326 01:37:33,140 --> 01:37:34,767 Don't make me break out the yogurt. 1327 01:37:39,521 --> 01:37:43,233 - One more. - Have you talked to your brother yet? 1328 01:37:47,154 --> 01:37:48,155 Mmm. 1329 01:37:50,699 --> 01:37:52,451 I remember that about you. 1330 01:37:54,286 --> 01:37:57,122 You don't talk to the people you love most in the world. 1331 01:38:04,338 --> 01:38:08,634 You want me to get better, and I'm not getting better and I feel so fucking guilty. 1332 01:38:21,980 --> 01:38:25,484 You have a lunch meeting with Bill Blass on Friday. Fancy. 1333 01:38:25,567 --> 01:38:26,568 Mmm. 1334 01:38:28,404 --> 01:38:30,239 I'll call with my regrets. 1335 01:38:33,158 --> 01:38:34,159 What are you doing? 1336 01:38:34,493 --> 01:38:36,370 I'm making a date with you two months from now. 1337 01:38:37,329 --> 01:38:40,833 I've been invited to speak at Yale's Gay Week and we're going. 1338 01:38:41,208 --> 01:38:43,627 Remember how I told you they had those dances there now? 1339 01:38:43,710 --> 01:38:45,003 You're my date. 1340 01:39:15,284 --> 01:39:16,660 I want you to live so much. 1341 01:39:16,743 --> 01:39:19,621 - Don't say it. - I'm not supposed to say that. 1342 01:39:25,752 --> 01:39:28,714 Please, God, give us one more year. 1343 01:39:32,885 --> 01:39:34,803 I promise I'll eat my spinach. 1344 01:40:00,662 --> 01:40:05,667 I am taking care of more victims of this disease than anyone in the world. 1345 01:40:06,126 --> 01:40:08,212 We have more frozen blood samples, 1346 01:40:08,295 --> 01:40:11,882 more data of every kind and much more experience. 1347 01:40:15,344 --> 01:40:18,764 Dr. Brookner, the government's position is this. 1348 01:40:19,348 --> 01:40:22,768 There are $5 million in the pipeline for which we have received 1349 01:40:22,851 --> 01:40:25,687 over $55 million worth of requests. 1350 01:40:25,771 --> 01:40:29,566 5 million doesn't seem quite right for some 2,000 cases? 1351 01:40:29,650 --> 01:40:34,321 The government spent 3 million investigating seven deaths from Tylenol. 1352 01:40:34,446 --> 01:40:35,697 We're entering the third year. 1353 01:40:35,948 --> 01:40:37,828 We voted to reject your application for funding. 1354 01:40:39,493 --> 01:40:40,494 Oh. 1355 01:40:42,120 --> 01:40:43,622 I'd like to hear your reasons. 1356 01:40:43,956 --> 01:40:48,335 The direction of the research you're suggesting is imprecise and unfocused. 1357 01:40:48,418 --> 01:40:49,419 Oh, it is, is it? 1358 01:40:51,171 --> 01:40:53,340 You don't know what's going on any more than I do. 1359 01:40:53,423 --> 01:40:56,677 Could you tell me precisely why you're blocking my efforts? 1360 01:40:56,760 --> 01:40:59,555 Dr. Brookner, there are now other investigators. 1361 01:40:59,638 --> 01:41:02,641 This is no longer only your disease, though you seem to think it is. 1362 01:41:02,724 --> 01:41:04,309 Oh, I do, do I? 1363 01:41:04,393 --> 01:41:07,396 And you're here to take it away from me, is that it? 1364 01:41:07,479 --> 01:41:10,190 Well, I'll let you in on a little secret, Doctor. You can have it. 1365 01:41:10,274 --> 01:41:11,714 I didn't want it in the first place. 1366 01:41:11,738 --> 01:41:13,944 You think it's a privilege to watch young men die? 1367 01:41:14,027 --> 01:41:15,571 What am I arguing with you for? 1368 01:41:15,654 --> 01:41:18,073 You do not know enough to study boiled water. 1369 01:41:18,156 --> 01:41:20,242 How dare you come down here and judge me? 1370 01:41:20,325 --> 01:41:23,537 We only serve on this peer review panel at the behest of Dr. Murray. 1371 01:41:23,620 --> 01:41:27,082 Another idiot, and, by the way, a closeted homosexual 1372 01:41:27,165 --> 01:41:30,669 doing everything in his power to sweep this under the rug. 1373 01:41:31,670 --> 01:41:34,047 And I vowed I'd never say anything like that in public. 1374 01:41:34,923 --> 01:41:37,593 How does it always happen that all of the idiots 1375 01:41:37,676 --> 01:41:39,011 are always on your team? 1376 01:41:39,094 --> 01:41:45,434 How can you refuse to fund my research or not invite me to participate in yours? 1377 01:41:45,517 --> 01:41:51,273 Your National Institutes of Health received my first request for money two years ago. 1378 01:41:51,356 --> 01:41:54,610 It took you one year just to print up application forms. 1379 01:41:54,693 --> 01:41:58,780 It's taken you three years from my first reported case just to show up here for a look, 1380 01:41:58,864 --> 01:42:02,743 and the paltry amount of money you are forcing us to beg for 1381 01:42:02,826 --> 01:42:07,456 out of the $4 billion you now receive each and every year 1382 01:42:07,539 --> 01:42:11,168 to protect the health of the American people 1383 01:42:11,376 --> 01:42:14,421 won't come to anyone before only God knows when. 1384 01:42:14,588 --> 01:42:17,007 A promising virus has been discovered in France. 1385 01:42:17,090 --> 01:42:19,009 Why do you refuse to cooperate with the French? 1386 01:42:19,092 --> 01:42:22,596 Why are we told not to cooperate with the French 1387 01:42:22,679 --> 01:42:24,806 just so you can steal a Nobel Prize 1388 01:42:24,890 --> 01:42:28,935 while something is being passed around that causes death? 1389 01:42:31,021 --> 01:42:32,861 Women have been discovered to have it in Africa 1390 01:42:32,885 --> 01:42:35,442 where it is clearly transmitted heterosexually. 1391 01:42:35,525 --> 01:42:39,071 It is only a question of time. We could all be dead 1392 01:42:39,154 --> 01:42:41,573 before you do anything. You want my data? 1393 01:42:41,657 --> 01:42:44,368 You want my ideas? You want my pages? Take 'em! 1394 01:42:44,451 --> 01:42:46,578 Just do something with them! 1395 01:42:52,292 --> 01:42:55,837 You're fucking right. I am imprecise and unfocused, 1396 01:42:55,921 --> 01:42:57,839 and you are all idiots! 1397 01:43:12,396 --> 01:43:14,396 Did you organize that picketing of the Mayor? 1398 01:43:14,420 --> 01:43:15,190 Yes. 1399 01:43:15,273 --> 01:43:17,693 - And the signs? - Yes. 1400 01:43:17,776 --> 01:43:22,364 And your next play is about a first lady who gave the best blowjobs in Hollywood? 1401 01:43:22,447 --> 01:43:24,991 - Yes. - This place is perfect for a new office. 1402 01:43:25,075 --> 01:43:26,159 Yes. 1403 01:43:36,420 --> 01:43:37,421 Tidy. 1404 01:43:39,297 --> 01:43:40,340 Here. 1405 01:43:42,008 --> 01:43:43,802 - Oh. - I got him. I got it. 1406 01:43:43,885 --> 01:43:45,512 Come on. Let's get you back to bed. 1407 01:43:45,595 --> 01:43:46,722 Okay. 1408 01:43:49,182 --> 01:43:50,183 There you go. 1409 01:43:51,476 --> 01:43:53,395 Estelle made you some stuffed cabbage for later. 1410 01:43:53,478 --> 01:43:54,604 Ooh. 1411 01:43:56,982 --> 01:43:59,025 There's this new drug in Paris. 1412 01:44:00,318 --> 01:44:02,529 Kessler's lover's flying out to get it. 1413 01:44:04,656 --> 01:44:06,032 Here it is. 1414 01:44:06,116 --> 01:44:07,909 HPA-23. 1415 01:44:10,662 --> 01:44:11,705 Ned... 1416 01:44:15,459 --> 01:44:16,543 He looks awful. 1417 01:44:16,918 --> 01:44:20,158 Do you think this is anything or is this just another shit drug like all the rest? 1418 01:44:25,177 --> 01:44:28,513 I think you need to prepare yourself for letting go. 1419 01:44:30,640 --> 01:44:33,685 You can't stop fighting for the ones you love. 1420 01:44:34,394 --> 01:44:36,646 Haven't you ever had to fight for somebody you love? 1421 01:44:46,823 --> 01:44:50,035 Tommy, you gotta start putting yourself out there 1422 01:44:50,118 --> 01:44:52,704 in a way that everyone else could see what I see. 1423 01:44:56,666 --> 01:45:00,212 What kind of a fucked up love scene is this? 1424 01:45:10,931 --> 01:45:14,059 Yes? Yes, ma'am. 1425 01:45:15,894 --> 01:45:17,395 4:30 tomorrow? 1426 01:45:17,729 --> 01:45:18,730 Yes, ma'am. 1427 01:45:21,399 --> 01:45:22,400 The fucking White House. 1428 01:45:23,860 --> 01:45:26,822 Fuck the Mayor. I've just been invited to the White House! 1429 01:45:26,905 --> 01:45:27,989 They're gonna do something! 1430 01:45:33,078 --> 01:45:35,205 Oh, just so I understand, 1431 01:45:35,288 --> 01:45:38,917 what exactly does your title mean in terms of our plague? 1432 01:45:39,251 --> 01:45:40,252 Ah... 1433 01:45:40,335 --> 01:45:43,129 We prefer not to use negative terms. It only scares people. 1434 01:45:43,338 --> 01:45:47,175 Well, there's 3,339 cases so far. 1435 01:45:47,259 --> 01:45:49,469 1,122 dead. 1436 01:45:50,136 --> 01:45:53,181 It sounds like a plague to me. I'm scared. Aren't you? 1437 01:45:53,265 --> 01:45:56,017 What does your title mean again? 1438 01:45:56,101 --> 01:46:00,230 I come up with ideas for the President about what he ought to be doing and not doing. 1439 01:46:00,313 --> 01:46:03,525 Okay, good. Got it. So, the money's there, right? 1440 01:46:03,608 --> 01:46:07,112 It just hasn't been spent. So there's this new drug in France. 1441 01:46:07,696 --> 01:46:10,740 Why doesn't the NIH study it? I mean, what I want, what we want, 1442 01:46:10,824 --> 01:46:15,412 what we desperately need is for somebody to help us cut through all this red tape. 1443 01:46:15,495 --> 01:46:17,497 I can assure you that not a week goes by 1444 01:46:17,581 --> 01:46:20,292 that I don't bring new information and reports to the President. 1445 01:46:20,375 --> 01:46:22,855 The progress that's been made on this disease is unprecedented. 1446 01:46:22,879 --> 01:46:25,922 But it's contagious. Can't you see that because it's contagious, 1447 01:46:26,006 --> 01:46:28,133 you have to work faster? 1448 01:46:30,969 --> 01:46:34,723 Do you really believe that anybody in a serious public policy position 1449 01:46:34,806 --> 01:46:38,768 in their heart of hearts, or even in their most closeted meeting says to each other, 1450 01:46:39,060 --> 01:46:41,646 "Hey, guys, let's not get too upset about this"? 1451 01:46:41,730 --> 01:46:45,108 Yes. Your boss hasn't said the word "AIDS" out loud. 1452 01:46:57,954 --> 01:47:00,332 Answer me this one question. Um... 1453 01:47:01,082 --> 01:47:05,420 This shit, can hookers get it or, you know, someone who had a one-night stand? 1454 01:47:05,503 --> 01:47:07,505 - Of course! - You can't prove that. 1455 01:47:07,589 --> 01:47:09,629 I mean, from what I understand, from what I've read, 1456 01:47:09,653 --> 01:47:12,969 female-to-male transmission through normal vaginal intercourse 1457 01:47:13,053 --> 01:47:14,453 does not seem to be very efficient. 1458 01:47:14,477 --> 01:47:17,474 That simply isn't true. It's a virus. It doesn't discriminate. 1459 01:47:17,557 --> 01:47:21,770 Yes, but it's very difficult, isn't it? 1460 01:47:21,853 --> 01:47:26,691 It's almost impossible for a straight, you know, regular 1461 01:47:26,775 --> 01:47:28,652 heterosexual guy to get it. Am I right? 1462 01:47:28,735 --> 01:47:31,154 - I'm sorry? - There's no documented cases, am I right? 1463 01:47:31,237 --> 01:47:35,825 I mean, there's not a single documented case of a heterosexual man 1464 01:47:35,909 --> 01:47:39,621 getting it, not from fucking or a blowjob. 1465 01:47:39,704 --> 01:47:41,581 I don't have that information. 1466 01:47:47,921 --> 01:47:50,215 Great. That's what I thought. 1467 01:47:56,346 --> 01:48:00,934 Susan, call my meeting. I'll be about 15 minutes late. Thanks. 1468 01:48:06,690 --> 01:48:07,899 Thank you so much. 1469 01:48:07,983 --> 01:48:10,485 - Call me any time. - Wait. Please, sir. Wait... 1470 01:48:18,243 --> 01:48:24,416 One hundred million predicted and nobody is paying any attention! 1471 01:48:25,625 --> 01:48:27,752 I need security on the second floor. 1472 01:48:57,615 --> 01:48:58,935 Why are you sitting on the floor? 1473 01:48:59,284 --> 01:49:02,162 I fell down trying to get from there to here. 1474 01:49:07,625 --> 01:49:09,335 Oh, don't touch me. God. 1475 01:49:13,590 --> 01:49:15,383 I hate it when you look at me. 1476 01:49:19,471 --> 01:49:22,307 You hungry? I'm hungry. How about you? 1477 01:49:24,809 --> 01:49:26,186 I looked in all my date books. 1478 01:49:27,771 --> 01:49:31,107 No one else I slept with is sick. Maybe you're the carrier. 1479 01:49:37,947 --> 01:49:40,658 We don't have to do this to each other. 1480 01:49:41,701 --> 01:49:43,369 You're gonna get better, Felix. You are. 1481 01:49:47,832 --> 01:49:49,352 - Emma says the NIH... - Emma, oh, God. 1482 01:49:49,376 --> 01:49:51,419 ...is finally starting research. We have to hope. 1483 01:49:51,503 --> 01:49:52,712 - Oh, do we? - Yes, we do. 1484 01:49:52,796 --> 01:49:55,882 Do we? And how am I supposed to do that? Huh? 1485 01:50:02,097 --> 01:50:03,598 Stop eating that shit! 1486 01:50:05,141 --> 01:50:06,392 No! 1487 01:50:08,269 --> 01:50:10,349 You know how important it is to watch your nutrition! 1488 01:50:10,373 --> 01:50:12,315 I have a life expectancy of 10 more minutes. 1489 01:50:12,398 --> 01:50:14,526 I'll eat what I want to eat. 1490 01:50:21,699 --> 01:50:22,700 Ned... 1491 01:50:25,370 --> 01:50:27,038 It's getting messier, okay? 1492 01:50:28,790 --> 01:50:31,459 I don't want to make you see it. 1493 01:50:31,543 --> 01:50:34,423 Nobody can make me do anything. You should know that better than anybody. 1494 01:50:34,462 --> 01:50:37,102 Now are you gonna sit there on the floor for the rest of your life? 1495 01:50:37,436 --> 01:50:38,796 - Do you hear me? - Do you hear me? 1496 01:50:38,820 --> 01:50:40,009 No! - No? 1497 01:50:40,093 --> 01:50:42,345 I've had over 40 treatments. No? 1498 01:50:43,388 --> 01:50:47,517 I've had three, no, four different kinds of chemo. No! 1499 01:50:47,976 --> 01:50:49,727 I've had three different experimentals. 1500 01:50:49,811 --> 01:50:53,565 Emma has spent more time on me than anyone else, and it hasn't done a thing! 1501 01:50:55,859 --> 01:50:58,319 You cannot force the goddamn sun to come out! 1502 01:50:58,403 --> 01:51:05,326 I am so sick of fighting and everybody's stupidity and blindness and guilt trips. 1503 01:51:05,743 --> 01:51:07,943 You know, if you can't eat the food, don't eat the food. 1504 01:51:07,967 --> 01:51:10,177 I don't care. Take your poison. I don't care! 1505 01:51:10,790 --> 01:51:13,251 Fish is good for you! Don't want any of that, do we? 1506 01:51:13,626 --> 01:51:14,878 No green salad! 1507 01:51:15,920 --> 01:51:19,966 No broccoli! No vegetables! No bread with seven grain! 1508 01:51:21,759 --> 01:51:23,199 Why would anyone ever want any milk? 1509 01:51:23,261 --> 01:51:26,139 You might get some calcium in your bones! 1510 01:51:26,222 --> 01:51:29,601 Do you want to die, Felix? Die! 1511 01:51:56,920 --> 01:51:59,631 - Please don't leave me, Felix. - I'm sorry. 1512 01:52:07,347 --> 01:52:09,224 Keep out! Keep out! Keep out! 1513 01:52:09,307 --> 01:52:11,809 Keep out! Keep out! Keep out! 1514 01:52:11,893 --> 01:52:14,270 Keep out! Keep out! 1515 01:52:14,354 --> 01:52:16,689 Keep out! Keep out! Keep out! 1516 01:52:16,773 --> 01:52:20,777 Keep out! Keep out! Keep out! Keep out! Keep out! 1517 01:52:20,860 --> 01:52:23,821 Keep out! Keep out! Keep out! 1518 01:52:35,750 --> 01:52:37,085 Assholes. 1519 01:52:37,335 --> 01:52:38,836 - Gay Men's Health Crisis. - And the other reporter, 1520 01:52:38,920 --> 01:52:40,000 and they're gonna be there? 1521 01:52:40,004 --> 01:52:41,004 Thrush is a fungus, yes. 1522 01:52:41,047 --> 01:52:42,887 Can you tell him that we'll be picketing there? 1523 01:52:42,911 --> 01:52:44,676 And not afraid of arrest or police brutality. 1524 01:52:44,759 --> 01:52:45,760 That's right. 1525 01:52:45,843 --> 01:52:49,430 The Mayor has four more hours before we carry out our threats of civil disobedience 1526 01:52:49,514 --> 01:52:50,682 if he doesn't meet with us. 1527 01:52:50,848 --> 01:52:52,208 Tommy got the call yesterday, Ned. 1528 01:52:54,852 --> 01:52:56,187 Why didn't you tell me? 1529 01:52:57,355 --> 01:52:58,606 You see, it works! 1530 01:52:59,357 --> 01:53:02,360 - When? When? - Only two can go to the meeting, Ned. 1531 01:53:04,195 --> 01:53:05,238 When? 1532 01:53:05,321 --> 01:53:07,490 - Tommy's executive director. - I'm going. 1533 01:53:09,284 --> 01:53:12,328 - I polled the fucking board, Ned. - I wrote that letter to the Mayor. 1534 01:53:12,412 --> 01:53:16,082 That meeting is mine. I am going to go and represent this organization 1535 01:53:16,165 --> 01:53:18,876 that I've spent every minute of my life fighting for 1536 01:53:18,960 --> 01:53:21,379 and that was started in my living room, or I quit. 1537 01:53:29,012 --> 01:53:30,054 You'd let me quit? 1538 01:53:39,939 --> 01:53:42,025 The board asked me to read this out loud to you. 1539 01:53:42,108 --> 01:53:43,276 - Read what? - A letter. 1540 01:53:51,075 --> 01:53:52,076 Go on. Read it. 1541 01:53:55,872 --> 01:54:00,084 "We are circulating this letter widely among people of judgment and good sense. 1542 01:54:02,086 --> 01:54:05,340 "You are on a colossal ego trip we must curtail. 1543 01:54:07,008 --> 01:54:11,179 "To manipulate fear, as you have done repeatedly, is to us sheer barbarism. 1544 01:54:13,598 --> 01:54:16,934 "To exploit the deaths of gay men, as you have done on television 1545 01:54:17,560 --> 01:54:22,774 "and in publications all over America, is to us an act of vandalism. 1546 01:54:24,150 --> 01:54:29,947 "And after years of liberation, you helped make sex dirty again for us, 1547 01:54:31,282 --> 01:54:33,910 "terrible and forbidden. 1548 01:54:34,952 --> 01:54:39,791 "We are more angry at you than ever in our lives toward anyone. 1549 01:54:40,917 --> 01:54:43,503 "We think you want to lead us all. 1550 01:54:44,462 --> 01:54:48,341 "Well, we do not want you to lead us. 1551 01:54:52,970 --> 01:54:58,684 "In accordance with our bylaws as drawn out by Weeks, Frankel, Levinstein, 1552 01:54:59,936 --> 01:55:04,524 "Mr. Ned Weeks is hereby removed as a director of Gay Men's Health Crisis. 1553 01:55:05,983 --> 01:55:08,236 "We beg that you leave us quietly 1554 01:55:09,987 --> 01:55:13,491 "and not destroy us and what good work we manage 1555 01:55:14,409 --> 01:55:18,162 "despite your disapproval, effective immediately." 1556 01:55:42,270 --> 01:55:47,984 Ned, the executive director isn't on the board. You know that. I don't have a vote. 1557 01:55:48,192 --> 01:55:49,944 And what could I have done? 1558 01:55:50,027 --> 01:55:52,196 - You didn't support me. - That's not true. 1559 01:55:52,280 --> 01:55:55,575 You're all nothing but undertakers. This whole organization is a funeral parlor. 1560 01:55:55,658 --> 01:55:57,785 - Ned. - All you do is take care of the dying. 1561 01:55:57,869 --> 01:55:59,709 Who's fighting so the living can go on living? 1562 01:56:00,413 --> 01:56:02,248 Who's fighting for my Felix? 1563 01:56:02,331 --> 01:56:04,584 Tommy, we need you upstairs. 1564 01:56:10,882 --> 01:56:15,803 I belong to a culture that includes Marcel Proust, Walt Whitman, Tennessee Williams, 1565 01:56:15,887 --> 01:56:19,390 Alexander the Great, so many popes and cardinals you wouldn't believe. 1566 01:56:20,057 --> 01:56:23,186 Mr. Green Beret, did you know that it was an openly gay Englishman 1567 01:56:23,269 --> 01:56:25,480 who was responsible for winning World War ll? 1568 01:56:25,563 --> 01:56:28,691 His name's Alan Turing and he cracked the German's Enigma code. 1569 01:56:29,108 --> 01:56:32,195 After the war was over, he committed suicide 'cause he was so hounded 1570 01:56:32,278 --> 01:56:35,781 for being gay. Why didn't they teach any of that in schools? 1571 01:56:36,782 --> 01:56:40,495 A gay man is responsible for winning World War ll! 1572 01:56:42,413 --> 01:56:45,293 If they did, maybe he wouldn't have killed himself and you wouldn't be so 1573 01:56:45,317 --> 01:56:46,861 terrified of who you are. 1574 01:56:50,922 --> 01:56:52,798 That's how I want to be remembered, 1575 01:56:54,050 --> 01:56:55,410 as one of the men who won the war. 1576 01:57:00,097 --> 01:57:05,770 Bruce, I know that I'm an asshole. But please don't shut me out. 1577 01:57:44,141 --> 01:57:45,184 Go. 1578 01:58:00,324 --> 01:58:02,285 Your brother and I are lovers. 1579 01:58:04,412 --> 01:58:06,330 I'm dying and I need to make a will. 1580 01:58:09,667 --> 01:58:11,335 - Please. - Thank you. 1581 01:58:25,224 --> 01:58:27,935 I want to leave everything to Ned. 1582 01:58:31,272 --> 01:58:32,273 How's my brother? 1583 01:58:32,481 --> 01:58:35,318 Well, he blames himself for everything, 1584 01:58:35,401 --> 01:58:39,864 from my dying to the state of the entire world. 1585 01:58:40,698 --> 01:58:43,200 All that plus you two still not talking. 1586 01:58:46,412 --> 01:58:48,372 You must be as stubborn as he is. 1587 01:58:51,000 --> 01:58:52,752 I'll call him right away. 1588 01:58:52,835 --> 01:58:55,421 Do. He's at home packing. 1589 01:58:55,504 --> 01:58:58,215 We're going to Yale in a few days 1590 01:58:58,299 --> 01:59:00,468 for Gay Week. 1591 01:59:02,386 --> 01:59:03,888 He says he can't believe it. 1592 01:59:06,682 --> 01:59:09,185 He tried to kill himself there when he was a freshman. 1593 01:59:14,899 --> 01:59:16,734 I haven't much, uh, 1594 01:59:18,903 --> 01:59:23,616 except for a beautiful piece of land on the Cape in Wellfleet. 1595 01:59:25,576 --> 01:59:29,538 Ned doesn't know about it. It was to have been a surprise 1596 01:59:30,247 --> 01:59:35,378 for when we'd live there together or riding away happily ever after. 1597 01:59:36,921 --> 01:59:41,926 I also have an insurance policy with The Times. 1598 01:59:42,009 --> 01:59:45,262 I'm a reporter for The New York Times. 1599 01:59:45,346 --> 01:59:47,139 It's meant to come to my next of kin. 1600 01:59:49,016 --> 01:59:50,726 I'm afraid they might not give it to him. 1601 01:59:50,810 --> 01:59:52,853 Well, if he's listed as a beneficiary, they must. 1602 01:59:52,937 --> 01:59:55,272 You're smarter than that. Don't be so naive. 1603 01:59:55,398 --> 01:59:58,442 I assure you, I will fight to make sure that they do. 1604 02:00:02,238 --> 02:00:04,323 I was hoping you'd say that. 1605 02:00:12,957 --> 02:00:14,166 Felix, 1606 02:00:16,752 --> 02:00:18,713 I wish we'd met sooner. 1607 02:01:14,685 --> 02:01:17,188 I should be wearing something white. 1608 02:01:17,271 --> 02:01:19,023 You are, honey. 1609 02:01:20,357 --> 02:01:25,654 It should... It should be something Perry Ellis ran up for me 1610 02:01:25,738 --> 02:01:26,739 personally. 1611 02:01:34,246 --> 02:01:35,289 Ned... 1612 02:01:41,295 --> 02:01:43,297 You find a way to fight again. 1613 02:01:45,883 --> 02:01:47,301 I Will. 1614 02:01:52,848 --> 02:01:57,019 Hey, hey, hey-Hey- 1615 02:02:06,070 --> 02:02:08,781 Emma, Emma, 1616 02:02:09,031 --> 02:02:10,074 could we... 1617 02:02:10,658 --> 02:02:12,785 Could we start now, please? 1618 02:02:22,127 --> 02:02:26,507 We are gathered here in the sight of God to join together these two men. 1619 02:02:28,175 --> 02:02:29,593 They love each other 1620 02:02:30,511 --> 02:02:36,433 very much and want to be married in the presence of their family and friends. 1621 02:02:40,855 --> 02:02:45,526 I see no objection. Do you, Felix Turner, 1622 02:02:46,652 --> 02:02:47,945 take Ned Weeks... 1623 02:02:48,028 --> 02:02:50,781 Alexander. Yeah. 1624 02:02:53,993 --> 02:02:55,286 To be your... 1625 02:02:55,369 --> 02:02:59,248 My great true love. 1626 02:03:05,129 --> 02:03:07,590 - I do. - Yeah? 1627 02:03:10,467 --> 02:03:13,637 I do. I do. 1628 02:03:15,180 --> 02:03:21,145 I do. I do. I do. I do. 1629 02:03:50,382 --> 02:03:52,509 This is Tommy. 1630 02:04:00,017 --> 02:04:01,852 Thanks for letting me know.